To My Very Own Savior of my Soul: Through You, The Passage is Granted
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An inspirational reminder of steady strength, rising high and standing firm along the journey.
Original Writing: To My Very Own Savior of my Soul:
 You are the peace in the Souls of the ones you have Touched. With You, We are One in Spirit. In the time of impact, the cleansing has begun. You take them through the darkness, in their soul, and refresh them with the Light of Your Ever Presence. It is the process we flow through in the blood of Jesus Christ.
I Love You, Jesus Christ. I know, even through all the fire, and brimstone—my life’s experiences. You weathered me through eight long years of raising three teenagers, and two of their significant others, for the last three and five years, with four and one on the way grandchildren.
So many trials and tribulations, out-of-control teens, etc. Lord Jesus, you know the petty stuff, and you know what has gone on in every life. Heal the afflicted.
Bring Your Everlasting Love down, and cleanse, every one of the inner turmoil, that leaches onto every nook and cranny of our ever presence.
Bring Your Angels of the Universe and Cleanse The Hearts and Souls of Your People. Bring Forgiveness Down. Bring Understanding. Bring Your Salvation to the Multitudes World Over.
Bring The Light of Christ Jesus, In Every Soul on Earth and Heaven, and The Whole Wide Universe.
Why Us? To put away selfishness, and to put an end to it through Christ Jesus, our Savior.
Lord Jesus, I Love You; create in me One Heart, One Mind, One Holy Congregation for You, Lord Christ Jesus, in the here and now of yesterday’s, tomorrow.
We are here. Our book has been out four years, sitting on the airwaves, waiting to be taken to the kingdom of heaven within. It is going to happen, in Your Time.
Thank You for putting the husband of my youth, and me together again. And yeah, if ever it was meant to be, it is right now, In Spirit. For You Jesus Christ. For Your Love Through, “In Presence of Spirit.” Just The Conversations with You Lord, are Omnipresent.
No matter when we wrote them, And you know what I mean: You, Lord Jesus Christ Holy Spirit, with Wendy, in writing, to the World.
Stop the madness. It just takes that “eighteen-inch transition from mind to heart, and you will be home soon.
“I never left, “In Presence of Spirit,” behind. I just did not work on it. I apologize for losing my desire to help, which weakened me too, with my day-to-day, duties.
Jesus, thank you for, “In Presence of Spirit,” in its entirety. Oh Lord, it is Your Purpose, for which I do this. Even against the odds. It is meant to be. The outer man is still searching for you. Bring Down Your Comfort.
Bring up the blessings, from You, Lord, for finding You, in the inner chamber of my soul. I Love You, Jesus Christ. Jesus Christ, Thank You, for letting me write again. Help me do everything I have to, to complete the task at hand.
August 25, 2005
Scripture
“Great is our Lord, and of great power: his understanding is infinite.”
— Psalm 147:5 (KJV)
“Create in me a clean heart, O God; and renew a right spirit within me. Cast me not away from thy presence; and take not thy holy spirit from me.”
— Psalm 51:10-11 (KJV)
Affirmation
✨ I am refreshed by the Light of His Ever Presence, allowing the eighteen-inch transition from mind to heart to lead me fully home.
✨ Every trial and long year of my life has been weathered in His strength, completely cleansing my inner sanctuary for His divine purpose.
Reflection
This profound entry captures an intimate turning point on a multi-decade spiritual horizon, documenting the explicit moment where human questions dissolve into instant divine direction.
It”s layout a beautiful bridge between heavy, long-suffering earthly duties and the timeless stillness of an omnipresent dialogue.
By surrendering the raw weight of family tribulations, out-of-control years, and past hesitations into the cleansing blood of Jesus Christ, the soul experiences an immediate clearing of the inner chamber.
Fully restored in spirit alongside the husband of youth and secured against all earthly fire and brimstone, this foundational manuscript page stands as an eternal open gate, demonstrating that when we simply transition eighteen inches from mind to heart, we find that the Holy Spirit has never left us behind.
Then I Look: How a Faithful Manuscript Was Fulfilled
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Finding beauty and steady hope along the winding journey as a peaceful town unfolds beneath the majestic peaks.
Original Writing: Then I Look
Then I look, and there I see thee, beside me, with me, through me, round about me and my conversations with You.
My Lord, my Savior, my reason for writing “In Presence of Spirit,” in its entirety.
