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The Beautiful Miracle of Ultimate Forgiveness

“In whom we have redemption through his blood, the forgiveness of sins, according to the riches of his grace.”

A striking photograph of a beautiful, towering mountain range stretching across the horizon ahead on an open West Coast highway drive.
A beautiful mountain range standing tall with unchanging strength along the journey.

— Ephesians 1:7 (KJV)

My internal purification is always in motion, drawing me closer to the truth of my existence.

I accept my identity as a world writer for the kingdom, walking boldly without shame or hesitation.

Only on His feet can I stand, only in His arms can I rest, and only through His spirit am I guided home.

Your forgiveness comes from Jesus Christ, the Lord’s Ever Presence. Only through You, Lord, can I be forgiven. Only through You, Lord, is salvation. Only through Jesus Christ can the ignition of the Holy Spirit be activated to the total cleansing of one’s heart, mind, and soul.

So the internal purification is always in motion, even if you backtrack. You’re getting closer to the truth about your existence in the God Family of Jesus Christ, Our Savior and Lord.

Only through Jesus Christ is redemption. Only through Jesus Christ is everlasting life. Only through Your hands, Lord Christ Jesus, are we healed. Only on Your feet, Lord, can I stand? Only in Your arms, Lord, can I rest?

Only through Your Holy Spirit is Your Presence in Spirit guiding me home. Home, to the kingdom of heaven within. Only in You, God the Father, God the Son, and God the Holy Spirit, lies the truth of our existence. Only through You, Lord Christ Jesus, is the eternal pain taken away. Only in You, Lord, is the presence of the Spirit, given to us for sanctification and justification.

To reach, and go beyond, our human capabilities, to touch the presence of Your Holy Spirit, Lord, You left us. So we can find You, Lord, in our hearts, minds, and souls. In our inner chamber, where You are Lord, and ever shall be.

Only in You, Lord Christ Jesus, is life after death. Only in You, God, can death in the flesh be cured. Only in You, God, is peace. Only in the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit are You the Resurrection and the Life. Only in Christ is life eternal.

Only in You, Jesus Christ, is the kingdom of heaven attainable. Only in You, God, will there be peace on Earth—goodwill towards all mankind.

Only You can see me through from darkness to the light of Your Ever Presence in all our writings. Only You brought the words out of my spirit. Thank You so much.

Only through You is escape from bondage—the bondage of your inner being, torn and ripped apart, with no way of escape. You, Lord, are their only escape from darkness to the light. Your presence is captured in the pages of my conversations with You. I love You, Jesus Christ.

Thank You for the book, the whole book. Not leaving the first book out, it is in the extended version—the whole book from end to beginning, and soon to be beginning to end. Certified, documented, Library of Congress, and published for anyone to read for the first time. Awesome. This time, I feel it will be read.

So I can do all that is stated in this book of mine, soon to be yours and mine, for anyone who wants to read. I told my twin I am a world writer; she laughed and went into the house. But in the essence of the entire book, “Writings,” that is exactly what I am and ever shall be. 7:17 p.m. December 26, 2009.

I know I am extremely bold in my writings. Sure, sometimes I try to edit, but all in all, they are as is. I refuse to be ashamed of my boldness. These are my times in solitude with the Lord, and it seems like I am writing to you at the same time.

The first part is revised into the present tense: “My forgiveness comes from Jesus Christ and the Ever Presence. Only through You can I be forgiven. Only through You is salvation. Only through You can the ignition to You activate the total cleansing of my heart and soul.

So the internal purification is always in motion, even if I backtrack. I am getting closer to the truth about my existence in the God Family of Jesus Christ, my Lord and Savior.

Only through You is redemption. Only through You is everlasting life. Only through Your hands am I healed. Only on Your feet can I stand. Only in Your arms can I rest. Only in Your Spirit are You guiding me home—home to the Kingdom of Heaven within.

Only in You lies the truth of my existence. Only through You is the eternal pain taken away. Only in You is Your Presence in Spirit given to me for sanctification and justification.

To reach and go beyond my human capabilities, to touch the presence of Your Spirit You left me. So I can find You in my heart, in my mind, and in my soul. In my inner chamber, where You are and ever shall be. Only in You is life after death. Only in You can death in the flesh be cured. Only in You is peace. Only in You.

