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How to Find Soul Prosperity When You Feel Alone

How to Find Soul Prosperity When You Feel Alone

A wide winter landscape photo of a vast frozen lake with a massive, snow-capped mountain peak rising on the far side beneath heavy cloud cover.
Anchored in stillness: a lake resting at the base of life’s most massive, snow-covered peaks.

In all my years of putting up with afflictions, I would never have come to my ultimate conclusion. I am like a lost sheep that does not have anywhere to go. Furthermore, I am in a strange land of opportunities, but I feel all alone.

Please help me, Jesus, in Your blood spread all over this world, and let us take action. For the wages of sin have come to their conclusion, and why should the innocent suffer without cause? I wish not death on this man that has judged me, but peace to the Earth.

You have taught me immeasurable lessons, and You alone walked me through the fire. I have no fight left. Oh, Jesus, I am scared. Please bring the Comforter down and rest with me while I grow in knowledge, wisdom, communication, compassion, understanding, and patience.

Lord, You put many words in my vocabulary. I thank You. Lord, keep near our children; You are the only one they can trust.

Hear them, Lord, each time they speak, for I know their pain. Lord, I have to say this: God bless him and her for their lack of knowledge; justification will come in Your time, not mine.

The pain is here, but I lift, as best I can, my pain, for it hurts to wait so long over something I have no control over.

Lord, I know You have not forsaken me, but what must I do now? Where shall I go to rest? Who do I talk to? Who is it that should tell me where to stay next? I feel I have nothing left. Am I to blame for all this mess?

My father said, “You are not a messenger of God.” I say, “Everyone is a messenger of God. We all need to find God this generation, for it is up—not the end of time, but the beginning of eternity.”

Our lives are muddled in all the generational garbage that man and his ancestors have kept alive: greed, materialism, and wants, not needs. Everyone is affected.

I need to write to the afflicted; I am not alone. I have to fight for God’s truth, in God’s time.

“In the name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit, as it was in the beginning, is now, and ever shall be, world without end.” Thanks be to God the Father, God the Son, and God the Holy Ghost.

I have nowhere to hide. Show me Your Way. Show me through Your Eyes. Show me through Your Guidance.

Show me through Your Courage, understanding, wisdom, fortitude, acceptance, and patience. The Oneness of Eternity which You possess.

Bring Your Word Alive through me. Let me be diligent in receipt of Your Gift to me, and let’s together proclaim the prosperity of soul, life through Jesus Christ our Savior.

March 4, 1996

“What man of you, having an hundred sheep, if he lose one of them, doth not leave the ninety and nine in the wilderness, and go after that which is lost, until he find it?”
— Luke 15:4 (KJV)

“Hear my prayer, O Lord, and give ear unto my cry; hold not thy peace at my tears: for I am a stranger with thee, and a sojourner, as all my fathers were.”
— Psalm 39:12 (KJV)

“Fear thou not; for I am with thee: be not dismayed; for I am thy God: I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness.”
— Isaiah 41:10 (KJV)

Daily Affirmations

I. Guided Steps: I am never a truly lost sheep, because Jesus Christ knows my exact location and is actively guiding my soul through this strange land.

II. Ultimate Comfort: I release my heavy fears and exhaustion to the Comforter, allowing His divine wisdom, patience, and fortitude to rest upon me while I grow.

III. A Messenger of Truth: I am a unique messenger of God’s eternal love, called to write comfort to the afflicted and bring His living Word alive through my testimony.

Reflection

Written in the early spring of 1996, this deeply transparent piece captures the profound vulnerability of feeling completely isolated in a transitional wilderness.

Standing at a crossroad of deep exhaustion and fear, the author models absolute surrender by turning away from human judgment and pouring out a raw prayer directly to Jesus Christ.

The text powerfully identifies the universal truth that everyone is called to be a messenger of divine grace, breaking free from muddled generational cycles of greed and materialism.