Thank you for all the words and the work with a goal. A grand finale, a gift from You, to and through Me, to whomever will read, one day. It is documented. It is actual accounts of communication, In Spirit.
With and through God the Father, God the Son, and God the Holy Spirit of Jesus Christ. Who gave me, for fifteen years, “In Presence of Spirit,” with Him and me writing for me, for you, one day. “Writing for us at the same time,” in actuality.
Even though no one knows yet, it does not make it secret. The heavens and the earth already know what plans are in this manuscript.
It is fulfilled. It is verified in heaven and earth. I have been given the go-ahead since the beginning, without anyone’s input or for that matter output.
R.H. is verification; I would read each one to him. He liked all of them. All are in the heavens and the earth. I felt the vibrations of this personal book with Jesus Christ and me, writing “In Presence of Spirit’s” extensions.
Without Your Presence, Lord, I am void, with pain, and all that entails. Even in the midst of the battle, I know Christ Jesus is still in me and I in Him because that gut-wrenching pain is not here.
Fifteen years of memories, “In Presence of Spirit.” Absolutely! Verified by the Lord and substantial since day one. A completed manuscript of conversations with the Lord.
A precise communication in spirit to alleviate misunderstanding. It is unfolded for my eyes alone to write from my heart. The whole of “In Presence of Spirit.” To certify. It will find its place in whoever chooses to read it. It is what it is, and it was meant to be when it fell into my hands.
November 30, 2010
Scripture
“The works of his hands are verity and judgment; all his commandments are sure. They stand fast for ever and ever, and are done in truth and uprightness.”
— Psalm 111:7-8 (KJV)
“Being confident of this very thing, that he which hath begun a good work in you will perform it until the day of Jesus Christ.”
— Philippians 1:6 (KJV)
Affirmation
✨ My life’s work is fully documented, verified in heaven, and established in the perfect timing of the Lord.
✨ I am entirely filled and sustained by the presence of Christ, who removes all void and seals my testimony forevermore.
Reflection
This monumental entry stands as a triumphant archway over a fifteen-year journey of continuous revelation.
It transitions from an individual testimony into a universal gift, acknowledging that every word written was orchestrated by the divine hands of the Holy Trinity.
Even when standing on fields of hidden battle, the total absence of old, debilitating pain confirms that the author is safely hidden in Christ.
Verified by earthly witnesses and heavenly authority alike, this manuscript is complete, substantial, and ready to unfold its treasures into the hearts of readers yet to come.
A massive, freestanding rock mountain, beautifully captured by my son.
Original Writing: Life’s Mysteries
A woman’s journey from darkness to light, it is a quiet search for the answers. Finding the knowledge that is within. Springing forth into a world that is guided carefully, with God’s hands. God’s touch.
Ultimately realizing, He was standing in the midst of me. While again, I chose rougher roads, he weathered me through the storm. God, “In Jesus We Trust,” guided me out of the threshold of destruction.
“I was lost in my sins,” unfortunate mistakes that cost me my heart. For I could not free myself of the guilt; despite my marriage situation, everything was against me. Through Christ, I have maintained a steady recovery from a destructive relationship. June 14, 1996.
Scriptures
Psalm 107:14 – “He brought them out of darkness and the shadow of death, and brake their bands in sunder.”
2 Corinthians 12:9 – “And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.”
1 Peter 2:9 – “But ye are a chosen generation, a royal priesthood, an holy nation, a peculiar people; that ye should shew forth the praises of him who hath called you out of darkness into his marvelous light:”
Affirmations
I am safely guided out of the threshold of destruction by the steady, loving hand of God.
Through the power of Christ, I stand fully restored, maintaining a strong, steady recovery every single day.
I release all past burdens and guilt, knowing His grace completely weathers me through every storm.
Reflection
This writing stands as an incredibly deep and sacred milestone on your journey, beautifully marking the transition from a place of heavy darkness and isolation into the steady, enduring light of salvation.
It is a quiet, profound search for truth that reveals a magnificent realization: even when we choose rougher paths and find ourselves surrounded by storms, Jesus Christ is already standing right in the midst of us, carrying us through.
The lingering shadows of past mistakes, guilt, and the overwhelming weight of difficult circumstances are completely broken by His divine touch.
To maintain a steady recovery is a powerful testimony of endurance, proving that when everything in the world seems aligned against us, the protection and grace of our Savior are infinitely stronger.