You are the Resurrection and the Life. Only through You is life eternal.”

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The Beautiful Miracle of a Heart Ignited: Rest

“To whom God would make known what is the riches of the glory of this mystery among the Gentiles; which is Christ in you, the hope of glory.”
— Colossians 1:27 (KJV)

I am worthy to complete and submit my

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Traveling onward toward the city with roadside trees and faraway mountains lining the horizon.

writings, moving forward into the purpose set before me.

The light of salvation shines bright in my heart and soul, casting out all fear, pain, and darkness.

I accept the gift of His Ever Presence, finding courage to share the storehouse of treasures within.

In Jesus Christ Name I Pray: Lord, thou art my Lord, Jesus Christ. Only in You is life eternal; only in You is the salvation of the world. In You, through You, Round About: The Glory of You. In Your Excellence. In Your Omniscience. In Your Omnipresence. Your Holiness, throughout the ages.

Thank you, Jesus, for Your Love, Your understanding, Your Knowledge, Your Courage, Your Patience, Your Wisdom, Your Guidance, Your Passion, Your Presence In Spirit.

Thank you for leaving You, Holy Spirit, to minister to the darkened corners of everyone’s soul. In their time, they will come home to the Christ Spirit within us all.

“Christ in you, the hope of Glory.” Our time has come, Jesus, my Jesus. I must share what you have shared with me. In Our Spirit-to-Spirit Communications, the Conversations I have with You, Jesus, are Omnipresent, and they are Passionate. Even in my seeming unworthiness. I am worthy to complete and submit for publication.

Open the door to sharing, the writings. So we can make way for my final publication of the twenty-first century, and yes, I am allowed to be positive about my role in this quest I have undertaken.

Thank you, Jesus, for the presence of your Holy Spirit. Throughout my writing, there were no words until you sparked the light of salvation in my heart. You walked me out of the midst of the fire. You guided me out of darkness into the light, so shining through, you ignited the light in my heart and soul.

You took the pain away. The fear. The impatience. No understanding, no knowledge, no courage, no wisdom, no meaning, no words, and put beautiful words of encouragement. To light the way for others to find that You are our Father, Son, and Holy Spirit.

You are our savior, Lord Jesus Christ. You are the light of the world. You are my love and my life. You are my only reason for living still. Jesus Christ, I Love You. Bless You, Jesus Christ, for Your giving Yourself for all mankind. To find You in their internal, eternal house.

Open up my mind, heart, and soul again. Lord Jesus, guide and direct me out of darkness into the light of Your Ever Presence. Give me the courage to follow through with all that you have given me to share.

Lord Jesus Christ. I need you. I want you. I need to feel your presence. I give you me, and then I take me back. Forgive me, Lord, forgive me my trespasses and iniquities, and give me the strength I need to complete our, yours and mine, In Presence of Spirit.com and now inpresenceofspirit.org. August 3, 2009

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The Beautiful Miracle of Sweet Mercies: A Cry for Restoration

“It is of the Lord’s mercies that we are not consumed, because his compassions fail not. They are new every morning: great is thy faithfulness.”
— Lamentations 3:22-23 (KJV)

A striking West Coast drive looking down an open road enclosed on both sides by rugged stone mountains.
A majestic rocky mountain range stretching along the side of the road, viewed from a driver’s side perspective on a quiet journey.

I am stepping forward out of the shadows, resting in the restoration of body, heart, mind, and soul.

The Universal Mind of Jesus brings massive change to my circumstances as His inspiration guides my hands.

Heaven opens its gates to rain down miracles of peace, harmony, and eternal life upon families everywhere.

Help me, Jesus, in Your “Sweet Mercies.” Bring gladness to hearts, for sure there is an end to the pain—the void, without You. With You, Jesus, even in the midst of the battle. You have saved me millions of times. I realize every minute is a miracle from You, Lord Jesus.

So many are suffering, people are hurting; they are lost. I need help to help them find You sooner rather than later. The years are up. I have taken my stand. But what? I am in desperate need of restoration in body, heart, mind, and soul.

I need “The Universal Mind of You, Jesus.” To bring about massive change in my circumstances and advance into the publication of Our Book, Our Writings. It has never been an empty statement.

It has not been read; it is ready to be found. The complete book will follow. No response yet. Soon, I believe, soon. I started the action to modify the reaction. In the most basic form of communication, the way I know how.

