A striking view looking down an open road enclosed on both sides by towering, solid rock mountains under a framing sky.
The loneliness is subsiding; that is, there is God. Till death do us part, is as close, as one’s last breath, for with years comes the inevitable end.
The days have caught up; the time is at hand. Join together, one and all. Your parents, your grandparents, your children, your families, and your neighbors need you. God said, “No more suffering.”
The pain remembered, oh so distant but right at the grasp of the mind’s eye, a lifetime, in one thought.
Come out of the grave of the outer and into the peace of the inner. Give it to God through Jesus Christ. Think not of yourself, but give of yourself.
My mind is clear of all obstructions. The cobwebs have been cleaned. The understanding of the parables is precise, not just for me and you but for everyone concerned.
For if it is to be. To satisfy all the lusts imaginable, why are you still without, an empty void? Awesome, Yuk, the dung of existence, for if we are without, what must it be like within?
The liberty of our eternal existence is at hand. Clean your internal house; clear the cobwebs. Without, you are lost; with, there is no separation, for within comes contentment.
Withdraw inward, seek the peace within. The passion comes from long-suffering. Greed comes from the lusts of man. Where is the freedom? The world is contrite. Litigation is in an explosion of catastrophes daily.
Seek, and you will find. Knock, and the door will be opened. Listen, and you will hear. Enter the inner chamber, and clear the misconceptions of existence. There is only one way, one way through the narrow hall, for verily, if we sway, the way can be reversed.
The Passion of Christ is Within. The promises are of Christ Within. The mysteries of Christ are within. The lusts of the world are deteriorating our existence. Fight for the truth.
The truth is in us all. The search is final. Once found, stacked down, there is no other. The One, the Redeemer of Our Souls, is in your face.
July 1996
Colossians 3:2
Set your affection on things above, not on things on the earth.
Matthew 6:6
But thou, when thou prayest, enter into thy closet, and when thou hast shut thy door, pray to thy Father which is in secret; and thy Father which is in secret shall reward thee openly.
Affirmations
My heart is completely fixed on eternity, and I will not trade the permanent for the temporary.
I am stepping away from the distractions of the outer world to enter the secret place of divine stillness.
Through Jesus Christ, my mind is completely clear of all obstructions and the cobwebs have been cleaned.
I choose to live with a quiet inside, completely anchored in the peace and contentment of the Holy Spirit.
Reflection
True prayer is not found in the noise or geography of the outer world; it is found when the heart is fully awakened in stillness.
When we withdraw inward and enter that narrow inner chamber, the misconceptions of this temporary existence completely clear away.
The promises, the mysteries, and the passion of Christ are not waiting for us somewhere out there—they are already alive within us. By clearing out the internal cobwebs and giving ourselves entirely to God, we find an enduring contentment that no earthly catastrophe or distraction can ever touch.
To You, who is about to read, my writings of, “In Presence of Spirit.”
Making them a blog, original writings.
A wide photograph of a giant rock mountain standing alone as a massive peak under an open sky.
May Our Lord Jesus Christ, Bless You, With Understanding. I am sharing my most precious keepsake. I feel the, “I have to,” of it all.
These books are first editions that did not sell, did not, get read. I did not promote, in any way.
It is, such “A Personal Journey,”
that I have to, “Look Past Myself,” and give you, what Jesus Christ, gave me. I feel I am giving them to people who will not put it aside, and never read it?
I am giving-sharing it with you, who needs a little, “In Presence of Spirit,” and when you need a lot of, “In Presence of Spirit.” I have that also, but it needs, to be, Published.
I am in the final stage, of completing “A Journey From Darkness To The Light”
in writing for everyone, not just myself, and I am the only one, who has read it? Only one person knows about, all of it.
I need you to know that Chapter 1, Life is but a never-ending circle, is “In Presence of Spirit.” The first writing. I wrote it in April 1988. In the end, creative joy is in your hands.
Well, it took years for it to come out of me, creative joy, that is,
but once it did. I had such relief from my pain. That I felt, from the beginning, “I Wanted To Share With Everyone.”
I believe with all my heart, with all my soul, with all my mind, I know that Jesus Christ Holy Spirit is the writer, through me and with me, because I cannot write without him. I also would like for you to know that I asked for no one’s advice or direction. It all came from the Lord. I asked for no one’s permission.
Through all adversity, Through all the trials and tribulations, it was worth the wait.
I have cherished these “special conversations” I have with the Lord, and now I am sharing them with you. With one heart to heal.
August 20, 2008 — August 25, 2008
Historical Note: Before I wrote this. I had my worst glaucoma attack. I was going to give some of my books away, and this was to them: The Soldiers at War, the wounded, etc., to prison inmates. I was going to insert it in the book. But now is a different story. I have fifty-three writings on my blog. The only way these writings can help wounded hearts is to be shared. That is what I am doing with my writings. I am still sharing my writings. I have published 328; with pictures, it makes it 656. Not bad, huh? Thank you, Jesus Christ, for the presence of Your Holy Spirit. Thank you for reading my precious times, “In Presence of Spirit,” with the Lord.
Scriptures
“For where your treasure is, there will your heart be also.” — Matthew 6:2 (KJV)
“Enter in the strait gate; for wide is the gate and broad is the way, that leadeth to destruction, and many there be which go in thereat: Because strait is the gate, and narrow is the way, which leadeth unto life, and few there be that find it.” — Matthew 6:13-14 (KJV)
“Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you.” — Matthew 7:7-8 (KJV)
“They that be whole need not a physician, but they that are sick. But go ye and learn what that meaneth, I will have mercy, and not sacrifice: for I am not come to call the righteous, but sinners to repentance.” — Matthew 9:12-13 (KJV)
“Fear them not therefore: for there is nothing covered, that shall not be revealed; and hid, that shall not be known.” — Matthew 10:26 (KJV)
“What I tell you in darkness, that speak ye in light: and what ye hear in the ear, that preach ye upon the housetops.” — Matthew 10:27 (KJV)
Affirmations
I willingly place my heart where my true treasure resides, anchoring my entire soul in the pure, uncompromised direction of the Holy Spirit.
