Ever Loving Presence: Discover eternal healing and truth through the quiet presence of spirit.
Ever Loving Presence
Navigating the open roads of life with a steady perspective and an unhindered path forward.
Ever Loving Presence: God has an ever-loving presence in Spirit, in everyone who ever was, is, and ever will be.
One, “In Presence of Spirit,”
Entwined in the Ever Presence of God’s Majesty.
All in All.
All is One in Spirit.
Open up to the Christ Spirit within us.
Bring inner healing to a oneness of truth for all!
It is attainable.
In Spirit, it is done. November 4, 2020, WYG.
Ever Loving Presence
One God and Father of all, who is above all, and through all, and in you all. Ephesians 4:6
That they all may be one; as thou, Father, art in me, and I in thee, that they also may be one in us: that the world may believe that thou hast sent me. John 17:21
Ever Loving Presence
I open my heart fully to the Christ Spirit within, resting completely in the oneness of truth.
I am beautifully entwined in the ever loving presence of God’s majesty, where my inner healing is already done.
Ever Loving Presence
The realization of an ever loving presence breaks through the heavy constraints of time and physical limitation.
We often view our spiritual journey through a fragmented lens, separating the past from the present, yet the reality of the spirit is entirely continuous.
In the quiet chambers of the soul, there is an unhindered recognition that everyone who ever existed is bound together within the same sovereign design.
True restoration is not an earthly outcome we must frantically strive to manufacture; it is a permanent state of grace that has already been established in eternity.
When the mind stops seeking external validation and rests in absolute stillness, the narrow gate of understanding swings wide open.
The inner house is instantly cleared of historical burdens, leaving a pure sanctuary where the light of Christ can shine unhindered.
This profound transformation brings a settled assurance that inner healing is completely attainable for every heart that surrenders to the truth.
By anchoring our awareness in this infinite union, we find a steady, everlasting comfort that guards our days and leaves an enduring witness of peace for generations to come.
Finding beauty and a steady sense of hope along the towering structures of the journey.
Oh Lord, God Almighty, We need a multitude of blessings for humanity, to open up, and let the Son of God in. Holy Father, I pray to you, and the Son, and the Holy Spirit. To activate World Reunion. Free the world from their bondage.
I do not know what to do. I am worried, and time has skipped by, and I feel drained of energy. Rain down energy on humanity, and myself. Bring the light of love back into the hearts, and souls of mankind.
Bring down your presence in spirit, to all humanity. Release the fear, the worries, and the anxieties, and give them to the Lord. Bring forth your almighty power, and rain down heavenly manna of blessings on all humanity. Bring love to a oneness of truth. Open your hearts to understanding.
Writings from the heart. Each one of my entries into, “In Presence of Spirit,” “In Presence of Spirit in Conversations with the Lord,” to “Reflections of In Presence of Spirit,” and briefly, “I Am In Presence of Spirit in Conversations with the Lord.” To: “You are, and I am In Presence of Spirit in Conversations with the Lord.” All gathered on inpresenceofspirit.com and now inpresenceofspirit.org.
What are you going to do, with your conversations with the Lord? Higher self, the dimensional self, that I cannot see yet. Open my perception again, widen the narrow gate for another opening of in presence of spirit, in me.
Guide me into the depths of the understanding that I captured in writing. Bring forth the help from One Source, God Almighty, In Presence, In Spirit, In the I am, that I am, and forward my faith to the now of this present moment.
Bring love, guidance, patience, courage, knowledge, and understanding, to a oneness in truth for humanity to heal itself through the love of God the Father, God the Son, and God the Holy Spirit. God bless our space in time, now and forever.
World Reunion
And he shall send Jesus Christ, which before was preached unto you: Whom the heaven must receive until the times of restitution of all things, which God hath spoken by the mouth of all his holy prophets since the world began. Acts 3:20-21
Lead me in thy truth, and teach me: for thou art the God of my salvation; on thee do I wait all the day. Psalm 25:5
World Reunion
I release the global worries of mankind and step boldly into the light of divine truth and everlasting energy.