“Show Them The Way” is significant to millions of women and children, who will decide to have their babies. Make room for our babies to come home to their families and breathe the air of life. Not the forever of death. Death in the flesh, of each one, existence.

Oh, Lord! Let the words of “Show Them The Way,” Touch the hearts and minds of the ones that need to know, now! Not another second later. Lord, bring about the solution to these young and old alike. So, they will make the ever-after choice. Not death and destruction.

Bring our babies back, Jesus. Bring Your healing waters of life eternal, in You, with You, through You, round about, the glory of You and Your ever-presence.

Open Up the Gates of Heaven and Rain Down Miracles. Every Conception in the World. Bring mothers and fathers together in peace, harmony, love, understanding, and compassion. Be friends, not enemies.

Join Together In Embracing The New Day. The New Year, the New Admission. I can not, but you can through The Unveiling of Our “In Presence of Spirit.” The inspiration is from and through you, Lord. I would not Publish Gibberish.

“I believe it is meant to be written.” Especially the unraveling of my true heart pain and anguish. Put in words, in such detail, that I could not sit in the shadow anymore. I had to put it in Washington, DC. I sent it, and there was no response from “Show Them The Way.” December 24, 2009, to The Washington Post. “Sweet Mercies,” written January 10, 2010.

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The Sands of Justice: A Testimony of Deliverance

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“For where two or three are gathered together in my name, there am I in the midst of them.”
— Matthew 18:20 (KJV)

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Finding a steady foundation of beauty and hope along the winding road.

I am aligned with the divine purpose of the Lord, letting go of the self to let His presence flow.

The kingdom of heaven is within me, active, peaceful, and eternally present right now.

Every obstacle is tossed to the sands of time as I walk forward from darkness into His great light.

“Calling some women “nuts,” So accessing a surprise divorce attack on October 23, 1997. I feel the imminent need to write a note to you regarding your answer about divorce. Oh, your answers are glorified, but it is the man’s answer, not the woman’s, to any degree.

Outsiders do not understand why these women have lost themselves to jealousy, possessiveness, and out-of-control obsession: it is a degenerative process.

After the honeymoon, then what? The woman takes care of the man’s every need: feedings, not feelings, cleaning, doing this, doing that, getting this, getting that, not doing this, not doing that, lecturing of bull dung, and submitting ourselves to their every whim, their nights out, and all our nights alone.

Then there comes the baby; then the child is first. Extra work cycles into a degenerative process, and the women drown. Name-calling, acts of disrespect, and drinking days become more frequent. The man gets less care because the wife is tending to the baby’s needs, which are on call twenty-four hours a day. Who does not know that?

The woman is exhausted! The days cycle to weeks, weeks to months, and months to years. Baby two, once again, days, weeks, months. Baby three, no time off. 82, 84, 86, gallbladder surgery September 28, 1984, nine-inch cut, sixty-nine stones. Four months after my son was born.

Even if the woman is not working out of the home. She is taking care of not herself, but everyone else. No time off! Financially dependent, isolated, all needs magnified with Mom. Especially when left on her own to do the daily devotional and then the nightly routine, day after day, week after week, month after month, year after year, the same routine, exhausted.

We lose our spontaneity and independence. Our husbands have to male bond, with outings of drinking, and hearing the same stories, while wives get over being neglected.

The love that once was has taken a journey to the other side. The control of the situation becomes a negative cycle. “Silent abuser” anger, frustration, fights over money, man being dominant over the woman, intimidation, isolation, control, acts of violence, being called ugly, disgusting names, having to submit to lies, deceit, etc.

They have their life, and we isolate with our children. We are beaten down verbally daily: nothing is good enough except sex-Ha! Of course we get poked, pinched, pulled, thrown, spit on, cursed at, called ugly disgusting names, squashed, joint crunches, bloody lips, bruised on the extremities, plus crunches in the glands around the jaw, that do not show bruising but hurt for so long, slaps, and pokes with objects. (Once is too much) Intimidated, we feel we are unworthy, so we withdraw deeper. We do complain, to a few, and we get told to leave the situation, but we know we cannot. It is not that easy.