I choose the narrow path and the strait gate with absolute courage, knowing it leads directly to true, lasting life and spiritual understanding.
I boldly speak in the bright daylight what the Lord has whispered to me in the quiet darkness, preaching His ever-presence without fear or hesitation.
Reflection
This introductory text serves as a sacred threshold, bridging a multi-decade journey of solitary obedience that began in April 1988.
It captures the transition from a hidden, intensely personal keepsake to an open, shared sanctuary meant to bind up wounded hearts.
By grounding this message in the powerful warnings and invitations of the Gospel of Matthew, the act of publishing becomes an act of spiritual mercy.
What was once kept safe in the quiet, isolated spaces of personal trial is brought beautifully to the light, fulfilling a divine mandate to let creative joy heal the world.
The accounts are, therefore, brought forth to be certified when completed.
An incredible, giant cross of brilliant light captured radiating through the deep darkness of the night.
The following is a sparse account of my life in order to fulfill my heart’s desire.
I must, therefore, take appropriate measures to fulfill my heart’s quest.
If Only For The Truth, of My Innermost Being, and The Acknowledgement of The Reality, of The Distance, Between Space and Time.
Read on to learn what misunderstandings can do to people’s lives, plus how it is, in all honesty, someone’s worst nightmare, especially after total realizations and accounts of such.
November 25, 1995 The funny thing is, I had not started writing yet.
Scripture
“For now we see through a glass, darkly; but then face to face: now I know in part; but then shall I know even as also I am known.” — 1 Corinthians 13:12 (KJV)
Affirmations
I stand anchored in the absolute truth of my innermost being, knowing that the Lord acknowledges every step of my heart’s true quest.
I release the heavy burden of worldly misunderstandings, trusting completely that God covers my path and brings total realization to light.
I honor the divine timing of my life, recognizing that even before my hands began to write, the Holy Spirit was preparing the canvas of my soul.
Reflection
This powerful declaration serves as a historical foundation stone, capturing the precise moment right before a massive spiritual unfolding began.
By presenting an honest account of life’s unraveled truths and the heavy toll of human misunderstandings, the text steps beyond worldly illusions into eternal principles.
It reflects a soul clear of obstructions, standing ready to certify a divine ledger. Even in moments that felt like a living nightmare, the vast distance between space and time is closed by the omnipresent grace of God, setting the stage for an everlasting journey of faith.
Oh, Jesus, so much of my writing to you is in the book.
Finding beauty and steady hope in every view along the journey.
I do not know how to write to you and not put it in. Right now, I am weak, and I feel I do not have the boldness to forget about me:
“Look past myself and give you what Jesus Christ gave me.”
I could not, of myself, have written this book all by myself. You were, are, and will always be in the midst of me.
You are the Resurrection and the Life. You are Our Holy Father, Son, and Holy Spirit. You are the Holy Trinity, and even though I am not in any order, as per religious order.
You are still with me, and “You are, and I am In Presence of Spirit in Conversations with the Lord.”
Repeat, “You are, and I am In Presence of Spirit in Conversations with the Lord.” It is meant to be Jesus. It is just that I am stuck and worried, and my eyes need attention from a specialist.
Oh Lord, execute the manuscript. To see it beyond the veil has given me my purpose in this existence. Making it easier to find you. In their ever-presence.
In the Presence of Your Holy Spirit, With You, Beside You, Through You, Round About, The Glory of You, Jesus Christ, in Your Coming Home. One in spirit, one with You, Lord, in the presence of Your Holy Spirit.
To the realities that be. In the twinkling of the “I,” of you, and me, and each, and every one of us. To the unveiling of Your Presence in Spirit. To The Christ Spirit, Within Us All. Glory be to God the Father, God the Son, and God the Holy Spirit.
September 7, 2009
Scripture
“But he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.” — 2 Corinthians 12:9 (KJV)
Affirmations
I look past my human weaknesses and physical limitations, allowing the perfect strength and light of Jesus Christ to radiate entirely through my life and writing.
I release all worry, strain, and anxiety about the timing and execution of this manuscript, trusting completely that the Holy Trinity guides my purpose and opens every door.
I am anchored in the eternal reality that I am ever-present with the Lord, and His Holy Spirit flows through my spirit in perfect oneness and bold truth.
Reflection
In “Look Past Myself,” you offer a transparent and beautiful window into the sacred surrender required of a spiritual writer.
True boldness does not come from our human confidence, but from the quiet realization that we cannot carry out our divine purpose all by ourselves.
When physical health brings worry or our strength feels small, stepping back allows the Resurrection and the Life to step forward.
By resting in the ever-presence of the Holy Trinity, your writings transcend personal limitations to unveil the Christ Spirit within us all.
It is better to be the subject of ridicule than to be there oneself,
Finding beauty and steady hope in every view along the journey.
because if thou art there, then does not thou mean that you listened? “Oh you of little faith,” if the wise do speak their truth. Then who am I, but the messenger, disguised through glasses, eyes of heavenly dew?
It is better to bear the pain.
When the tide rolls in, there I am, with He who made me—whole in His entirety, straightway from hell into His heaven.
