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How to Turn Fiery Personal Trials Into Stepping Stones of Faith

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A view from inside a moving car, looking through the front windshield on a gray, overcast day. A prominent ridge of mountains stretches out completely along the left side of the frame, reaching all the way forward toward the distance under a heavy blanket of low clouds.
A quiet road trip through the mountains on a cloudy afternoon.

I started writing in January 1996, the unveiling of the past was sheathed as shedding skin. The writings are through the Holy Spirit. I am going to put the entire pages together and see what the Lord wants me to do after that.

In Jesus Christ’s name, guide me, Holy Spirit, to do the right thing always. Show me through Jesus Christ, my personal Savior. “Thy Will Be Done.” Thank you, Lord Jesus. July 29, 1996

In the last seven months, I have absorbed the Bible in all its glorious words. I have written with a power greater than possibly imaginable.

I declare the truth of Jesus Christ, our Savior. I have felt Jesus Christ, and I know the truth of His Eternal Presence. In the writings, I know the Spirit of Christ was working through me.

The visions of the Highest are manifested in my writing. If I may share them, I will share them with you. Thanks be to God the Father, God the Son, and God the Holy Spirit, “In Jesus Christ We Trust.” July 9, 1996

Flash Backs
They are not as severe as they once were. All were tightly weighing on my mind, the whirlwind for eight and a half straight years. The last months before my departure.

Every breath was a struggle until the pain was lifted right out of me. Then the next months proved to be the stepping stones to understanding, more awareness, a way to find a purpose, and the reasons for my existence. It was not stupid because it is God’s life. I know what God means when he says, “Go into thy inner chamber; there ye shall knock, and the door shall be opened.” July 1996

Live-in Position
The tests I have been through, I have passed every one of them. They do not have much to complain about me. I am sick of doing laundry. I am forming a regular twenty-three days, plus more to come.

Thank you for encouraging me to go from a pauper to making the first step into a paycheck; it was an excellent experience. God tested me. I passed by the hair on my chin. When it’s God’s time.

I have been so deep in the inner chamber, Studying in the Holy Spirit, through the Holy Spirit, round about the Holy Spirit, the Holy Spirit, has been shown to me personally, and I am in spirit being taught every day. It is so cool; I wish I could share, but I am still a baby in Christ.

All my questions have been answered in the Bible, in my supplications, and in my mourning for six months. In my giving and my understanding.

My observations round about, the anger, no positive, the lifeless energy oppressed with wants, super demands, neglect, each not taking care of their oneness with Christ. Judging has shown itself, and they are blind to it. July 25, 1996

Boundaries
I hope I have not crossed your boundaries by making plans. Thank you for all your blessings of knowledge, understanding, and all my trials and tribulations. They have been worth it to come to you totally, with your stretched-out arms that caught me through pure, inexhaustible love.

Lord, preserve the peace you have bestowed upon me. If it is your will for me to write, let me continue. Lord, grant that I may stay steadfast in Your Grace, in the insight You have bestowed on me. Your compassion through Your Spirit is felt. No one seems to see.

Thank you for the job and the room with your treasures in it. Thank you. In Jesus Christ I trust; I have felt you. Awesome. Peace to You, God, and Jesus Christ, the Holy Spirit, and all Your People. I love you. July 29, 1996.

Scripture

“But thou, when thou prayest, enter into thy closet, and when thou hast shut thy door, pray to thy Father which is in secret; and thy Father which is in secret shall reward thee openly.”

— Matthew 6:6

Affirmations
The Holy Spirit guides my hand, my thoughts, and my steps into perfect alignment every single day.
The heavy layers of the past are falling away like shedding skin, leaving my soul clean, light, and renewed.
I step forward out of darkness and walk boldly into the brilliant light of my purpose.
My inner house is swept clean of all obstruction, creating a beautiful sanctuary where peace resides.

Reflection

Stepping into the inner chamber meant turning entirely away from the noise, scattered environments, and toxic weights of the outside world.

It was a conscious choice to create an absolute spiritual boundary to protect the soul’s early recovery during a season when every single breath felt like a baseline struggle.

True freedom and steady awareness did not arrive through worldly means, but through an intentional inward withdrawal into absolute solitude with the divine.

Sitting quietly in that hidden sanctuary allowed the Holy Spirit to sweep the internal house clean, peeling away the heavy, painful layers of the past like shedding skin.

 

Walking through those intense daily trials and tests with endurance proved that even the most grueling conditions can serve as vital stepping stones.

 

By remaining steadfast through the wilderness, the cobwebs of confusion are cleared away to reveal an authentic, highly explicit understanding of your permanent calling.

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