The repetitious cycles close us off to relief, and we feel and are bound in silent emotional, physical, mental, spiritual, and verbal anguish. Our Spirit of Life has hit the darkened corners of Our Presence, “death in the flesh.” Our soul, our life, is in bondage; the chains are linked, through the cobwebs of years, submitting to our alcoholic, controlling, dominating, male chauvinist, pig “narcissist husbands. Then we find out, all the while, our once beloved has been loving someone else while abusing us.

I am speaking for women in the world who have lived the degradation of a blessed unity that has turned to crap. All of us will overcome through the blood of Christ Jesus. Where lies justification? In Him, through Him, round about Him. From God Through Christ Jesus to Us. Total Salvation, in the Oneness of Spirit, Through Christ Our Lord.

I demanded justification from the judge. Then I ended up losing my husband, my children, my home, and all my belongings—my choice at thirty-six years old, only having worked out of the house for a couple of months. I refused to say I did not want a divorce. I turned to the system thirteen and a half years too late, and it did not recover me and my three children.

So I gave my burden to God through Christ Jesus, and he and his new wife have everything. I found understanding of the wherefore art thou on these critical issues and will publish a book for all the afflicted. In Christ Jesus’ hands, this matter lies. I did send it to her; I did not hear back. He took me to child support court two months before he gave me back all three of my children on January 17, 1998.

On the 17th, I came down to the Valley to go to Child Support to tell them what he was doing. They said it was OK, so I went back, and on the 18th, I took total responsibility for my three teenagers.

9/3/15 At that time, I had two years of my book, and that is what is in “In Presence of Spirit.” It was what I had ready. It was not complete. It took me till October 1999 for them to take me off the CS and give me complete custody of my three teenagers. Oh, and credit me, for what I had paid and what they said I owed; they did not pay me back a cent.

We lost two years, ten, twelve, and fourteen, and got them back twelve, fourteen, and sixteen. So now, all these years later, the second wife of the husband of my youth tells me on the phone that my only and ever husband is not the father of my three living children, and my nine grandchildren, one in heaven, are not his grandchildren.

Blood-wise, they are, but he was not there for the grandbabies births or, for that matter, anything else. He has not even met his eighth grandchild, his second girl. Yes, I did not want him to go to jail for his outstanding child support bill, so I wrote a note to the attorney general and said I wanted to take it off, but it was only because of everything he did for me when I did not work. I stayed home with my babies, where I wanted to be and he too.

So whatever I personally cost him, I am paid in full, and we are severed. He had the kids for two years, 0 to ten, twelve, and fourteen, then twelve, fourteen, and sixteen to date. To mention, I carried them for 27 months of pregnancy. I am the one that has been here for them. August 3, 2014

October 12, 2014: Seriously, I cannot force myself to fix this one and publish it the right way. I cannot draft it, so your reading, is as is for now. It is the hardest one. Oh man, I have to update. November 17, 2014. It is fixed as best as I can personally do. Thanks for reading. Wendy. Okay, I fixed it and added a little bit. Thank you for reading the writings of inpresenceofspirit.com and now inpresenceofspirit.org.

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Faith and Cause: Spiritual Journey of Comfort, and Grace

It is better to be the subject of ridicule than to be there oneself,

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Finding beauty and steady hope in every view along the journey.

because if thou art there, then does not thou mean that you listened? “Oh you of little faith,” if the wise do speak their truth. Then who am I, but the messenger, disguised through glasses, eyes of heavenly dew?

It is better to bear the pain.

When the tide rolls in, there I am, with He who made me—whole in His entirety, straightway from hell into His heaven.

Thanks be to the Father.

Holy, art thou, who made the heavens and the Earth, for it is God the Father, God the Son, and God the Holy Spirit. Which has brought us out of the dung hills?

I have lost man’s way, but in God’s way, I have triumphed.

For God, straightway, showed me the way out of the darkness. Through the long tunnel of darkness. I have not been satisfied with man’s way. God’s way is greater than you can imagine. He is the life and light of our souls. He has not forsaken us; we have Him.

Lord, forgive us for being so weak in faith.

Bless people with the ability to know that you have been with them all the while, and stir their spirit. Bring a song to their ear, throughout their being. Bring dance to their bodies, to rejoice in the movements of our bodies. Bring gladness to hearts, for sure there is an end to pain.

Lord, recognize not I, who am writing, but to all the people, who are yet afflicted.