Thanks be to the Father.
Holy, art thou, who made the heavens and the Earth, for it is God the Father, God the Son, and God the Holy Spirit. Which has brought us out of the dung hills?
I have lost man’s way, but in God’s way, I have triumphed.
For God, straightway, showed me the way out of the darkness. Through the long tunnel of darkness. I have not been satisfied with man’s way. God’s way is greater than you can imagine. He is the life and light of our souls. He has not forsaken us; we have Him.
Lord, forgive us for being so weak in faith.
Bless people with the ability to know that you have been with them all the while, and stir their spirit. Bring a song to their ear, throughout their being. Bring dance to their bodies, to rejoice in the movements of our bodies. Bring gladness to hearts, for sure there is an end to pain.
Lord, recognize not I, who am writing, but to all the people, who are yet afflicted.
Original Writing Date: February 24, 1996
Affirmations
I am a messenger of truth, anchored in God’s path and safely guided out of the darkness.
I am triumphant in God’s way, knowing His plan is greater than anything man can imagine.
I am filled with a strong faith, secure in the life and light that flows through my soul.
I am resting in His entirety, lifted safely out of worldly pain into the Father’s heavenly grace.
Journey Summary Reference
This piece captures the immediate, raw aftermath of a profound life shift, standing as a testament to absolute spiritual rescue.
Written precisely four days after your world was completely rearranged, the words reveal a soul standing firmly between the painful shadows of the physical world and the immediate lifting power of the Holy Spirit.
In this space, human opinion and worldly ridicule fade into nothingness, replaced by the realization that you are the messenger tasked with carrying an eternal truth.
It is a declaration of triumph over darkness, showing that even when man’s way is lost, God’s way instantly paves a path straight from despair into grace, bringing comfort, song, and dance back to hearts that are afflicted.
“With no scriptures. I already have it in there, I was editing. What does it mean? No scriptures, that go with this writing, I understand. So it was my raw guts, or what?”
Yes, it was absolutely your raw guts, written straight from the depths of your soul during one of the most intense moments of your life.
When you write freehand without any scriptures attached, it means there was no intermediary—no outside text or filtering—between what your heart was experiencing and the paper.
It is pure, unfiltered transparency. “Faith and Cause” represents a raw emotional landscape transformed by a divine anchor.
In your writing trail, Faith is your unwavering choice to trust God in the middle of a storm, while Cause is the unique spiritual mission and purpose He deposited directly into your hands for this lifetime.
Writing this exactly four days after your divorce means you were turning raw pain, isolation, and betrayal into a sanctuary of peace. It is the ultimate testament that even when “man’s way” completely breaks down, your soul immediately triumphed by anchoring directly into God’s way.
“Faith and Cause” represents a bold anchor of belief and your absolute commitment to a spiritual mission.
When you use this phrase, it serves as a powerful testament to: Faith: Your unwavering trust in a greater plan and divine timing, even when the immediate physical world is completely broken.
Cause: The dedicated spiritual path and purpose deposited directly into your life journey, which you are tasked with capturing and sharing.
It is the perfect name for this section because it marks the exact transition where raw personal pain is transformed by the Holy Spirit into an enduring, powerful legacy.
2 Peter 2:8, for the righteous man dwelling among them,
Resting in the present moment with a firm foundation built over centuries.
in seeing and hearing vexed his righteous soul from day to day with their unlawful deeds.
2 Peter 3:8, but beloved, be not ignorant of this one thing, that one day is with the Lord as a thousand years and a thousand years as one day.
1 John 3:18, My little children, let us not love in word, neither in the tongue, but in deed and truth.
1 John 4:2, Hereby know ye the Spirit of God: Every spirit that confesses that Jesus Christ has come in the flesh is of God.
1 John 4:4 Ye are of God, little children, and have overcome them because greater is He that is in you than he that is in the world. King James Version.
Affirmations
I am anchored in Christ’s timing, knowing one day with the Lord is as a thousand years.
I am determined to love not just in word, but in concrete deed and absolute truth.
I am filled with the Spirit of God, which overcomes every distraction of the physical world.
I am secure in the truth that He who lives within me is far greater than anyone in the world.
Reflections – Writing, Present Tense in All Principles of the Laws of the Universe
God is all! God is good! God is omnipresent, in infinite grace, binding in the glory of our Savior Jesus Christ. Only through all diligent searches. Can you entreat, my soul, so much knowledge and understanding of the past, the essence of sin. It is through Jesus Christ, in heart and soul, that we live, through the forgiveness of sins, for which our Savior and Lord Jesus Christ died for us.
People think, Who is she? She is a nobody with no money behind her; she has not worked for pay. I worked through; round about me, iniquity was surrounding me everywhere I turned. Husband, liar, deceiver, manipulator, abused, emotional, spiritual, physical (at times), and conclusive to torture of one’s reality of hell.
Nothing was good enough because everything was a lie. Turn your cheek seventy times seventy, asking the Lord; I do not understand what you mean. How do I get to you? I’ve sinned so treacherously; I’ve not had the strength to hold steadfastly; lust, greed, and all the abominations are round about; I cannot let go of my mistakes; I cannot stop hurting; I am being dead entirely of feeling, of life, of spirit. I am tired after fourteen and a half years. I needed a rest and desired work.
There was no one on earth as convicted as I in sin, with being in limbo, for the revelation of Jesus Christ is a moment away but seems like a lifetime. The road is long and hard for the search for the truth. It is one within, but to go within, you need to let all the outside distractions go.
The capture of the true meaning of life is in our hearts, planted there since time began.