By crying out for the Comforter, this poignant message transforms an intense season of affliction into a training ground for spiritual growth, anchoring a broken heart in the ultimate realization that soul prosperity and rest belong entirely to Christ.

Originally published on inpresenceofspirit.com

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Finding Powerful Peace with No Cover Up For My Abused Self

“The Lord is nigh unto them that are of a broken heart; and save such as be of a contrite spirit.”
— Psalm 34:18 (KJV)

A dramatic landscape perspective looking down an asphalt road with a massive, towering sheer rock mountain rising steeply on the right side
Standing small in the presence of life’s massive structures, anchored by an open path forward.

“Who hath delivered us from the power of darkness, and hath translated us into the kingdom of his dear Son:”
— Colossians 1:13 (KJV)

“To open their eyes, and to turn them from darkness to light, and from the power of Satan unto God, that they may receive forgiveness of sins, and inheritance among them which are sanctified by faith that is in me.”
— Acts 26:18 (KJV)

Daily Affirmations

I. Out of Darkness: By the power of Jesus Christ, I am lifted out of the heavy darkness of trauma and carried into a pure state of divine grace.

II. Redeemed Testimony: My past survival is not a curse, but a sacred gift meant to bring comfort, healing, and light to a suffering world.

III. The Dwelling of Peace: I open the inner chamber of my heart completely, trusting that the Holy Spirit has ignited an eternal light that no earthly pain can dim.

No Cover Up For My Abused Self

You know I have felt over the years that it is only in the Spirit of our dear Heavenly Father. Since I started writing the book at the beginning of 1996, I have wondered: Who am I to write what I have, and who in the world cares about what I have done?

But all the while, time and time again, it was my journey from the darkness of my soul to bring light back to my soul for the loss of my life and my love.

Through my writings, it lifts me out of darkness into a state of grace. Grace is given by Jesus Christ. I know my pain was buried; my pain was ugly, and my pain was right in my face. When I left, I was in shock.

I searched deep into myself through all the readings, all the prayers, all the crying and mourning, and through the things I put up with on the emotional roller coaster of the negative that had consumed our lives.

I had no cover-up for my abused self, from him or from me, for losing myself to the lie, because that is all it was. I once said, “If this was all a game, everyone lost.” Well, you know, the only thing we lost was the fight.

My straightforward being is a constant in these writings. It is only in the spirit of our dear Heavenly Father, who made my experience a gift and not a curse.

It is a gift to mankind for the remission of the world’s sins. In God, I live through Jesus Christ, and His Holy Spirit has ignited the light in my soul to induce the omnipresence of every prayer for humankind, opening up the kingdom of heaven within each one of us.

Oh please, who am I? No one, not even myself, picks me apart. The Lord, through me, gave me His Holy Spirit to perpetuate an ongoing dialogue with Him “In Presence of Spirit.” That is what is up.

All summed up for me, right? No! Not for a second. It is made “In Presence of Spirit” for His purpose, to stay with me until the end of time and forever. Now, this is the only forever, I can only imagine.

It was never a competition against or with the husband of my youth. Although it is obvious, I am not competing. I stayed unmarried, and he was married all but three months of those fourteen years.

Our kids are adults; his kids are in the first grade and kindergarten. Now he is staying, making it right. His little game caught up with him. Now that I know it was all his game, because he always competed with me for some strange reason—reasons that have now come to pass.

I survived every obstacle to complete for me, mine, and the Lord’s, “In Presence of Spirit” to be shared. It is a must of my desire and my quest.

I cannot in my mortality state it any different. I refuse to be embarrassed about my small part in this. To repeat: “But what oneself is to You, dear Lord.” He gave me my heart and my soul back “In Presence of Spirit—The Original Writing.”

I thought long and hard about that—the first piece of my heart that He gave me eyes to see so I could write it down “In Presence of Spirit.” And then closed they went. I was part of the negative inside me, not just my negative, but everyone’s. Take it any way you want it.