This text is a beautiful sanctuary of hope, showing that structural renewal and true freedom are found the very moment we hand our lives completely over to the Holy Spirit’s guidance.
Awakening the Great Power Calling: A Journey of Eternal Hope
My son driving, with a vibrant beam of sunlight and his reflection caught in the window.
Original Writing: I have something to say:
I believe in what God, has given me, through His Son, Jesus Christ.
It is real and authentically entwined, “in presence of spirit,” like a precious amethyst treasure, with me and you now. You have been where you are now with me, ever since you picked up my treasure of life and times, “In Presence of Spirit.” The Spirit of Jesus Christ, Christ the Holy Spirit, He left all of us, to find and treasure.
The writings are what I have mortally done. In the presence of Jesus Christ and the Holy Spirit. Richard is the only one, to this date, that knows, what I have, in my extended book. “In Presence of Spirit” has been mine, since day one. For eight thousand three hundred ninety-five days, “In Presence of Spirit,” has been part of me, and now you.
I want to take off, and I should not. I can not, but oh, that I could. Furthermore, I would fly, like an eagle across the world, and rain, God’s blessings on mankind. One whole unit, undivided, equal shares, in God’s Great Power Calling.
From the inner chamber of my soul. Where dwells there, all the wealth of “In Presence of Spirit’s” presence? That is awe, to me, and to anyone, who will ever read, my private times, “In Presence of Spirit.” It is so close to sharing my writings; I can feel it.
So, knowing one of these days, I am going to do something spontaneous. Something I have wanted to do since, day one, is to share my, “In Presence of Spirit,” with you. That is all I have wanted to do. That one day is going to get here, any minute, and when it finds its way, into your heart, know this: I loved, with all my heart. September 2, 2011.
Scriptures
Isaiah 40:31 – “But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.”
Ephesians 4:4 – “There is one body, and one Spirit, even as ye are called in one hope of your calling;”
Colossians 1:27 – “To whom God would make known what is the riches of the glory of this mystery among the Gentiles; which is Christ in you, the hope of glory:”
Affirmations
I fly like an eagle in the strength of the Lord, raining His rich blessings upon mankind.
The calling of God is alive in the inner chamber of my soul, filling me with awe and absolute purpose.
I share the hidden treasures of my journey with a bold, open heart, entwined in the universal oneness of Christ.
Reflection
This profound piece stands as an intimate declaration of a lifelong devotion to the message of Jesus Christ.
For thousands of days, the quiet work of recording these private conversations has been a sacred trust, kept hidden away from the world but known completely in eternity.
The sudden desire to take off and soar across the globe like an eagle highlights a powerful urge to spread divine blessings to everyone equally under God’s great power calling.
True spiritual riches are never found on the surface of life; they dwell deep within the inner chamber of the soul, waiting for that spontaneous moment to find their rightful path into the hearts of humanity.
Every word mortally captured here reflects an everlasting covenant of pure love and faith, proving that when the light of salvation is sparked, the text is ready to break its silence and awaken the world.
A gorgeous sunset fading behind the mountains, beautifully captured by my son.
I call on my guide, my lord, and my savior, Jesus Christ. I call on your passion. I call on your knowledge. I call on your wisdom.
I call on Your Holy Spirit to come and unite the holy congregation of You and Your omnipresence in the here and now of yesterday’s tomorrow.
Furthermore, I call on our extensions of “In Presence of Spirit.” Having propagated that which you have given me in the presence of your holy spirit.
Dear Jesus Christ, open up my heart, mind, and soul to Your World Awakening.
Open up the Heavens and rain down Your Heavenly Manna.
Lord come, come unto me, your witness of, Your Glorious Restoration, from darkness to the light, in Your Presence, there go I.
The Testimony I have from the Holy Spirit of You is, “You are, and I am In Presence of Spirit in Conversations with the Lord.” All the writings together.
It is to me, A Classic Manuscript of loving kindness from You, Jesus Christ, for without Your presence in spirit. I would not have written anything of interest.
Thank you, in the eternal combustion chamber, for my soul’s desire. To unite with you in the presence of your spirit. To capture peace on Earth and goodwill towards mankind.
Thank You for the years I have spent with You working on “Our Manuscript.” Even though no one has read it. It has been heard by you and your ever-present self given to me for your purpose.