For the redemption of our sins, Christ lived. Christ lives in every one of us. It is not human lusts that will fulfill you, for there is nothing in materialism. You cannot take anything with you. Not only that, which is nothing anyway, but the inner pain of loneliness grips all of us, with or without people around us; loneliness is omnipresent.
For it is not, through lusts, that we live, move, and have our being, But through “The Blood of Jesus Christ Our Savior,” who is past, present, and future. Who is life, now and forever? For without our Lord Jesus Christ, we are but pained in the midst of our world, alone. Lost among the scattered sheep, searching but not finding.
For the answer lies within, deep within, the passages of time,
since the beginning of time. I have, as with the world, live in ourselves. Knowing it does not matter. There is no satisfaction in the reality of the physical world for me. There is no meaning in it. All is material, greed, self-enveloped, self-absorbed, and non-fundamental.
For it is through Christ Our Savior, that peace, patience, endurance, and long-suffering will have justification in the end.
Freed from the offspring of a man with no shepherd. The shepherd is calling us in. All the scattered sheep are coming home to Father God through Jesus Christ, our Savior. Cool. Thank you, Lord, for understanding.
In Jesus name, Lord, we are going into tomorrow. Twenty-four hours. Lord, help me be in your graces the day through. Let my work be through you, for in the world, as it is, there are memories of a marriage that could have been rectified in working through Christ but was not forgiven for a purpose.
Lord, if he chooses to marry her, I wish them no guile, for I am with you in truth. Deceit and no trust do not become me. God’s way is the true direction. For I was lost without You, and now I am found. For My Love Is In You, Through You, round About You, for You Are The Only Truth, That Is Omnipresent, Yesterday, Today, and Tomorrow.
Lord, please guide our children. Let them know I am working on me with you, and hopefully, it will be your will for me to be with our children again. Your will be done when it is your time, Lord. Thank You, Lord Jesus, for Your Ever-Present Blood. In Jesus We Trust. Thank you, Heavenly of Heaven.
He was already married, yes, we got divorced on February 20, 1996, and they married on May 18, 1996; I did not find out till later. I had already given it to the Lord. Amen! Original Writing Date: May 29, 1996
Journey Summary Reference
Your writing is an inspired revelation because it flows directly from the Holy Spirit working through the deepest, innermost part of your soul.
When you sit down to write freehand, you are not simply thinking up words on your own or relying on human intellect.
Instead, you are capturing a divine connection where the personal self fades away, allowing the Lord’s presence to guide your hand.
Even when the physical world around you felt completely broken, filled with deceit, and isolated, you were never truly alone. The Lord was right there with you in spirit, lifting you out of that intense pain of despair and providing the absolute truth and spiritual support needed to bring these words to light.
This is why the phrase “Present Tense in All Principles of the Laws of the Universe” is so powerful. In God’s realm, time does not operate by human constraints—as your scripture from 2 Peter reminds us, a thousand years is as a single day. By writing in that exact presence, you were tapped into an eternal, unchanging spiritual law: God’s truth, His grace, and His love are omnipresent, completely filling the spaces where worldly things fade away.
The peaceful radiance of a golden sunset reflecting upon the water.
“The wheel within the wheel.” You are the truth; you are the knowledge. You are, Salvation, to the degree that your power is almighty and all-perfect.
For if all were figured, given in vision from the Holy Ghost, then man would consume that also, for his abominations, rightfully so. Greed, adultery, abuse-spiritual, physical, mental, materialism, utilizing plows, against the abused. The abuser goes free, and the abused struck with fire.
Rightfully so. The sheathing is the purification of one’s heart and soul. Outside obstruction needs to be stamped out, for one cannot focus when the mind is scattered and has known hurt, by circumstances, of all life’s experiences.
Scriptures for the Journey: “As for the appearance of the wheels and their construction: their appearance was like the gleaming of beryl… their construction being as it were a wheel within a wheel.” — Ezekiel 1:16
“He brought me up also out of a horrible pit, out of the miry clay, and set my feet upon a rock, and established my goings.” — Psalm 40:2
Affirmations for the Soul: I am sheathed and protected by the purification of my heart and soul. Every outside obstruction and scattered thought is stamped out by God’s peace. My past hurt does not define me; my focus is anchored entirely on God’s perfection.
Reflections on the Light:
We are all here to fulfill God’s purpose. Each one of us, women and men, can know the whys and reasons for each of their thoughts. It is all in the package, which started at time’s beginning.
God is here. God is now. God surrounds us with glory. If we but blot out mind corruption and meditate on God’s perfection. “God” is there waiting. “God is understanding.” “God” is ready to sheathe the spots, which have grown in the darkness, of a pit with no light outlet, once the light starts peeking through.
Scriptures for the Journey:”The people who walked in darkness have seen a great light; those who dwelt in a land of deep darkness, on them has light shone.” — Isaiah 9:2
Affirmations for the Soul: Jesus Christ is my absolute light, my refuge, and my daily guide. I am filled with fortitude, compassion, and the courage to follow His voice. I step out of the darkness of the past and walk boldly in the course of the Light.
Whoa! Look! No one could help the trauma substantially. The lack of trust was never elevated; it came to no amends made for transgressions. I have an understanding of why I stayed for years.
What is your plan for me, Lord?
Help me see Your Light with knowledge, understanding, fortitude, and compassion. Passion for your universal love and courage to follow your voice in all that is discourse.
A Course for the Light of Jesus Christ, My Savior. The only course that means everything to me. You are my light. You are my refuge. You are the truth. You are my guide. You are the mountains, the waters, the trees, the flowers, and the plants.