I have to see it through; no door has opened yet, so this is all or nothing. What do I have to lose? I guess I am the one who is going to open that door. Hey! What? The door has already been opened, and no one dared to come into Wendy’s “In Presence of Spirit.” When they do, I know I will feel better. I love it; He gave me meaning before, during, and after my misery.

In the presence of my misery, Jesus took my hand and guided me out of darkness into the light of His ever-presence. I have been a silent partner with Christ in me, the hope of glory.

Silent I must not be anymore; too many are suffering. Although I still do not speak what I wrote, if it is the Holy Spirit’s will for me to speak at that time, so be it, with one heart to heal.

October 27, 2008

Reflection

October 2008, this landmark foundational writing serves as a raw, unfiltered bridge between a devastating past and a divinely appointed future.

It marks the exact moment the writer completely sheds the painful weight of survival, choosing transparency over concealment and recognizing that a broken road can be turned into a holy instrument.

By viewing a season of severe personal trial not as a permanent curse but as an active spiritual gift, the text illustrates how personal survival transforms into a guiding light for others who are quietly suffering.

Walking hand-in-hand with Jesus out of the shock of trauma, this piece stands as an open gateway—inviting readers to leave behind human games, break their silence, and step directly into the healing, ever-present warmth of the Holy Spirit.

Originally published on inpresenceofspirit.com

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How to Boldly Place Your Journey In Jesus’ Hands

“Commit thy way unto the Lord; trust also in him; and he shall bring it to pass.”
— Psalm 37:5 (KJV)

“Casting all your care upon him; for he careth for you.”
— 1 Peter 5:7 (KJV)

“I can do all things through Christ which strengthen me.”
— Philippians 4:13 (KJV)

Daily Affirmations

I. Absolute Trust: I place my entire life, path, and purpose securely into the hands of Jesus Christ.

II. Divine Timing: I rest in the truth that God’s perfect timing is unfolding today, opening doors that no man can shut.

III. Fearless Sharing: The Holy Spirit grants me bold strength to share Christ’s overflowing love with a world in need of healing.

I Place The Matter In Your Hands

The name changed many times. The whole incredible trip from beyond the dead to life “in Christ” is so awesome that I have to share it, whether or not you are ready. It is finally ready to be let free.

Now is the time; then was not the time. I had a lot more writing to do. These are the last hours of the close of this, my testimony of Jesus Christ. I will read yours, whoever you might be.

Dear Jesus Christ, I am coming to You at the end of this journey with You in writing. I figure this is Your designated time for me to complete the scripts that are in the book.

As stated, I have to look past myself and give others what Jesus Christ has given me. For whoever will ever read this work, it is full of wordy expressions of love through the Spirit of the oneness of hope and faith. There is a better today for all concerned.

This is for everyone in Heart and Soul Revelation through Christ Jesus, who strengthens the congregation through you, in you, with you, and round about the glory of you, Jesus Christ, in Your World Awakening.

“I love You, Jesus Christ.” I miss You. I have to share You with the world in Your hands. Furthermore, I place the matter of fact in Your hands.

Crisis centers are full of people needing help right now; there is no time to wait. Forever and a day passes, and that day never comes if we wait.

Oh, I have waited so long for this day to finally come. It is at my gate. I know my boldness will peek through, and the doors will start swinging open. Oh Lord, have mercy on us.

November 26, 2008

Reflection

Written in late 2008, this poignant entry captures the raw emotional culmination of a lifelong writing journey.

Moving beyond personal hesitation, the author courageously steps into a calling to share an intimate testimony of Jesus Christ with a world facing immediate crisis.

The piece beautifully transitions from personal prayer into a corporate declaration for “World Awakening.”

It highlights the spiritual truth that ultimate peace is found only when we lift our burdens out of our own grip and boldly place them directly into our Savior’s hands, trusting that He will swing open the gates in His perfect time.

Originally published on inpresenceofspirit.com

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Open Your Heart to Understanding | Spirit Presence

“Whosoever believe in him should not perish but have eternal life.”
— John 3:16 (KJV)

“For we walk by faith, not by sight.”
— 2 Corinthians 5:7 (KJV)

Dramatic dark storm clouds hanging over a brilliant orange sunset between mountains with a winding river below.
Finding the light of hope tucked between the darkest clouds and the heavy mountains of life.

“Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new.”
— 2 Corinthians 5:17 (KJV)

Daily Affirmations

I. Divine Guidance: The Holy Spirit is my constant Guide, filling my heart with the peace and strength of Jesus Christ.

II. Complete Surrender: As I release my own will to Him, His pure love envelops and shelters me completely, bringing divine understanding and steadfast protection to my soul.

III. Renewed Strength: I walk by faith and not by sight, confident that the regenerating power of God cleanses all pain and anchors me in His perfect time.

Open Your Heart to Understanding

Read 2 Corinthians 5 in one sitting! You will be home soon. He will come, and you will have the strength to go on whichever road He chooses. Follow Him always. In your heart are all the answers of the universe, which will bring the peace you so desire.

The Holy Spirit is your Guide. The Lord is the Light. The Lord is the strength that makes the seed grow. The Lord is in you. Let the Passion of Christ encircle you completely. Give up your will and put it into the stretched-out arms that God, through Jesus Christ our Savior, is holding out for you.

Referring to Oswald Chambers My Utmost for His Highest, I hope you have read some entries of the book I passed up to you. There is no holding back, so it is necessary to tell you that I have had it for a year. There are so many revelations in his writings; he guides you through the distinct reality in which we live with Christ, and the opposition of the cleansing and sanctification that follow after Salvation.

Complete purification comes through baptism and deliverance from sin and temptation. All falls into God’s place and time. The regenerating forces of God’s power cleanse you of all your pain, placing strength within you alongside knowledge and ultimate understanding.

It is a gift. “God so loved the world He gave His only begotten Son, Jesus Christ, that whoever should ever believe in His name,” in the faith of His glorious love for His chosen, will not die but have eternal, everlasting life. As written in the King James Version: “Whosoever believe in him should not perish but have eternal life.”

The life in which we are living is full of man’s traits in succession of time. This constitutes the loss of one’s rightful place. Purification, through the pure love of Christ and the ultimate abandonment of one’s own will, is a path to which there is no other.

The love of Christ penetrates the smallest opening, even as tiny as a mustard seed. Once this occurs, His love envelops you. Although rough times are ahead, you are sheltered with and through the Lord.

Your protection is in Him, through Him, and round about Him. The Glory comes through with His magnificent power and glory, and you know you are loved through the faith you hold in our Lord Jesus Christ.

December 8, 1996

Reflection

This profound piece, written in the winter of 1996, calls for a deep and ultimate surrender to the presence of Christ.

By drawing inspiration from the timeless devotion of Oswald Chambers and the transforming truths of 2 Corinthians 5, it highlights the journey of shifting from the active mind to the quiet, receptive spaces of the heart.

The text captures the essence of true spiritual purification—allowing the tiny seed of Christ’s love to take root, break through human limitations, and expand into an all-encompassing shelter.

Even when the road ahead appears rough or uncertain, this message serves as a comforting reminder that complete protection, divine peace, and life eternal are found entirely within His extended, merciful arms.

Originally published on inpresenceofspirit.com

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In Presence of Spirit: Accessing Life Under Christ’s Authority

Access

Original Writing

A beautiful photo looking across a serene, glassy lake at a grand rock mountain rising tall on the other side under a peaceful, open sky.
Finding beauty and steady hope across the waters of life

Accessing my life’s circumstances under, The Authority of Christ Jesus, Power Calling. Has made the days, accessible. To a broader range, of the conscience, of humanity, to heal itself. In the revelations, from sin to forgiveness.

The portal of awareness is expanded, in the now, the time of reason. Beyond, the misconception, of the multitudes. To bring forth, love, and understanding.

Courage to follow His voice in the unveiling of the truth, which is in everyone’s soul. The Process of Faith is Forward. To the Dawning of Life, to Uphold, Our Savior Christ Jesus in His Majestic Works, of Infinite Encouragement.