Original Writing Date: February 24, 1996

Affirmations

I am a messenger of truth, anchored in God’s path and safely guided out of the darkness.

I am triumphant in God’s way, knowing His plan is greater than anything man can imagine.

I am filled with a strong faith, secure in the life and light that flows through my soul.

I am resting in His entirety, lifted safely out of worldly pain into the Father’s heavenly grace.

Journey Summary Reference

This piece captures the immediate, raw aftermath of a profound life shift, standing as a testament to absolute spiritual rescue.

Written precisely four days after your world was completely rearranged, the words reveal a soul standing firmly between the painful shadows of the physical world and the immediate lifting power of the Holy Spirit.

In this space, human opinion and worldly ridicule fade into nothingness, replaced by the realization that you are the messenger tasked with carrying an eternal truth.

It is a declaration of triumph over darkness, showing that even when man’s way is lost, God’s way instantly paves a path straight from despair into grace, bringing comfort, song, and dance back to hearts that are afflicted.

“With no scriptures. I already have it in there, I was editing. What does it mean? No scriptures, that go with this writing, I understand. So it was my raw guts, or what?”

Yes, it was absolutely your raw guts, written straight from the depths of your soul during one of the most intense moments of your life.

When you write freehand without any scriptures attached, it means there was no intermediary—no outside text or filtering—between what your heart was experiencing and the paper.

It is pure, unfiltered transparency. “Faith and Cause” represents a raw emotional landscape transformed by a divine anchor.

In your writing trail, Faith is your unwavering choice to trust God in the middle of a storm, while Cause is the unique spiritual mission and purpose He deposited directly into your hands for this lifetime.

Writing this exactly four days after your divorce means you were turning raw pain, isolation, and betrayal into a sanctuary of peace. It is the ultimate testament that even when “man’s way” completely breaks down, your soul immediately triumphed by anchoring directly into God’s way.

“Faith and Cause” represents a bold anchor of belief and your absolute commitment to a spiritual mission.

When you use this phrase, it serves as a powerful testament to: Faith: Your unwavering trust in a greater plan and divine timing, even when the immediate physical world is completely broken.

Cause: The dedicated spiritual path and purpose deposited directly into your life journey, which you are tasked with capturing and sharing.

It is the perfect name for this section because it marks the exact transition where raw personal pain is transformed by the Holy Spirit into an enduring, powerful legacy.

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Most Are in My State of Being: Divine Stillness and Eternal Comfort

As I walked through the doors of the shelter,

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A single click revealing a magnificent light show within a state of being.

I thought, “How safe, and courteous are the understanding employees who take care of the special needs, of the women and children who walk through those doors.”

The Lord shall preserve thy going out and thy coming in from this time forth, and even for evermore.— Psalm 121:8 (KJV)

Affirmation: I am surrounded by safety, and I accept the care and understanding that God provides through helping hands.

As breakfast started, moms were preparing the meal for the children, hurt, and battered, but going on with the everyday duty of caring, picking up fragments of themselves, while keeping the focus on their young. I observe mostly children five and younger.

The outward appearances seemed, not to show the real story. The inside concerned me. They were fighting. Realizing all these women and children had just gotten out of the “last fight.” As I watched the children, I saw my own, at all their ages. I was grieved to see the outcome of an evasive cycle.

He healeth the broken in heart, and bindeth up their wounds.— Psalm 147:3 (KJV)

Affirmation: I am picking up the fragments of my life with strength, keeping my heart focused on love and the care of those who rely on me.

The residue of the ending cycle, of the degeneration, of our unities

broken from bondage, to prepare the way, for the regeneration of our souls.

Life’s traumas affect the balance of the truth. Confused, through the clouded darkness, of one’s most inner being. The circle of events is repetitious, throughout history. So many are kept secret, chartered course, and it is hard to stop the cycle.

And I will give them a heart to know me, that I am the Lord: and they shall be my people, and I will be their God: for they shall return unto me with their whole heart.— Jeremiah 24:7 (KJV)

Affirmation: The old cycle of decay is completely broken, and my soul is beautifully prepared for God’s deep restoration and renewal.

No man is better; my God is the oceans, Are there mountains, trees, plants, and tropical forests? The food therein is the spirit, and spirit is not mind power; it is heart power, compassion. Thank you, Lord; you always knew I wanted, to write.