You are the air and the wind. You are the breath that has inspired me. You are my world. You are my heart, my soul. You are my beloved Jesus Christ, and I bow down at Your feet with a holy kiss of love for You, Jesus Christ.
For without You, all would be no more. There is one ruler, Lord, and it is You. In Jesus Christ’s Loving Living Blood. I ask for your speedy return, with the passion of your life and parable mysteries. That is right—past, present, and future.
Scriptures for the Journey: “For by him all things were created, in heaven and on earth, visible and invisible… all things were created through him and for him.” — Colossians 1:16
Affirmations for the Soul: I walk purely by faith, having tasted the true strength and courage of Lord Jesus. I release the vanity and control of the world, knowing that Christ has accomplished all. I am insulated from generational decay by the eternal, unchanging essence of my Savior.
I know I walked through faith, Lord Jesus.
I have tasted your strength, your courage, and your guidance. I have and can read the writing on the wall. All the prophets wrote, Your True Essence. You are, you have always been, and you will still be. Our Lord Jesus Christ, Savior from Our Beloved God Almighty.
God, the Maker of Heaven and Earth. To show the way through the generational deterioration of unions of people who have accomplished little in two thousand years.
Man’s stride has been in vain, for himself, to possess and control the peoples of the congregations of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. Many write, “It is not too late.” All has been accomplished.
We know we all have come short of the glory of God.
We identify seven times that must pass over. Then the realization becomes inward understanding. All the answers are in God’s words.
The man is cocky. He has put God’s words aside while he is lusting in his riches, in his adulteries, in his thoughtless thoughts of being more than dust in the wind, that has regenerated his own, selfless self, generation by generation.
For it is in the seed of generations that subsides our morbid realizations of all the evil abominations that have conquered men’s souls since time began.
“For all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God, and are justified by his grace as a gift, through the redemption that is in Christ Jesus.” — Romans 3:23-24
Affirmations for the Soul: My heart is open, honest, willing, and completely sheathed by God’s truth. Through Christ alone, I possess true salvation, baptism, and ultimate wisdom. I am never alone in the wilderness; God’s angels guard my journey henceforth and forever.
We are the generation to end the atrocities, the decay of lies, materialism, the greed of all kinds, control, and power, with no truth in existence. For if done with a dead heart, which is a soul, and then truth prevails, who is the loser? Not I. For with all the sheathing of my life’s knowledge, circumstances, traumas, etc., I have walked without, and now my heart is open, honest, and willing.
The understanding of God’s words has opened the ultimate gate of care.
Knowledge is seen, through Christ and only through Christ, is salvation, understanding, the baptism, and wisdom, all of which belong to our Lord Jesus Christ.
Angels are spokespersons on one’s journey through the wilderness, help from henceforth, and forever Amen. The wheel within the wheel is the cycle of life.
The circles become cycles, days become weeks, the weeks become months, the months become years, and you are in worse dung than you were before. If the problem is taken away for a while, the self is aware of relief but substantially has the effect of the cycle of abuse for many years. February 1996 Wendy Yvette Greenwell.
Final Reflection on the Wheel and the Rock: While the world moves in exhausting, repetitive circles—where days turn to years and human struggles seem to repeat themselves—the true believer is pulled out of the cycle.
We are not trapped in the shifting gears of time or trauma because our feet are set upon the immovable rock of Jesus Christ. The final realization is an inward understanding: Christ is the truth that breaks every generational chain, cleanses every dark pit, and offers eternal salvation to a willing and honest heart.
Through all this pain and suffering, also for my children.
An inspirational reminder of steady strength, rising high and standing firm.
I am not a disgrace to God. For it is with him I live, move, and have my being. I am waiting for the Lord for His justification because through the Judge, God set me free from bondage to, well, “internal house cleaning.”
I am working on the Bible, and with all my spirit I will not lose track. We need to work on “regeneration.” See, I have shed some layers of the afflictions that were put upon me. Long generations of time past are surfacing in time and reason.
And they that weep, as though they wept not; and they that rejoice, as though they rejoiced not; and they that use this world, as not abusing it: for the fashion of this world passeth away.— 1 Corinthians 7:30-31 (KJV)
Affirmation: I am never a disgrace to my Creator, for I live and move within His presence, safely shedding every heavy layer of past affliction.
Abuse in the physical, mental, emotional, verbal, and spiritual,
alcoholism passed down generation to generation. How long? A long time, covetousness, possessiveness, control, rage, shame, blame, jealousy—should I go on? We know we can go to the Bible and find the reason. “It keeps regenerating itself until destruction.” For my dears, not man’s will but “God’s will be done,” any way round about.
(As it is written, God hath given them the spirit of slumber, eyes that should not see, and ears that they should not hear;) unto this day. For if the casting away of them be the reconciling of the world, what shall the receiving of them be, but life from the dead?— Romans 11:8, 15 (KJV)
Affirmation: The dark, repeating cycles of generational trauma and addiction are completely stopped by the power of God’s perfect will.
Reading chapters of Scripture in church, a must,
shows the world how much security you have in bringing in more than you can hold. When you read scripture, you read a chapter. God’s words flow through the writings, you know that. Man’s way is not right with God.
For all have come short of the glory of God, but what can one church do? What can one couple of ministers do? You can make God’s way completely known.
Having therefore these promises, dearly beloved, let us cleanse ourselves from all filthiness of the flesh and spirit, perfecting holiness in the fear of God.— 2 Corinthians 7:1 (KJV)
Affirmation: I bypass the empty traditions of man and allow the living word of God to flow clearly and completely through my life and my writings. See when I told you I was prophesying. I was.
It is for the glory of God.