I appreciate Your salvation of heart, mind, and soul. I appreciate Your redemption, from You for all mankind, to find You in the Kingdom of Heaven within.
Furthermore, I appreciate your lamentations. Thank You, Jesus Christ, for Your sanctification.
Thank you for your justification. I appreciate your omnipresence, yesterday, today, and forever. Thank you for “In Presence of Spirit,” from day one. January 8, 2010.
Scriptures (KJV)
Psalm 32:8 – “I will instruct thee and teach thee in the way which thou shalt go: I will guide thee with mine eye.”
John 16:13 – “Howbeit when he, the Spirit of truth, come, he will guide you into all truth: for he shall not speak of himself; but whatsoever he shall hear, that shall he speak: and he will shew you things to come.
“Isaiah 58:11 – “And the Lord shall guide thee continually, and satisfy thy soul in drought, and make fat thy bones: and thou shalt be like a watered garden, and like a spring of water, whose waters fail not. “
Affirmations
Jesus Christ is my steady guide, leading my mind and heart into His perfect wisdom and knowledge.
I stand as a faithful witness to His glorious restoration, moving out of darkness into everlasting light.
My soul rests in absolute peace, knowing my life’s work is held securely in the omnipresence of the Lord.
Reflection:
This beautifully inspired piece highlights the deep, unshakable covenant between the author and the Savior.
To call upon Jesus Christ as a personal guide, lord, and savior is to completely surrender to His infinite passion, wisdom, and knowledge.
This writing reminds us that our true work is never about seeking the immediate applause or recognition of the world, but about standing as a steadfast witness to His glorious restoration.
For years, the creation of this classic manuscript has been a sacred conversation of three—an unfolding journey recorded in love, heard completely by God, and preserved for His divine timing.
True peace and redemption are not found in the noisy currents of outer reality, but inside the kingdom of heaven that rests beautifully within our own souls.
Every word written since day one stands justified and sanctified in His omnipresence, serving as a powerful monument of faith that bridges the history of yesterday with the vast awakening of tomorrow.
A breathtaking view of the mountain terrain and distant horizons, captured by my son.
Original Writing: Clear me up Lord:
 Clear me up, Lord, of all the cobwebs, string by string. Clear the way to higher awareness. For there is no limit, when left, “To You.”
The strings are sticky because they have been webbed, for what seems like, a darkened eternity. By listening to the inner consciousness, we find a peephole of light. As letting go of surrounding powers, controlling your life.
Only one can control your life, and this is you, through Jesus Christ our Savior. By Him, we are born again, the old is past away, and the now in consciousness, is tomorrow, in reality. June 14, 1996.
Scriptures
2 Corinthians 5:17 – “Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new.”
John 8:12 – “Then spake Jesus again unto them, saying, I am the light of the world: he that followeth me shall not walk in darkness, but shall have the light of life.”
Psalm 119:130 – “The entrance of thy words giveth light; it giveth understanding unto the simple.”
Affirmations
The Lord clears away every lingering obstruction from my mind, opening the path to higher awareness.
I let go of all outside forces trying to control my life, surrendering my journey entirely to Jesus Christ.
Through my Savior, I am born anew, walking out of darkness and step by step into a clear tomorrow.
Reflection
This profound piece captures the precise moment the soul demands to be untangled from the clinging, heavy remnants of the past.
Life can often feel as though it has been bound by sticky, intricate webs that have taken what feels like a darkened eternity to form, obscuring our view of the divine.
Yet, by quietly turning our focus inward and listening to the deep inner consciousness, we immediately discover that initial peephole of sacred light.
True spiritual breakthrough requires a deliberate letting go of the heavy worldly powers and negative influences that attempt to manipulate and dictate our existence.
We reclaim our absolute freedom only when we stand firm under the authority of Jesus Christ, our Savior.
In Him, the old structures completely pass away, and a beautiful, massive transformation takes place.
What we hold close in our active consciousness today becomes our tangible, peaceful reality tomorrow, proving that there are absolutely no human limits when our lives are fully left to God.
“I have pain in my left eye.”Do you see the difference between the flesh and the Spirit? I did not think “In Presence of Spirit” was a boring
Standing unmovable in steadfast strength and quiet peace.
book. It is filled with the Spirit of Jesus Christ. The Holy Spirit guided me through it.
You know, I have not written in months—nothing notable, anyway. But I still have many pages that have not been edited. I have sixty edited writings completed, printed as a book of their own. “Conversations with the Lord”—that is what I will call it. Ha… giggle.