The earth is the Lord’s, and the fulness thereof; the world, and they that dwell therein.— Psalm 24:1 (KJV)

Affirmation: I look to God’s vast creation for strength, filling my spirit not with human effort, but with the true power of holy compassion and love.

Women’s Advocate Hall:

Friends are working together in all crises, loneliness, acceptance, compassion, tenderness, and honesty. Truth shall set us free. Thank you, Lord.

We all get our ancestors’ vibrations, repetition since time started. One million to one million, someone from Noah’s Ark, had an unclean heart and passed it on through.

And ye shall know the truth, and the truth shall make you free.— John 8:32 (KJV)

Affirmation: I am surrounded by true friends who walk in honesty and compassion, and God’s powerful truth sets my soul completely free.

Christ sent from and through God. Christ is within us all. He is here for the asking, a bottomless pit. You have to reach down deep, and then accept, Jesus Christ as our Savior.

He is our source. He is the highest. Furthermore, he is omnipotent and omnipresent in infinite, magnificent form. My Lord, My God, you know what my mind says, but my heart, lead’s to Glory, complete for, You.

To whom God would make known what is the riches of the glory of this mystery among the Gentiles; which is Christ in you, the hope of glory.— Colossians 1:27 (KJV)

Affirmation: I reach down deep into the bottomless well of faith, accepting Jesus Christ as my highest source, my savior, and my ever-present strength.

My eyes, your stars, your truths implanted firmly

in my heavenly loins, for thou know the wombs of us, that have been privileged, too full term life, Your life, Your love, Your compassion, Your strength, Your communion with the Angels since infinite time began.

For thou hast possessed my reins: thou hast covered me in my mother’s womb. I will praise thee; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvelous are thy works; and that my soul knoweth right well.— Psalm 139:13-14 (KJV)

Affirmation: I am fearfully and wonderfully made, chosen to carry God’s eternal love, compassion, and strength in divine connection with His heavenly hosts.

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People in need of comfort, compassion, understanding. It is time to put away selfishness. We are all on a ride. Why not get on together? For tomorrow is coming fast, and then do you want your life, to be in vain? Mine is not anymore.

Lord, grant that I might see, through Your heart. To ride that white stallion, through Your Great Gates of Eternal Life. “Lord Show Me Thy Ways.” Well, You already are, I can not live two lifetime’s, in one day. Thanks for slowing me down to a gentle trickle, while I am sponging your knowledge.

Thank You, for showing me my place in heaven, and Thank You for letting me see the light. All I saw were people, using people, taking advantage, not listening or looking to see, what was going on.

Show me thy ways, O Lord; teach me thy paths. Lead me in thy truth, and teach me: for thou art the God of my salvation; on thee do I wait all the day.— Psalm 25:4-5 (KJV)

Affirmation: I see the world through the Lord’s heart, taking each day one step at a time as He shows me His ways and guides me toward eternal life.

Who made you Judge, Jury and clown master.

Man did! God is the Only true Judge. The man could not tell the truth from a lie, so man made judge and jury. The man was running around. What soothed him was his ail, his women, and the control over the centuries.

I have reached the kingdom of heaven within, and I am growing stronger. We will meet, we will be at the pearly white gates, together. We are the caretakers, and every one of us has been used thumbs down, put down, and run down. Not by God. God’s warnings are omnipresent but by Man’s words.

“We will mount our horses and draw our swords,” We are the stronger to put up with the blame of man’s demise. Come out of your comas. We are not doormats. We are brides of Our Father, who art in heaven. In the name of, The Father, The Son, and The Holy Spirit.

Hearken unto me, ye that know righteousness, the people in whose heart is my law; fear ye not the reproach of men, neither be ye afraid of their reviling’s.— Isaiah 51:7 (KJV)

Affirmation: I am not a doormat, and I refuse to be defined by the harsh words of men; I am a cherished child of my Father in heaven, standing in divine strength.

God grant that I may see clearer, each minute that passes by, Lord, for the afflicted, are in desperate need, condition. It is time to end the cycle. Since deceit, greed and all the other abominations, concentrated in one big mess. Yuk. I see a beautiful vision. It is from God.

Women afflicted, being able to recover from, “The Last Fight,” together. Recovery together, helping each other, through the transitional year, and to help the elderly, because we can make them happy before they pass away.