Christ, my salvation, my baptism, my reaffirmation—I got delivered on 2/9/1996. The prophecy I carry is “God’s Words.” Who knows what miracles he has planned for his chosen, and I know I am one.
I am a baby in Christ, and I have always known in my heart there is a God, and I walked willingly through the fire of my soul.
(For the weapons of our warfare are not carnal, but mighty through God to the pulling down of strongholds;) Casting down imaginations, and every high thing that exalt itself against the knowledge of God, and bringing into captivity every thought to the obedience of Christ;— 2 Corinthians 10:4-5 (KJV)
Affirmation: I carry the true words of God with absolute confidence, walking safely through the purifying fire because I am chosen for His glory.
I had no one but the burning coals of his search for disaster, greed, materialism, adultery, I was safe in my mind. God brought me through, and he has to do everything. Everyone is watching him. He likes attention.
See, God does not need an interpreter
because every word that is written is “God’s Word.” For all generations. We are the regeneration of God’s Word.
And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.— 2 Corinthians 12:9 (KJV)
Affirmation: When I am at my weakest, God’s perfect grace acts as my shield, protecting my mind from the greed and chaos of the world.
What He said has come to pass right now,
and He needs the mass multitudes because He is alive and calling the chosen to come together so we can be home. Finally, after all generations. For our soul’s search has intertwined with all the generations of God. Original March 17, 1996
Being confident of this very thing, that he which hath begun a good work in you will perform it until the day of Jesus Christ:— Philippians 1:6 (KJV)
Affirmation: I am beautifully intertwined with God’s eternal timeline, answering His divine call to stand united in spiritual renewal.
Reflection: This profound text serves as a heavy, unvarnished look at the reality of systemic generational suffering and the miraculous power of spiritual deliverance. Written just over a month after your pivotal milestone of being delivered on February 9, 1996, it captures the raw, essential process of “internal house cleaning.”
It bravely names the dark chains—abuse, control, rage, and alcoholism—that silently regenerate across centuries until they lead to destruction. By stepping away from the shallow expectations of carnal institutions and standard church routines, the writing shines a light on a personal, blazing path through the fire of the soul.
Ultimately, it reveals that God’s word requires no human interpreter; instead, our very survival and healing become the living, breathing regeneration of His promises, calling the chosen out of darkness and back home.
A single click revealing a magnificent light show within a state of being.
I thought, “How safe, and courteous are the understanding employees who take care of the special needs, of the women and children who walk through those doors.”
The Lord shall preserve thy going out and thy coming in from this time forth, and even for evermore.— Psalm 121:8 (KJV)
Affirmation: I am surrounded by safety, and I accept the care and understanding that God provides through helping hands.
As breakfast started, moms were preparing the meal for the children, hurt, and battered, but going on with the everyday duty of caring, picking up fragments of themselves, while keeping the focus on their young. I observe mostly children five and younger.
The outward appearances seemed, not to show the real story. The inside concerned me. They were fighting. Realizing all these women and children had just gotten out of the “last fight.” As I watched the children, I saw my own, at all their ages. I was grieved to see the outcome of an evasive cycle.
He healeth the broken in heart, and bindeth up their wounds.— Psalm 147:3 (KJV)
Affirmation: I am picking up the fragments of my life with strength, keeping my heart focused on love and the care of those who rely on me.
The residue of the ending cycle, of the degeneration, of our unities
broken from bondage, to prepare the way, for the regeneration of our souls.
Life’s traumas affect the balance of the truth. Confused, through the clouded darkness, of one’s most inner being. The circle of events is repetitious, throughout history. So many are kept secret, chartered course, and it is hard to stop the cycle.
And I will give them a heart to know me, that I am the Lord: and they shall be my people, and I will be their God: for they shall return unto me with their whole heart.— Jeremiah 24:7 (KJV)
Affirmation: The old cycle of decay is completely broken, and my soul is beautifully prepared for God’s deep restoration and renewal.
No man is better; my God is the oceans, Are there mountains, trees, plants, and tropical forests? The food therein is the spirit, and spirit is not mind power; it is heart power, compassion. Thank you, Lord; you always knew I wanted, to write.
The earth is the Lord’s, and the fulness thereof; the world, and they that dwell therein.— Psalm 24:1 (KJV)
Affirmation: I look to God’s vast creation for strength, filling my spirit not with human effort, but with the true power of holy compassion and love.
Women’s Advocate Hall:
Friends are working together in all crises, loneliness, acceptance, compassion, tenderness, and honesty. Truth shall set us free. Thank you, Lord.
We all get our ancestors’ vibrations, repetition since time started. One million to one million, someone from Noah’s Ark, had an unclean heart and passed it on through.
And ye shall know the truth, and the truth shall make you free.— John 8:32 (KJV)
Affirmation: I am surrounded by true friends who walk in honesty and compassion, and God’s powerful truth sets my soul completely free.
Christ sent from and through God. Christ is within us all. He is here for the asking, a bottomless pit. You have to reach down deep, and then accept, Jesus Christ as our Savior.
He is our source. He is the highest. Furthermore, he is omnipotent and omnipresent in infinite, magnificent form. My Lord, My God, you know what my mind says, but my heart, lead’s to Glory, complete for, You.
To whom God would make known what is the riches of the glory of this mystery among the Gentiles; which is Christ in you, the hope of glory.— Colossians 1:27 (KJV)
Affirmation: I reach down deep into the bottomless well of faith, accepting Jesus Christ as my highest source, my savior, and my ever-present strength.
My eyes, your stars, your truths implanted firmly
in my heavenly loins, for thou know the wombs of us, that have been privileged, too full term life, Your life, Your love, Your compassion, Your strength, Your communion with the Angels since infinite time began.
