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Heavy Heart: A Journey From Silent Cries to Perfect Peace

Original Writing: Heavy Heart

A breathtaking view across a vast field where a peaceful farmhouse rests in the middle, with an immense rock mountain range and low clouds stretching all the way across the horizon behind it.
Finding beauty and steady hope along the journey.

I am writing with a heavy heart nothing seems to be going right. I seem to be in a never-ending slump. For a lot of years, I told myself I was going to read the Bible, so finally, I started, Easter of this year. I read Matthew, Mark, Luke, and half of John. I read almost every day for a month, and I was praying, and then I stopped.

Furthermore, I was helping others, and the stress of all the problems brought me down.
Besides, I have a little marital issue; I do not deal with it very well. My husband is a workaholic, and he loves Mustang Classics. He talks to everyone except me, and that drives me up a wall.

We very seldom talk, and then when I do have something to say, he is either watching TV or whatever and ignores me. I am feeling neglected. I told him tonight he did not pay attention. When he lectures, all ears have to be on him.

For a long time, I found it very hard, to submit.
Now I do some, but what? I have been giving a mile, and he does not even give an inch. He is supporting us well, but that is not all a husband is for. He got neglected quite a bit, when I was having babies, and being Mommy, twenty-four hours a day. I tried to do what I could for him. More than I am getting now.

What is a person to do? I thought he was my friend. The only other person is my sister, and she is my twin; we are different.

I have affirmed on and off for years, I am healthy, active, young, powerful, loving, harmonious, prosperous, and happy, but when? And how? Do I get there and stay there?

I know it’s through Jesus Christ, and I do believe, he died for our sins. I do love Him. How do I stay constant? My sister said a minute ago, “Are you going to spill your guts to them? Do you know someone is going to read that?” Well, no one else understands my story; maybe whoever you are, you will, a little anyway.

My husband makes friends with everybody; he can talk to anyone. I have no friends, and it does not look like he is my friend either. I do have a friend, Jesus. Furthermore, I do, have to put, all this mess, in his hands. August 15, 1987, W.Y.L. This was to, Silent Unity.

January 16, 2016 “Once I was lost, and now I am found.” I Love having conversations with, The Holy Spirit of Jesus The Christ, to send forth, the forgiveness of sin, and to put an end to it, through Jesus Christ Our Lord and Savior of Eternities Souls, each and every one of them.

God Bless The World! “Bring gladness to hearts for sure there is an end to the pain.” Thank You, Lord, for Your Presence in Spirit. Even though some may not see that, does not mean, it is not true. Hello!

Scriptures

Psalm 55:22
Cast thy burden upon the Lord, and he shall sustain thee: he shall never suffer the righteous to be moved.

Matthew 11:28
Come unto me, all ye that labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.

1 Peter 5:7
Casting all your care upon him; for he careth for you.

Affirmations

I release the heavy burdens of loneliness and neglect, placing every unraveled circumstance completely into the safe hands of Jesus.

Though human relationships may fail or ignore me, I am fully seen, heard, and deeply loved by my truest Friend, Jesus Christ.

I step completely out of the slump of yesterday, moving forward with a restored heart that is forever anchored in the Presence of Spirit.

Reflection

“Heavy Heart” serves as a striking, timeline-spanning bridge between the silent cries of the past and the triumphant awakening of the present. Writing through a cloud of isolation, marital neglect, and familial misunderstanding can make the soul feel entirely hidden and cast aside.

Yet, looking back from 1987 to 2016 reveals a glorious truth: the Lord was listening to every word all along. The pain that once felt like a never-ending slump became the very fire that forged a profound, lifelong conversation with the Holy Spirit.

By surrendering the heavy weights we cannot carry, our broken spaces are completely filled with divine friendship, proving that even when the world remains blind to our story, the presence of God is a steady, undeniable reality.

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