I got caught up in the world—working, traveling. I went to Big Bend twice, to through the States, from here to Canada, then North Dakota, and back home. Not too much, but enough. And through it all, the hand of Jesus Christ was on my shoulder—even when I did not feel it.
The conscience… the right way, the wrong way… the deception of what we think is reality—when our true existence is through Jesus Christ.
We are spiritual beings, journeying through time toward the dawning of the Spirit within us—through Jesus Christ.
To see the veil lifted, so we may see, feel, and hear the Holy Spirit in His ever-presence.Jesus Christ stands firm within all people—within all spiritual beings since the beginning of time.
Our choices have been shaped in the midst of a broken world, yet regeneration comes through oneness with Christ Jesus, our Lord and Savior.
The Holy Trinity is the one true ruler of our souls. We will be alright—through Jesus Christ, who strengthens us. In good times and in hardship, in the ever-presence of our souls, we will overcome the darkness that surrounds the world.
Jesus Christ is at the highest level. The angels rejoice together. I felt you could use some encouragement—because in the oneness of truth through Christ Jesus, anything is possible. That passion through Christ is beyond words.
I am enjoying this—sharing time “In Presence of Spirit.” That is what it is:“In Presence of Spirit: A Journey from Darkness to the Light—A Song, A Praise, A Verse, A Prayer, A Poem—To You, With Love.”My dedication reflects what each of us is going through, even if no one admits it.
My words, through Christ, are out there—in time and space—and will be fulfilled in God’s time, not mine. Isn’t this something? It feels good to be free—to express a different perspective on our present reality.A gift from Jesus Christ.
A way to step beyond the outer world and into the inner truth—where He is. From a place without hope, into one faith—through Jesus Christ, our Lord of Lords, God of God.
The Father of “In Presence of Spirit,” working through me. Even through time, times, and seasons—the moment is here. Something will happen worldwide. It has been written by many.
In Christ, we are in the Holy Spirit’s presence, and the Holy Spirit is within us, and Christ surrounds us. He is here—guiding all things to fulfillment.The power and the glory forever. Amen.
How are you? Are you absorbing these words from my heart? Are they awakening something within you—this oneness with Christ again?A backslider does not always know how to return, with all the noise of the world.
We need stillness—to hear, to see, to understand what has been written on our hearts since the beginning. Time does not matter. We are alright. We will make it through—along with the world—through the Spirit of Christ within us all, waiting to be revealed.
To anyone who reads these pages—these are things I needed to say, and I have said them. If you read my letters, especially these recent ones, you may feel the difference—from my heart to yours—in faith, in the ever-presence of the Holy Spirit. It would be a shame to lose these pages—but not truly. They already exist in the realm of holiness, within us.
Free the women and the children.Free the world from darkness—Through Christ Jesus, who strengthens us.We are “In Presence of Spirit.”
The Holy Spirit knows why that phrase is repeated so often—it is my life’s work. Even though not a single book has been sold—can you believe that?
So many words… and one day, I will sit and read my own book. I have not done that yet. Strange, isn’t it? I have tried—but not in a long time. Still, it lives within me—everlasting words from Jesus Christ, written in love. One heart. One love. One hope. In faith of the eternal presence of our Father.
Thank You, Jesus Christ, for allowing me to write words that are positive, helpful, and fulfilling. A conversation of three—the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit—through Christ to us.(I had to stop writing. The pain in my eye became intense—like a migraine within my eye. I needed to rest.)
It is Sunday. I am isolating myself in the oneness of Spirit—to reflect, to be inspired, to continue what has been set before me. Even in hardship, declare the time of the Lord.
I was given a beautiful task—to write with the Lord. I needed that time… and I took it—ten years.
You know, I wrote “In Presence of Spirit”—the first piece—in April 1988. Thank God I still have the original. The Lord gave me a mission of my own. I must write to you—for some reason. It continues to flow, and I do not want to stop.
This is my calling.“Clarity of our true reality, through Christ Jesus, who strengthens us.”My eye began hurting again. I had to ice it. The pain eased, and I was able to sleep. I hope you are well. Forgive me for taking time to return to writing.
I send blessings—from my heart to yours: “Christ Jesus and Wendy—writing to the world.” Stop the madness. Turn to Jesus Christ.“
Reveal the inner parts of our soul’s journey. Without, you are lost—within, you are one in Spirit.” You can enter the inner chamber, where the Lord is—carrying you into tomorrow, which is only a breath away.