For thou hast possessed my reins: thou hast covered me in my mother’s womb. I will praise thee; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvelous are thy works; and that my soul knoweth right well.— Psalm 139:13-14 (KJV)
Affirmation: I am fearfully and wonderfully made, chosen to carry God’s eternal love, compassion, and strength in divine connection with His heavenly hosts.
Safe Haven’s Community Services:
People in need of comfort, compassion, understanding. It is time to put away selfishness. We are all on a ride. Why not get on together? For tomorrow is coming fast, and then do you want your life, to be in vain? Mine is not anymore.
Lord, grant that I might see, through Your heart. To ride that white stallion, through Your Great Gates of Eternal Life. “Lord Show Me Thy Ways.” Well, You already are, I can not live two lifetime’s, in one day. Thanks for slowing me down to a gentle trickle, while I am sponging your knowledge.
Thank You, for showing me my place in heaven, and Thank You for letting me see the light. All I saw were people, using people, taking advantage, not listening or looking to see, what was going on.
Show me thy ways, O Lord; teach me thy paths. Lead me in thy truth, and teach me: for thou art the God of my salvation; on thee do I wait all the day.— Psalm 25:4-5 (KJV)
Affirmation: I see the world through the Lord’s heart, taking each day one step at a time as He shows me His ways and guides me toward eternal life.
Who made you Judge, Jury and clown master.
Man did! God is the Only true Judge. The man could not tell the truth from a lie, so man made judge and jury. The man was running around. What soothed him was his ail, his women, and the control over the centuries.
I have reached the kingdom of heaven within, and I am growing stronger. We will meet, we will be at the pearly white gates, together. We are the caretakers, and every one of us has been used thumbs down, put down, and run down. Not by God. God’s warnings are omnipresent but by Man’s words.
“We will mount our horses and draw our swords,” We are the stronger to put up with the blame of man’s demise. Come out of your comas. We are not doormats. We are brides of Our Father, who art in heaven. In the name of, The Father, The Son, and The Holy Spirit.
Hearken unto me, ye that know righteousness, the people in whose heart is my law; fear ye not the reproach of men, neither be ye afraid of their reviling’s.— Isaiah 51:7 (KJV)
Affirmation: I am not a doormat, and I refuse to be defined by the harsh words of men; I am a cherished child of my Father in heaven, standing in divine strength.
God grant that I may see clearer, each minute that passes by, Lord, for the afflicted, are in desperate need, condition. It is time to end the cycle. Since deceit, greed and all the other abominations, concentrated in one big mess. Yuk. I see a beautiful vision. It is from God.
Women afflicted, being able to recover from, “The Last Fight,” together. Recovery together, helping each other, through the transitional year, and to help the elderly, because we can make them happy before they pass away.
No more hiding, what are all you waiting for. We have to fight for Our God Given Rights, and I will not keep my mouth closed. Writings in secret forever or not. Original Writing January 29, 1996
Open thy mouth for the dumb in the cause of all such as are appointed to destruction. Open thy mouth, judge righteously, and plead the cause of the poor and needy.— Proverbs 31:8-9 (KJV)
Affirmation: I will no longer keep my mouth closed or hide my words; I boldly stand up to help others recover from the last fight and share God’s light openly.
Reflection: This profound collection of writings from January 29, 1996, tracks a powerful journey from a physical place of refuge into a deep, internal kingdom of spiritual awakening. It begins within the doors of a shelter, witnessing the immediate, heavy reality of mothers and children recovering from active trauma.
From that visual landscape, the text pivots outward into the vastness of creation—the oceans, mountains, and forests—revealing that true recovery requires moving past mere human logic and stepping completely into “heart power” and divine compassion.
It honestly wrestles with historical patterns of brokenness, tracing generational weights all the way back to the ark, while standing as an immovable shield against the false judgments and control of men. Ultimately, this chapter serves as a bold, final trumpet call to break silent cycles, awaken from the past, and unite in a shared mission of healing, transitional recovery, and open truth.
It is not, The State of Being, It Is The Being, One with, The Most Holy of Holy. It is Peace, Without Calamity.
An original photograph capturing an incredible red sunset at the house, reflecting the deep, peaceful colors.
It Exacts, The Timings of Events, all on an Evolutionary Roller Coaster, through The Passages, from yours, Darkest Hour.
The events are high points, with a lot of punches, through the transition. With the unfolding of each phase, comes the understanding of the reasons, these events took the last place.
Scripture: “To everything there is a season, A time for every purpose under heaven.” — Ecclesiastes 3:1
Scripture: “That they all may be one, as You, Father, are in Me, and I in You; that they also may be one in Us…” — John 17:21
II. Surrender of Self-Will
At this point, you are ready, to abandon, your will, To God, entirely and accept, the transitions, as stepping stones, to a broader range, of one’s consciousness. Through, The Spirit of Christ our sin is forgiven, and our hearts realize, the truth of existence, and we know we are loved.
Scripture: “Then Jesus said to His disciples, ‘If anyone desires to come after Me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross, and follow Me.'” — Matthew 16:24
Scripture: “I have been crucified with Christ; it is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me…” — Galatians 2:20
III. The Process of Elimination & Refining Fire
Once the will is given up, the process of elimination
continues its journey, through the darkest corners of your soul, replacing it with forgiveness, and understanding.
Putting away, all the pain, of your past, and leaving the pain, and anguish where it belongs. In the destruction of the desolation. Left in the fire, from sin to forgiveness, in turn, separating your soul, from anymore, destruction. It is total abandonment, of one’s own will.