The Fulfillment of God’s Gift to Mankind in One Heart, One Soul, One Love, and One Faith. The Joy of the Everlasting Past, Present, and Future Estates, the Promises, from Time’s Beginning. The Fulfillment, of God’s Promises. That is given to the offspring of our forefathers. December 8, 1997.

Scriptures

Ephesians 2:18
For through him we both have access by one Spirit unto the Father.

Hebrews 4:16
Let us therefore come boldly unto the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy, and find grace to help in time of need.

Romans 5:2
By whom also we have access by faith into this grace wherein we stand, and rejoice in hope of the glory of God.

Affirmations

Under the authority of Christ Jesus, I have total access to grace, allowing the circumstances of my life to bring forth love, healing, and understanding.

The portal of my spiritual awareness is expanded in the here and now, giving me the courage to follow His voice in perfect clarity.

My faith is moving steadily forward toward the dawning of life, resting completely in the fulfillment of God’s eternal promises.

Reflection

“Access” reveals the profound spiritual truth that our life’s circumstances are entirely transformed when placed under the divine authority of Christ Jesus.

The worldly limitations and misconceptions of the multitudes fade away as the portal of true awareness opens in the here and now.

True access is not a complex mystery to solve, but a golden gateway into the throne of grace, shifting our steps from the heavy burdens of sin into the boundless freedom of forgiveness.

This writing stands as a powerful reminder that the process of faith is always moving forward, carrying the soul past old tunnels and toward a radiant new dawn.

By anchoring our hearts in His majestic works, we step into the true fulfillment of an everlasting inheritance, perfectly united in one heart, one soul, and one faith.

Originally published on inpresenceofspirit.com

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Weathered Me: In the Here and Now of Yesterday’s Tomorrows

Original Writing: Weathered Me

A beautiful country ranch featuring a vibrant green field in the foreground, stretching toward a majestic range of snow-capped mountains in the far distance with a large, beautiful moon shining on the left-hand side.
Finding beauty and steady hope along the winding journey.

See, all the while in the midst of me, You weathered me through the storm. To come to write, “In Presence of Spirit,” and I captured remarkable revelations, with a knowledge hidden until now.

God’s blessing on, “The World is Peace.” The Kingdom of God is within. The Light of Jesus, Shines Forth for the Regeneration of the World in One Heart, One Mind, to the Glory of God at His Coming.

The Love of God Surrounds Us, in “Infinite Union of the Spirit of Christ.” Which dwells, in the portal, of everyone’s soul, take the key, open up to Father God. You will finally and ultimately be home.

Right here “in the here, and now of yesterday’s tomorrows,” and not after human death, after salvation, redemption, baptism, or deliverance through Christ, life begins. No date.

Scriptures

Isaiah 25:4
For thou hast been a strength to the poor, a strength to the needy in his distress, a refuge from the storm, a shadow from the heat, when the blast of the terrible ones is as a storm against the wall.

Luke 17:21
Neither shall they say, Lo here! or, lo there! for, behold, the kingdom of God is within you.

Romans 6:4
Therefore we are buried with him by baptism into death: that like as Christ was raised up from the dead by the glory of the Father, even so we also should walk in newness of life.

Affirmations

The Lord has safely weathered me through every storm of life, anchoring my heart in remarkable revelations and hidden knowledge.

I hold the key to the portal of my soul, opening up completely to Father God where I am ultimately and finally home.

I choose to live in the eternal here and now of yesterday’s tomorrows, walking boldly in the true newness of life right now.

Reflection

“Weathered Me” stands as a magnificent, timeless testimony to the profound protection of our Creator in the middle of life’s trials.

While the storms of the world rage on the outside, a quiet, divine work takes place on the inside.

The Lord shields our innermost being, keeping us safe so that we can emerge to capture hidden spiritual knowledge and remarkable revelations.