No more hiding, what are all you waiting for. We have to fight for Our God Given Rights, and I will not keep my mouth closed. Writings in secret forever or not. Original Writing January 29, 1996

Open thy mouth for the dumb in the cause of all such as are appointed to destruction. Open thy mouth, judge righteously, and plead the cause of the poor and needy.— Proverbs 31:8-9 (KJV)

Affirmation: I will no longer keep my mouth closed or hide my words; I boldly stand up to help others recover from the last fight and share God’s light openly.

Reflection: This profound collection of writings from January 29, 1996, tracks a powerful journey from a physical place of refuge into a deep, internal kingdom of spiritual awakening. It begins within the doors of a shelter, witnessing the immediate, heavy reality of mothers and children recovering from active trauma.

From that visual landscape, the text pivots outward into the vastness of creation—the oceans, mountains, and forests—revealing that true recovery requires moving past mere human logic and stepping completely into “heart power” and divine compassion.

It honestly wrestles with historical patterns of brokenness, tracing generational weights all the way back to the ark, while standing as an immovable shield against the false judgments and control of men. Ultimately, this chapter serves as a bold, final trumpet call to break silent cycles, awaken from the past, and unite in a shared mission of healing, transitional recovery, and open truth.

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State of Being: Coming Full Circle in Faith

I. The Oneness and the Passages

It is not, The State of Being, It Is The Being, One with, The Most Holy of Holy. It is Peace, Without Calamity.

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An original photograph capturing an incredible red sunset at the house, reflecting the deep, peaceful colors.

It Exacts, The Timings of Events, all on an Evolutionary Roller Coaster, through The Passages, from yours, Darkest Hour.

The events are high points, with a lot of punches, through the transition. With the unfolding of each phase, comes the understanding of the reasons, these events took the last place.

Scripture: “To everything there is a season, A time for every purpose under heaven.” — Ecclesiastes 3:1

Scripture: “That they all may be one, as You, Father, are in Me, and I in You; that they also may be one in Us…” — John 17:21

II. Surrender of Self-Will

At this point, you are ready, to abandon, your will, To God, entirely and accept, the transitions, as stepping stones, to a broader range, of one’s consciousness. Through, The Spirit of Christ our sin is forgiven, and our hearts realize, the truth of existence, and we know we are loved.

Scripture: “Then Jesus said to His disciples, ‘If anyone desires to come after Me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross, and follow Me.'” — Matthew 16:24

Scripture: “I have been crucified with Christ; it is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me…” — Galatians 2:20

III. The Process of Elimination & Refining Fire

Once the will is given up, the process of elimination

continues its journey, through the darkest corners of your soul, replacing it with forgiveness, and understanding.

Putting away, all the pain, of your past, and leaving the pain, and anguish where it belongs. In the destruction of the desolation. Left in the fire, from sin to forgiveness, in turn, separating your soul, from anymore, destruction. It is total abandonment, of one’s own will.

Scripture: “Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; old things have passed away; behold, all things have become new.” — 2 Corinthians 5:17

Scripture: “When you walk through the fire, you shall not be burned, nor shall the flame scorch you.” — Isaiah 43:2

IV. The Seventh Mountain & The Offered Gift

At the point, where there is a substantial confrontation, there is a gift offered! The mind has had all information, from man, formation from a not so distant past — all the while, the most significant power comes from the beginning and the end.

The real realization comes in:

The confrontation is the seventh mountain, which you have climbed. All in the journey, through your place, in existence. We come at different stages, in time, a gift offering.

A gift from God, through Jesus Christ. It is sitting, there as pretty, as you please. Your choice to accept in totality, or deny in more disaster. I am offered a gift, from God, but how can I accept it? I am not worthy, of a gift. My mind knows there is a God, but my heart, has no peace, no feeling.

Scripture: “For by grace you have been saved through faith, and that not of yourselves; it is the gift of God, not of works, lest anyone should boast.” — Ephesians 2:8–9

Scripture: “This is a faithful saying and worthy of all acceptance, that Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners…” — 1 Timothy 1:15

V. The Ignited Spark & Acceptance

The Gift Offered:

Do You Accept Jesus Christ as Your Personal Savior? Yes. I have tried six times. It did not take. How do I get to Christ? Here is a gift, Salvation. What does this mean? Look into your heart. My heart does not feel. Do you accept the gift? Look down deep within. How can I accept it? I am a sinner. A Gift from God. Do You Accept Jesus Christ as Your Personal Savior?