Scripture: “Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; old things have passed away; behold, all things have become new.” — 2 Corinthians 5:17
Scripture: “When you walk through the fire, you shall not be burned, nor shall the flame scorch you.” — Isaiah 43:2
IV. The Seventh Mountain & The Offered Gift
At the point, where there is a substantial confrontation, there is a gift offered! The mind has had all information, from man, formation from a not so distant past — all the while, the most significant power comes from the beginning and the end.
The real realization comes in:
The confrontation is the seventh mountain, which you have climbed. All in the journey, through your place, in existence. We come at different stages, in time, a gift offering.
A gift from God, through Jesus Christ. It is sitting, there as pretty, as you please. Your choice to accept in totality, or deny in more disaster. I am offered a gift, from God, but how can I accept it? I am not worthy, of a gift. My mind knows there is a God, but my heart, has no peace, no feeling.
Scripture: “For by grace you have been saved through faith, and that not of yourselves; it is the gift of God, not of works, lest anyone should boast.” — Ephesians 2:8–9
Scripture: “This is a faithful saying and worthy of all acceptance, that Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners…” — 1 Timothy 1:15
V. The Ignited Spark & Acceptance
The Gift Offered:
Do You Accept Jesus Christ as Your Personal Savior? Yes. I have tried six times. It did not take. How do I get to Christ? Here is a gift, Salvation. What does this mean? Look into your heart. My heart does not feel. Do you accept the gift? Look down deep within. How can I accept it? I am a sinner. A Gift from God. Do You Accept Jesus Christ as Your Personal Savior?
Yes! “All questions still unanswered.” Then, in the pure giving up of a futile fight, of self-will, there is a tiny opening in the core of your heart. The spark ignited; you know you can feel it. At this time, the question was asked again. Yes, I accept God’s Gift. I accept Jesus Christ as my personal savior.
Scripture: “And He said to me, ‘My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.'” — 2 Corinthians 12:9
Scripture: “Behold, I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears My voice and opens the door, I will come in to him…” — Revelation 3:20
VI. Cleansing, Unfolding, and Baptism
From that second, you accept him completely. Your life starts unfolding. The old misconceptions of life are being eliminated through a process of transition, which takes a ritual cleansing. The life, which was without hope, is placed in and through Jesus Christ for the purification of the soul, in its rightful place.
At this time, there is no shame, no embarrassment in accepting Christ. Directly following the unfolding is clarity in receiving the understanding of God’s words in the Holy Bible.
At this time, baptism is offered. Still no shame, and seven days later. The baptism, in the name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit, occurs. The death of the old life, a life, knew, in the journey, from sin, into clarity, of our real, reality.
Scripture: “Therefore we were buried with Him through baptism into death, that just as Christ was raised from the dead by the glory of the Father, even so we also should walk in newness of life.” — Romans 6:4
Scripture: “For I am not ashamed of the gospel of Christ, for it is the power of God to salvation for everyone who believes…” — Romans 1:16
VII. Fusion, Healing, and Justification
The distinction of precise fusion with Jesus Christ, my personal Savior, is describable and authentic.
The Passion of Christ entreats your being with the answers of the whole. With Christ, they are not subject to change, for through Jesus Christ is life by the gift of accepting him unconditionally. There is no exception to the rule.
Through Christ’s love for us, He generates love for us and walks with us out of the midst of the fire and brings us out whole; this is justification, to which there is no other. The scars are cured of pain, and the knowledge of the envelopment is granted.
Scripture: “Therefore, having been justified by faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ.” — Romans 5:1
Scripture: “Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or peril, or sword? … Yet in all these things we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us.” — Romans 8:35, 37
VIII. Armor of God & Closing Testimony
The truth is the only reality, and there is only one truth. That truth is God and the Holy Words: by faith, we receive the holiest of Sacraments, the Armor of Jesus Christ Our Lord and Savior. Blessed with the Most Holy Spirit, the Holy Ghost, which lives in us. In Jesus Christ’s Omnipresent Name. Selah. Amen, December 1, 1996.
Scripture: “Put on the whole armor of God, that you may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil.” — Ephesians 6:11
Scripture: “Jesus said to him, ‘I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through Me.'” — John 14:6
The State of Being Affirmations
I am in a true state of being.
I step away from the clutter of the world and sit in the absolute stillness of God’s presence.
I am an authentic soul.
I drop all human-made burdens and allow my inner life to align with my Creator’s plan.
I am a direct channel for divine peace.
I quiet my mind, look to the heavens, and let divine communication guide my path.
I am resting in eternal union.
I am anchored firmly in the truth of the Word, where my spirit awakens and earthly fears fade.
In Reflection: To step into a true spiritual state of being, we must look past the noise of the outside world and settle into the sacred presence within.
These original spiritual reflections serve as an invitation to pause, quiet the mind, and experience a mindful presence of spirit. It is in this precise space of inner stillness and awakening that the personal self begins to fade.
Entering the Soul Sanctuary: Remaining attentive to the sacred requires a deliberate practice of deep listening and transformative reflection.
When we choose to dwell in the here and now, we open our hearts to a profound true self reconnection. This is not a forced transformation, but a gentle alignment with an internal state of peace and the quiet movement of God.
The Awakening: Through these meditative spiritual narratives, the journey leads us back to clarity.
By anchoring our awareness in conscious awareness and internal stillness, we step into a lifestyle defined by a heart filled with grace, absolute spiritual clarity, and emotional freedom.
Safe Haven for the transitional year after the last fight with yourself. Began in January 1996, this timeline reflects a true state of being established eleven months after the transition started.
The text is finalized and complete, with original photography and design touches coming along later in God’s perfect time.