My perception is fully opened to the ever-presence of spirit, moving my faith directly into the beauty of the present moment.
World Reunion
When time feels as though it is slipping through our fingers and leaving us utterly drained of physical strength, it is a spiritual indicator that we are trying to process the vast weight of the world through a limited, earthbound lens.
True rejuvenation begins when we deliberately step back from immediate earthly anxieties and allow the heavenly manna of grace to rain down upon our souls.
The narrow gate of understanding is widened not by human striving, but by expanding our spiritual perception to recognize that we are fundamentally anchored in One Source.
A sacred gathering of text serves as an enduring road map for the soul’s journey. When we forward our faith entirely into the absolute stillness of the here and now, the heavy illusion of worldly bondage drops away.
This profound inner alignment fosters a beautiful oneness in truth that reaches out across borders to touch the wider collective space.
Resting securely within this divine sanctuary allows us to walk patiently, safely guided by an eternal presence that naturally heals, completely clears the mind, and protects our space in time forever.
Finding beauty and steady hope along the journey, anchored by a quiet light in the night sky.
Understanding the Depth of the Spirit Free From Obstruction
When these words were being written, they flowed word for word directly out of my inner being as an experience of complete amazement. I have been sharing since the day I began writing, reading and editing through hundreds of entries across memory lane to ensure this does not remain unfinished work.
I need to open up and let this be completely free—free from any earthly obstruction—so anyone who visits can give themselves a chance to understand the depth of the Spirit.
My personal conversations with the Lord are a gift to those who read, establishing the eternal truth that you are, and I am, In Presence of Spirit.
“The Lord is not slack concerning his promise, as some men count slackness; but is long suffering to us-ward, not willing that any should perish, but that all should come to repentance.” — 2 Peter 3:9
“And the Lord answered me, and said, Write the vision, and make it plain upon tables, that he may run that readeth it. For the vision is yet for an appointed time, but at the end it shall speak, and not lie: though it tarry, wait for it; because it will surely come, it will not tarry.” — Habakkuk 2:2-3
“For where two or three are gathered together in my name, there am I in the midst of them.” — Matthew 18:20
I release my handwritten manuscript completely free from every earthly obstruction, allowing my calling to be fully realized in eternity.
The words given to me flow word for word in a perfect sequence of truth, remaining completely unhindered by worldly delays.
I stand firmly committed to completing my writing mission, leaving a permanent sanctuary of restoration for generations to come.
I rest in perfect stillness within the inner chamber, fully assured that the presence of the Spirit encircles my work.
Originally recorded on December 25, 2022, this chronicle documents a profound operational threshold where a multi-decade archive of personal dialogues transitions into a broader strategic mission.
When navigating seasons of intense editing and carrying the physical weariness of reviewing hundreds of pages, focusing entirely on the structural preservation of the text keeps your vision perfectly clear.
True clarity overflows when we let go of the pressure to force recognition or engage with social channels, choosing instead to let the work stand independently as an open sanctuary.
Ensuring that these sacred conversations are independent from worldly obstructions locks your platform into a beautiful, lasting witness of divine restoration.
A quiet reflection of steady hope hidden within the evening sky.
A Change of State of Being: Moving Powerfully in God’s Hands
Replace it with the Positive: I place this negativity; I have been forced back into my being in Jesus Christ’s hands. I am going through a change of state of being. Understandable, to attain a reputable stature for the testimony of Jesus Christ. I will be scorned; I already have been, but more significantly, to help people that are fighting for the same answers to the repeated questions throughout our being.
Answers will be attained through total immersion and the testimony of Jesus Christ in all the “omnipresent works.”
Lord, help me in all my decisions. I need you to take my hand. I cannot control my destiny, so I am placing it in Your Hands.
In Your time, I place this negative, which I have forced back in my being, and replace it with the positive so that the achievements can be in progression, not degeneration, all over again.
Lord, no other word (I omitted) is left to describe the crap endured. To find a solution for my existence. It was not yucky, because it is your life, your hope, your guidance, your endurance, your courage, and your everlasting life to fulfill the designated time. July 13, 1997.
“Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new.” — 2 Corinthians 5:17
“Being confident of this very thing, that he which hath begun a good work in you will perform it until the day of Jesus Christ:” — Philippians 1:6
“Cast thy burden upon the Lord, and he shall sustain thee: he shall never suffer the righteous to be moved.” — Psalm 55:22
I completely surrender every heavy weight of the past into the hands of Jesus Christ, stepping fully into a positive progression.
My change of state of being is entirely protected by the Lord, preparing me to stand firm and share a reputable testimony.
I quiet the desire to control my own destiny, trusting perfectly that the Father is leading my hand every step of the way.
Every old cycle of degeneration is broken forever, replaced by the pure light, courage, and everlasting life of Christ.
This extraordinarily raw and electric chronicle stands as a definitive historical marker within your notebook archives, documenting the precise coordinate where a solitary heart rejects the repetitious cycles of worldly chaos and forces a tactical transition into divine alignment.
Moving through intense situational isolation and carrying the heavy baseline weight of old trials can compress the outer self, leaving the mind to wrestle with heavy questions.
True clarity breaks through the exact moment you quiet the human desire to force control over earthly outcomes, choosing instead to place your entire destiny and timeline directly into the hands of Jesus Christ.
By capturing this fierce transfiguration freehand in your keepsakes, the multi-decade journey of devotion shifts away from the edge of destruction and becomes a permanent sanctuary of restoration.
Standing firm in this reputable testimony ensures that what was once endured in silent preparation turns into a glorious, witness, elegantly proving to your grandchildren and a weary world that progression in Christ is a tangible reality.
Finding steady hope and quiet endurance where the flowing waters meet the timeless strength of the mountains.
The Holy Trinity and I were having direct communication, in spirit, with the Lord. So, every time I wrote “God,” “Lord,” “Jesus Christ,” “Jesus,” or “Holy Spirit,” I was in spirit with all of them.
The One Source of Existence. The I Am, of Eternity’s Souls. I am not a religion. I am, or was, spiritual. Pretty harsh. It is, always, the Holy Spirit, the Energy, the Cosmos, the All in All, Infinite, All for One, and One for All. United in the heavens and everywhere else. Especially here on this Earth.
Wake up! I am telling myself. I have been dormant since the lung biopsy. Please know, I am not the only one who needs a little or a lot of time in In Presence of Spirit.
I did it all for me, to share it with you one day. Virtually I was sharing, “In Spirit” to the World. It is all over the writings.
There are messages through inpresenceofspirit.com. and more here on inpresenceofspirit.org. Wendy’s Conversations with the Lord.
It is what it is, “A gift to you, and yours, and from you, and yours, to put an end to the pain, and peace to our souls.” me
Twenty-eight years since I started writing. I lost the spark of light, the Holy Spirit, ignited in my heart. No year was easy, especially since November 9, 2019, when my son passed away. March 16, 2024.
Holy Scripture
“So shall my word be that goeth forth out of my mouth: it shall not return unto me void, but it shall accomplish that which I please, and it shall prosper in the thing whereto I sent it.”
— Isaiah 55:11
“Hear, O Israel: The Lord our God is one Lord: And thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thine heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy might.”
— Deuteronomy 6:4-5
“That they all may be one; as thou, Father, art in me, and I in thee, that they also may be one in us: that the world may believe that thou hast sent me.”
— John 17:21
“For I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come… Shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.”
— Romans 8:38-39
Spiritual Affirmations
I boldly awaken from every season of dormancy, stepping cleanly forward into direct, vibrant communication with the Holy Trinity.
I completely drop the heavy weight of historical grief, allowing the active energy of the Holy Spirit to reignite the spark of light in my heart.
I stand fully secure in my true state of spiritual awareness, completely delivered from outward confusion and daily fatigue.
The bonds of eternal love remain permanently unbroken, anchoring my soul and my lineage in perfect, everlasting peace.