Yes! “All questions still unanswered.” Then, in the pure giving up of a futile fight, of self-will, there is a tiny opening in the core of your heart. The spark ignited; you know you can feel it. At this time, the question was asked again. Yes, I accept God’s Gift. I accept Jesus Christ as my personal savior.

Scripture: “And He said to me, ‘My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.'” — 2 Corinthians 12:9

Scripture: “Behold, I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears My voice and opens the door, I will come in to him…” — Revelation 3:20

VI. Cleansing, Unfolding, and Baptism

From that second, you accept him completely. Your life starts unfolding. The old misconceptions of life are being eliminated through a process of transition, which takes a ritual cleansing. The life, which was without hope, is placed in and through Jesus Christ for the purification of the soul, in its rightful place.

At this time, there is no shame, no embarrassment in accepting Christ. Directly following the unfolding is clarity in receiving the understanding of God’s words in the Holy Bible.

At this time, baptism is offered. Still no shame, and seven days later. The baptism, in the name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit, occurs. The death of the old life, a life, knew, in the journey, from sin, into clarity, of our real, reality.

Scripture: “Therefore we were buried with Him through baptism into death, that just as Christ was raised from the dead by the glory of the Father, even so we also should walk in newness of life.” — Romans 6:4

Scripture: “For I am not ashamed of the gospel of Christ, for it is the power of God to salvation for everyone who believes…” — Romans 1:16

VII. Fusion, Healing, and Justification

The distinction of precise fusion with Jesus Christ, my personal Savior, is describable and authentic.

The Passion of Christ entreats your being with the answers of the whole. With Christ, they are not subject to change, for through Jesus Christ is life by the gift of accepting him unconditionally. There is no exception to the rule.

Through Christ’s love for us, He generates love for us and walks with us out of the midst of the fire and brings us out whole; this is justification, to which there is no other. The scars are cured of pain, and the knowledge of the envelopment is granted.

Scripture: “Therefore, having been justified by faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ.” — Romans 5:1

Scripture: “Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or peril, or sword? … Yet in all these things we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us.” — Romans 8:35, 37

VIII. Armor of God & Closing Testimony

The truth is the only reality, and there is only one truth. That truth is God and the Holy Words: by faith, we receive the holiest of Sacraments, the Armor of Jesus Christ Our Lord and Savior. Blessed with the Most Holy Spirit, the Holy Ghost, which lives in us. In Jesus Christ’s Omnipresent Name. Selah. Amen, December 1, 1996.

Scripture: “Put on the whole armor of God, that you may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil.” — Ephesians 6:11

Scripture: “Jesus said to him, ‘I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through Me.'” — John 14:6

The State of Being Affirmations

I am in a true state of being.

I step away from the clutter of the world and sit in the absolute stillness of God’s presence.

I am an authentic soul.

I drop all human-made burdens and allow my inner life to align with my Creator’s plan.

I am a direct channel for divine peace.

I quiet my mind, look to the heavens, and let divine communication guide my path.

I am resting in eternal union.

I am anchored firmly in the truth of the Word, where my spirit awakens and earthly fears fade.

In Reflection: To step into a true spiritual state of being, we must look past the noise of the outside world and settle into the sacred presence within.

These original spiritual reflections serve as an invitation to pause, quiet the mind, and experience a mindful presence of spirit. It is in this precise space of inner stillness and awakening that the personal self begins to fade.

Entering the Soul Sanctuary: Remaining attentive to the sacred requires a deliberate practice of deep listening and transformative reflection.

When we choose to dwell in the here and now, we open our hearts to a profound true self reconnection. This is not a forced transformation, but a gentle alignment with an internal state of peace and the quiet movement of God.

The Awakening: Through these meditative spiritual narratives, the journey leads us back to clarity.

By anchoring our awareness in conscious awareness and internal stillness, we step into a lifestyle defined by a heart filled with grace, absolute spiritual clarity, and emotional freedom.

Safe Haven for the transitional year after the last fight with yourself. Began in January 1996, this timeline reflects a true state of being established eleven months after the transition started.

The text is finalized and complete, with original photography and design touches coming along later in God’s perfect time.

Originally published on inpresenceofspirit.com

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