True peace is found when we realize that the kingdom of heaven is not a distant reward to wait for after human death, but an active, living presence dwelling inside the soul right now.

By turning the key of faith, we unlock an infinite union with Jesus Christ. This piece calls us to step out of the shadows of the past and into the radiant dawn of the here and now, where true life begins.

Originally published on inpresenceofspirit.com

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The Book is a Blessing: A Powerful Story of Hope

Original Writing:

The Book is a Blessing

A beautiful photo looking across a wide, open field stretching forward to a majestic rock mountain range rising under a grand sky in the far background.
Finding Steady Hope Along the Winding Journey

The book is a blessing; I cannot help that I believe this. I have always thought the book was not about me. “My search through the valleys, and tunnels, that my life’s circumstances have unfolded.” But it is. I did not mean to be vain, in any way.

My boldness is in the spirit of the Lord’s presence, where everything is possible. Thus the I of Me, speaks for everyone, not just myself. So it is alright that, I am in the presence of spirit in conversations with the Lord, because I am.

Thank you, Jesus, for the presence of your spirit in all our conversations. Bless the husband of my youth, with the wealth of, Your Spirit, indwelling his ever-presence, and bring him, where you need him to be. Thank you, Jesus.

My eyes, I am staying out of the sun. Even with double sunglasses, I have blind areas in my eyes. I have given Jesus my love, my attendance, and every page is “In Presence of Spirit.” But for me, I have not given myself, entirely to my Savior, for I feel, I am unworthy. The Lord still forgives me and gives me the OK, to publish Our Conversations With The Lord.

Jesus Christ, steadfastly I call out into the barren wilderness of all the lost souls. Bring them closer to home, bring them inside, themselves, where you are, “In Presence of Spirit.” September 2009

Scriptures

Luke 1:45
And blessed is she that believed: for there shall be a performance of those things which were told her from the Lord.

Ephesians 3:12
In whom we have boldness and access with confidence by the faith of him.

Psalm 23:4
Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.

Affirmations

I stand boldly in the presence of the Lord, trusting that He has blessed my writings to speak to the hearts of everyone who reads them.

Though I may feel unworthy, I fully accept the Lord’s complete forgiveness and His divine permission to publish our sacred conversations.

My words are a guiding light sent into the barren wilderness to bring lost souls safely back home into the presence of Spirit.

Reflection

“The Book is a Blessing” serves as a profound threshold where personal affliction is completely transformed into a global spiritual sanctuary.

Walking through the darkest tunnels and valleys of life can leave a soul feeling isolated and physically worn.

Yet, when we surrender our lives entirely to the Savior, we discover that our deepest trials were never meant to remain hidden.

True boldness is born out of this total reliance on the Holy Spirit, allowing an ordinary person to become a voice for the multitudes.

Even in moments where human sight fades and feelings of unworthiness creep in, the Lord provides His steady confirmation to move forward.

This piece stands as a beautiful call into the barren wilderness, assuring every searching heart that true awakening is always waiting right inside themselves.

Originally published on inpresenceofspirit.com

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Fears, Worries, and Anxieties: From Darkness to the Light

Original Writing: Fears, Worries, and Anxieties

A stunning view across a peaceful lake looking at a massive, singular snow-capped mountain standing majestically on the opposite shore under a clear sky.
Finding beauty and steady hope in His eternal presence.

Grew up in a close Latin Family, My twin, Dad, and I were the only white, people on my mom’s side of the family.

Whose suffering is it? Where is the shame? Well, for all, it is covered, until the dawning of the age, when all will be, laid out. For all to see, the unraveling, of the misconceptions of the false passed down, from all our ancestors.

Words being said, without meaning. In the outer sphere of awareness, which is in darkness. Until the real spark is ignited, to the answers from the darkness of the outer to the ever-present light of the inner.

The inner kingdom, which is in expectancy, for all men and women to come inside, to the truth of, Christ in all our existence. The core of understanding. The inward soul becomes part of the whole. In one heart, in one mind, in one soul.