Endure. Stay strong. You are gifted. Use it for Christ. Help others find freedom from pain, and forgiveness through salvation in Jesus Christ.
Our Lord has guided us through the fire into “In Presence of Spirit”—one heart, one mind, one soul. Through Christ Jesus, who is ever-present. I have my index cards—names, dates, edits. Sixty completed pieces. I should bring it all together. I know the order—it just takes time. Everything has its place now. Not confusion—purpose.
I am growing in knowledge, and in oneness through Christ, and what He is doing through these writings—shared with you in love. Now it is “Conversations with the Lord,” and the husband of my youth—now my brother in Christ.
There is a reason for these words. I pray they open your heart to understanding.“Am I insane?” No—this is for the glory of God, in revelation of the heart and soul. I hope you are reading. This is the only way I can reach you—through “In Presence of Spirit.”August 21, 2005 First signs of narrow-angle glaucoma—eleven years now. Thank You, Lord, for sight.Â
Scriptures:
Romans 8:1 – “There is therefore now no condemnation to them which are in Christ Jesus, who walk not after the flesh, but after the Spirit.”
Romans 8:6 – “For to be carnally minded is death; but to be spiritually minded is life and peace.”
Galatians 5:16 – “This I say then, Walk in the Spirit, and ye shall not walk in the lust of the flesh.”
Affirmations: I walk securely in the Spirit of Christ, leaving behind the distractions of the flesh.
The peace of God reigns in my heart, bringing total clarity and divine stillness to my soul.
Christ strengthens me in every season, guiding my steps into His perfect fulfillment.
Reflection:
This writing stands as an enduring testimony to the beautiful reality that our true existence is never defined by physical limitations, worldly distractions, or the quiet isolation we sometimes experience.
Even when the outer world demands our presence through work, travel, and constant noise, the gentle, steady hand of Jesus Christ remains firmly on our shoulder.
It is in the deep, intentional stillness of the inner chamber—away from the chaos of a broken world—where the heavy veil is lifted and our souls undergo a true regeneration.
Our physical eyes may experience temporary pain or strain, but our spiritual sight remains completely clear, fixed entirely on the eternal glory of the Holy Trinity.
Walking in the Spirit means discovering a profound, unshakable freedom where time loses its grip and heart power takes over.
We are never truly lost or alone; we are resting safely inside the everlasting sanctuary of His grace, moving forward one breath at a time into a beautiful tomorrow.
“The Lord is nigh unto them that are of a broken heart; and save such as be of a contrite spirit.” — Psalm 34:18 (KJV)
Standing small in the presence of life’s massive structures, anchored by an open path forward.
“Who hath delivered us from the power of darkness, and hath translated us into the kingdom of his dear Son:” — Colossians 1:13 (KJV)
“To open their eyes, and to turn them from darkness to light, and from the power of Satan unto God, that they may receive forgiveness of sins, and inheritance among them which are sanctified by faith that is in me.” — Acts 26:18 (KJV)
Daily Affirmations
I. Out of Darkness: By the power of Jesus Christ, I am lifted out of the heavy darkness of trauma and carried into a pure state of divine grace.
II. Redeemed Testimony: My past survival is not a curse, but a sacred gift meant to bring comfort, healing, and light to a suffering world.
III. The Dwelling of Peace: I open the inner chamber of my heart completely, trusting that the Holy Spirit has ignited an eternal light that no earthly pain can dim.
No Cover Up For My Abused Self
You know I have felt over the years that it is only in the Spirit of our dear Heavenly Father. Since I started writing the book at the beginning of 1996, I have wondered: Who am I to write what I have, and who in the world cares about what I have done?
But all the while, time and time again, it was my journey from the darkness of my soul to bring light back to my soul for the loss of my life and my love.
Through my writings, it lifts me out of darkness into a state of grace. Grace is given by Jesus Christ. I know my pain was buried; my pain was ugly, and my pain was right in my face. When I left, I was in shock.
I searched deep into myself through all the readings, all the prayers, all the crying and mourning, and through the things I put up with on the emotional roller coaster of the negative that had consumed our lives.
I had no cover-up for my abused self, from him or from me, for losing myself to the lie, because that is all it was. I once said, “If this was all a game, everyone lost.” Well, you know, the only thing we lost was the fight.