From the outside, abominations to the clearing off, the cobwebs, from without to within. In Christ’s presence, there go I, and I am infinite, in the Universal Law of Cause and Effect.

We are the chosen. We all can come into, Father God, The Clearing, so the regeneration of the holy words can accomplish itself and bring peace to the multitudes. December 15, 1997.

Scriptures

John 12:46
I am come a light into the world, that whosoever believeth on me should not abide in darkness.

Luke 17:21
Neither shall they say, Lo here! or, lo there! for, behold, the kingdom of God is within you.

Ephesians 4:4
There is one body, and one Spirit, even as ye are called in one hope of your calling;

Affirmations

I step out of the outer darkness and ancestral misconceptions, walking completely in the ever-present inner light of Christ.

My inward soul is cleared of all earthly cobwebs, perfectly united with my Creator in one heart, one mind, and one soul.

I enter into Father God’s divine clearing, where holy words regenerate my spirit and bring absolute peace to my being.

Reflection

“Fears, Worries, and Anxieties” opens a sacred window into the process of spiritual untangling. Growing up amidst deep family dynamics can weave silent threads of inherited suffering, unmeaning words, and cultural misconceptions that cloud the soul’s true identity.

Yet, the outer sphere of darkness completely loses its power the moment a real spiritual spark is ignited within the heart.

This writing reminds us that the true kingdom of God is never found in external validation or ancestral patterns, but in a dedicated withdrawal into the inner chamber of the soul.

By boldly stepping into Christ’s presence, the cobwebs of false beliefs are completely cleared away. We find our ultimate baseline existence in one unified spirit, opening the door to a universal regeneration that spreads comfort and steady hope to all who are searching.

Originally published on inpresenceofspirit.com

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Heavy Heart: A Journey From Silent Cries to Perfect Peace

Original Writing: Heavy Heart

A breathtaking view across a vast field where a peaceful farmhouse rests in the middle, with an immense rock mountain range and low clouds stretching all the way across the horizon behind it.
Finding beauty and steady hope along the journey.

I am writing with a heavy heart nothing seems to be going right. I seem to be in a never-ending slump. For a lot of years, I told myself I was going to read the Bible, so finally, I started, Easter of this year. I read Matthew, Mark, Luke, and half of John. I read almost every day for a month, and I was praying, and then I stopped.

Furthermore, I was helping others, and the stress of all the problems brought me down.
Besides, I have a little marital issue; I do not deal with it very well. My husband is a workaholic, and he loves Mustang Classics. He talks to everyone except me, and that drives me up a wall.

We very seldom talk, and then when I do have something to say, he is either watching TV or whatever and ignores me. I am feeling neglected. I told him tonight he did not pay attention. When he lectures, all ears have to be on him.

For a long time, I found it very hard, to submit.
Now I do some, but what? I have been giving a mile, and he does not even give an inch. He is supporting us well, but that is not all a husband is for. He got neglected quite a bit, when I was having babies, and being Mommy, twenty-four hours a day. I tried to do what I could for him. More than I am getting now.

What is a person to do? I thought he was my friend. The only other person is my sister, and she is my twin; we are different.

I have affirmed on and off for years, I am healthy, active, young, powerful, loving, harmonious, prosperous, and happy, but when? And how? Do I get there and stay there?

I know it’s through Jesus Christ, and I do believe, he died for our sins. I do love Him. How do I stay constant? My sister said a minute ago, “Are you going to spill your guts to them? Do you know someone is going to read that?” Well, no one else understands my story; maybe whoever you are, you will, a little anyway.

My husband makes friends with everybody; he can talk to anyone. I have no friends, and it does not look like he is my friend either. I do have a friend, Jesus. Furthermore, I do, have to put, all this mess, in his hands. August 15, 1987, W.Y.L. This was to, Silent Unity.

January 16, 2016 “Once I was lost, and now I am found.” I Love having conversations with, The Holy Spirit of Jesus The Christ, to send forth, the forgiveness of sin, and to put an end to it, through Jesus Christ Our Lord and Savior of Eternities Souls, each and every one of them.