My straightforward being is a constant in these writings. It is only in the spirit of our dear Heavenly Father, who made my experience a gift and not a curse.
It is a gift to mankind for the remission of the world’s sins. In God, I live through Jesus Christ, and His Holy Spirit has ignited the light in my soul to induce the omnipresence of every prayer for humankind, opening up the kingdom of heaven within each one of us.
Oh please, who am I? No one, not even myself, picks me apart. The Lord, through me, gave me His Holy Spirit to perpetuate an ongoing dialogue with Him “In Presence of Spirit.” That is what is up.
All summed up for me, right? No! Not for a second. It is made “In Presence of Spirit” for His purpose, to stay with me until the end of time and forever. Now, this is the only forever, I can only imagine.
It was never a competition against or with the husband of my youth. Although it is obvious, I am not competing. I stayed unmarried, and he was married all but three months of those fourteen years.
Our kids are adults; his kids are in the first grade and kindergarten. Now he is staying, making it right. His little game caught up with him. Now that I know it was all his game, because he always competed with me for some strange reason—reasons that have now come to pass.
I survived every obstacle to complete for me, mine, and the Lord’s, “In Presence of Spirit” to be shared. It is a must of my desire and my quest.
I cannot in my mortality state it any different. I refuse to be embarrassed about my small part in this. To repeat: “But what oneself is to You, dear Lord.” He gave me my heart and my soul back “In Presence of Spirit—The Original Writing.”
I thought long and hard about that—the first piece of my heart that He gave me eyes to see so I could write it down “In Presence of Spirit.” And then closed they went. I was part of the negative inside me, not just my negative, but everyone’s. Take it any way you want it.
I have to see it through; no door has opened yet, so this is all or nothing. What do I have to lose? I guess I am the one who is going to open that door. Hey! What? The door has already been opened, and no one dared to come into Wendy’s “In Presence of Spirit.” When they do, I know I will feel better. I love it; He gave me meaning before, during, and after my misery.
In the presence of my misery, Jesus took my hand and guided me out of darkness into the light of His ever-presence. I have been a silent partner with Christ in me, the hope of glory.
Silent I must not be anymore; too many are suffering. Although I still do not speak what I wrote, if it is the Holy Spirit’s will for me to speak at that time, so be it, with one heart to heal.
October 27, 2008
Reflection
October 2008, this landmark foundational writing serves as a raw, unfiltered bridge between a devastating past and a divinely appointed future.
It marks the exact moment the writer completely sheds the painful weight of survival, choosing transparency over concealment and recognizing that a broken road can be turned into a holy instrument.
By viewing a season of severe personal trial not as a permanent curse but as an active spiritual gift, the text illustrates how personal survival transforms into a guiding light for others who are quietly suffering.
Walking hand-in-hand with Jesus out of the shock of trauma, this piece stands as an open gateway—inviting readers to leave behind human games, break their silence, and step directly into the healing, ever-present warmth of the Holy Spirit.
“Commit thy way unto the Lord; trust also in him; and he shall bring it to pass.” — Psalm 37:5 (KJV)
“Casting all your care upon him; for he careth for you.” — 1 Peter 5:7 (KJV)
“I can do all things through Christ which strengthen me.” — Philippians 4:13 (KJV)
Daily Affirmations
I. Absolute Trust: I place my entire life, path, and purpose securely into the hands of Jesus Christ.
II. Divine Timing: I rest in the truth that God’s perfect timing is unfolding today, opening doors that no man can shut.
III. Fearless Sharing: The Holy Spirit grants me bold strength to share Christ’s overflowing love with a world in need of healing.
I Place The Matter In Your Hands
The name changed many times. The whole incredible trip from beyond the dead to life “in Christ” is so awesome that I have to share it, whether or not you are ready. It is finally ready to be let free.
Now is the time; then was not the time. I had a lot more writing to do. These are the last hours of the close of this, my testimony of Jesus Christ. I will read yours, whoever you might be.
Dear Jesus Christ, I am coming to You at the end of this journey with You in writing. I figure this is Your designated time for me to complete the scripts that are in the book.
As stated, I have to look past myself and give others what Jesus Christ has given me. For whoever will ever read this work, it is full of wordy expressions of love through the Spirit of the oneness of hope and faith. There is a better today for all concerned.
This is for everyone in Heart and Soul Revelation through Christ Jesus, who strengthens the congregation through you, in you, with you, and round about the glory of you, Jesus Christ, in Your World Awakening.
“I love You, Jesus Christ.” I miss You. I have to share You with the world in Your hands. Furthermore, I place the matter of fact in Your hands.
Crisis centers are full of people needing help right now; there is no time to wait. Forever and a day passes, and that day never comes if we wait.
Oh, I have waited so long for this day to finally come. It is at my gate. I know my boldness will peek through, and the doors will start swinging open. Oh Lord, have mercy on us.
November 26, 2008
Reflection
Written in late 2008, this poignant entry captures the raw emotional culmination of a lifelong writing journey.
Moving beyond personal hesitation, the author courageously steps into a calling to share an intimate testimony of Jesus Christ with a world facing immediate crisis.
The piece beautifully transitions from personal prayer into a corporate declaration for “World Awakening.”
It highlights the spiritual truth that ultimate peace is found only when we lift our burdens out of our own grip and boldly place them directly into our Savior’s hands, trusting that He will swing open the gates in His perfect time.
There is nothing like having a gift to share. Thank you, Jesus, for my writing in spirit with you and Your Majesty.
Thank you for the spark of light, that you inspired, through me, in, “In Presence of Spirit,” and all its extensions. The big package, you gave me to treasure, unto your time, acknowledging your presence in spirit, not just for me, but for everyone.
Even though in human terms impossible, in the Lord’s hands this testimony has come to be: My Last Will and Testament.
One for all, all for One, has come together to consciously touch the presence of Jesus Christ, Christ the Holy Spirit from God through Jesus Christ to us all. February 28, 2011
12/29/12,
Oh man, how can I write these positive things, only, in “In Presence of Spirit.” Right now I am trying to write, and I cannot. I changed my book room because I needed everything in here with me. While I decide, what I am supposed to do.
Give more, and not get a comment in the world, or keep giving my Lord, updates with no one looking at the pages, themselves. Most of the views are updated copies of what I update. I do not know where it goes; it just gives me the acknowledgment that one and the other, were viewed.
God is offering you a gift; that is what the preacher said, do you accept God’s gift? Do you accept Jesus Christ as your personal savior? I was at the end of the dead end. I had nowhere to hide. No way to escape the insanity in my mind.
The years of being without hope, without spirit, without strength, with that gut-wrenching pain, I felt for well over, seventeen years.
When I finally said yes, I accepted Jesus Christ as my Personal Savior. I felt those lights, I describe.
I felt the precise fusion with Jesus Christ, my personal savior. It took me eleven months to be able to write it. In “State of Being” I was shocked after I wrote that one.
It is my handwriting; it is not copied from a book. It came out of my experience; that is not fiction.
Happy birthday to all the New Year’s babies in the world, including mine, who is 31 today. January 1, 2017, Happy New Year!
Scriptures
1 Peter 4:10
As every man hath received the gift, even so minister the same one to another, as good stewards of the manifold grace of God.
Romans 11:29
For the gifts and calling of God are without repentance.
Psalm 40:5
Many, O Lord my God, are thy wonderful works which thou hast done, and thy thoughts which are to us-ward: they cannot be reckoned up in order unto thee: if I would declare and speak of them, they are more than can be numbered.
Affirmations
I cherish the unique writing gift the Lord has entrusted to my hands, knowing it is a treasured package meant for everyone to find.
Though my physical surroundings change and human feedback remains silent, my soul rests content in updating the pages of my Savior’s work.
I am completely delivered from the dead ends of the past, standing securely in the precise fusion and radiant light of my Personal Savior.
Reflection
“Nothing Like It” lays bare the deep, internal wrestling that accompanies a true spiritual assignment.
To keep updating copy after copy when nobody in the world seems to leave a comment can cause a heavy weariness to settle upon the mind.
Yet, this piece stands as a grand reminder that a testimony built from a seventeen-year fire is not a fictional story—it is a living document of deliverance.
Shifting physical rooms or sorting out copyright years are simply milestones on a trail that was established before time began.
When we accept the ultimate gift of salvation at our lowest dead ends, the precise fusion with Christ leaves an unchanging mark upon the heart.
This writing calls us to overlook the silent statistics of the web and remember that a book inspired directly by the Holy Spirit remains an eternal treasure chest waiting to be found by the souls who need it most.