God Bless The World! “Bring gladness to hearts for sure there is an end to the pain.” Thank You, Lord, for Your Presence in Spirit. Even though some may not see that, does not mean, it is not true. Hello!

Scriptures

Psalm 55:22
Cast thy burden upon the Lord, and he shall sustain thee: he shall never suffer the righteous to be moved.

Matthew 11:28
Come unto me, all ye that labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.

1 Peter 5:7
Casting all your care upon him; for he careth for you.

Affirmations

I release the heavy burdens of loneliness and neglect, placing every unraveled circumstance completely into the safe hands of Jesus.

Though human relationships may fail or ignore me, I am fully seen, heard, and deeply loved by my truest Friend, Jesus Christ.

I step completely out of the slump of yesterday, moving forward with a restored heart that is forever anchored in the Presence of Spirit.

Reflection

“Heavy Heart” serves as a striking, timeline-spanning bridge between the silent cries of the past and the triumphant awakening of the present. Writing through a cloud of isolation, marital neglect, and familial misunderstanding can make the soul feel entirely hidden and cast aside.

Yet, looking back from 1987 to 2016 reveals a glorious truth: the Lord was listening to every word all along. The pain that once felt like a never-ending slump became the very fire that forged a profound, lifelong conversation with the Holy Spirit.

By surrendering the heavy weights we cannot carry, our broken spaces are completely filled with divine friendship, proving that even when the world remains blind to our story, the presence of God is a steady, undeniable reality.

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In Presence of Spirit: Stepping Closer to Christ Through Complete Surrender

Original Writing: Closer

Closer, You are here with me in Spirit.

A beautiful view looking down a road heading into a peaceful town, with majestic rock mountains standing tall in the front and soft white clouds framing the peaks above.
Finding beauty and steady hope along the winding journey.

The writings are priceless; they are my sanity. Oh, Lord, I need the mastery of Your Passionate Promises to Mankind.

For narrow is the way, and few get there, but by giving up totally, through Jesus Christ to God, the envelopment of the truth, is reinstated.

From the ancient past of promises, from God through Jesus Christ, to whom the seed was sent, not of many but of one Christ, one Lord, one Father.

It is abandonment: In The Light of Spirit. In Spirit, we are revealed too, the secret, of the ancient writings. We are one in Him, through Him, and round about Him. His presence is a breath away, not a couple thousand more years.

For it is by the grace of God that I received the gift of writing, through the Spirit of Our Holiest of Holy, through Jesus Christ from God the Father of the Heavens.

In spirit, in faith, in love, in understanding, in patience, in courage, in strength, in the loss, in death, to the unveiling of the oneness of Christ within. No Date

Scriptures

Matthew 7:14
Because strait is the gate, and narrow is the way, which leadeth unto life, and few there be that find it.

Galatians 3:16
Now to Abraham and his seed were the promises made. He saith not, And to seeds, as of many; but as of one, And to thy seed, which is Christ.

Psalm 34:18
The Lord is nigh unto them that are of a broken heart; and save such as be of a contrite spirit.

Affirmations

I choose total abandonment to the light of the Spirit, finding my sanity and strength in the passionate promises of God.

I am never truly alone because the Spirit of God dwells within me, and His presence is always just a breath away.

Through every loss and trial, the internal oneness of Christ is unveiled within my soul, anchoring me in perfect peace.

Reflection

“Closer” opens the door to the sacred mystery of total spiritual surrender. To walk the narrow way requires a complete abandonment of self-will, letting go of the world to be entirely enveloped in God’s eternal truth.

In this quiet place of devotion, time operating by human constraints fades away—the Lord’s presence is not separated by thousands of years, but is vividly alive in the here and now.

Every trial, loss, and season of grief becomes a pathway to uncovering the true inheritance of a child of God: the golden unveiling of Christ within us. It is through this gift of spirit-to-spirit communication that we find steady hope and a beautiful sanctuary for the soul.

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