Reflection
This extraordinarily sacred chronicle stands as a definitive historical milestone within your notebook archives, documenting the exact threshold where deeply private, conversational keepsakes transition into a global ministry of comfort.
When navigating intense situational isolation and carrying the heavy, baseline weight of losing a beloved child, immersion in the Word acts as an unyielding protective wall for the mind’s eye.
Physical rest after trials opens the inner chamber to divine wisdom, while quieted control allows the soul to embrace eternal protection.
Publishing these dialogues transforms private reflections into a sanctuary of restoration.
Finding steady hope and quiet endurance where the wide open fields meet the timeless strength of the mountains.
Go for it. Do it! You have nothing to lose and everything to gain, not just for me but for you too. My passion in writing?
I have something to share with the whole World, not just a piece of the world. Yes, my writings have been seen and read in over one hundred countries. “I have been Publishing for fourteen years. I was hiding so to speak. The writings were not activated properly because I refused to do it.”
I am not happy with .com, it is on managed word-press, and I can not edit, because it is messed up and I am embarrassed about the mistakes they made and they will not fix it.
So I took the store off and donations, and brought my book over here to share it with the World. With out putting a donate button on here. Because I really do not like asking for money.
This is my gift from the Lord, to the World because, Y’all need some time, “In Presence of Spirit” with the Lord and I and all the Congregations of Eternities Souls in Spirit Presence.
Time to open up and let the Son shine in. What do you want from me Everything I prayed for, in spirit, with the Holy Spirit.
My writings prove this to be true. What are you waiting for? Go for it, do it; it is as ripe as it will ever be. It will benefit mankind with a giant touch of Spirit.
Where do we go from here? Up and away to the dawning of a new day, a new perspective on the whole panoramic view of our whole existence.
It is the time to put on the entire armor of God. And unite the kingdom of heaven within our eternal beings. Light up the cosmos with the love that it has given us.
Take the time to complete your mission, before, you can’t. Six tumors, nodules, in my lungs, ha! There was, and then they were not there anymore. Accept one. So, I have to get this show on the road. For my grandchildren and the world.
Holy Scripture
Awake thou that sleepest, and arise from the dead, and Christ shall give thee light.” — Ephesians 5:14
“For God, who commanded the light to shine out of darkness, hath shined in our hearts, to give the light of the knowledge of the glory of God in the face of Jesus Christ.”
— 2 Corinthians 4:6
Thy word is a lamp unto my feet, and a light unto my path.” — Psalm 119:105
“The Lord is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? the Lord is the strength of my life; of whom shall I be afraid?” — Psalm 27:1
Spiritual Affirmations
I actively turn away from the deceptive, costly distortions of the world, standing entirely independent in the clarity of truth.
I allow the sovereign light of Christ to break through every cloud, flooding my soul with pure knowledge and unyielding comfort.
I remain firmly committed to completing my global mission without delay, fully sheathed in the protective armor of God.
Reflection
This electric, uncompromising chronicle serves as a profound historical threshold within your notebook archives, documenting the exact coordinate where a hidden collection of keepsakes turns into an active global deployment.
When navigating a season of intense transition and stripping away costly external formatting blocks, the concentrated focus of the message carries a massive spiritual weight.
It forces the reader to step clean away from worldly distractions and sit in absolute stillness within the essential foundations of scriptural holiness, recognizing that your true witness cannot be limited by human mistakes.
True clarity overflows the very moment we choose to freely share our sacred conversations with the world without putting a donate button or looking outside for recognition.
Standing firm against physical trials and carrying the miraculous victory of dissolved nodules unbinds the inner soul from earthly fear.
By anchoring this fierce proclamation right on the front lines of your platform, what was once built in solitary preparation becomes a permanent trumpet blast, elegantly proving that divine restoration is an absolute reality for your grandchildren and generations to come.
By anchoring this bold, uncompromising chronicle directly within your showcase, your entire platform remains beautifully consistent, proving that every piece of your 38-year journey holds a sovereign place in the kingdom.
A spectacular desert horizon where the sunset quietly breaks through the shadows.
To start walking into the light, we need to put away old things. This means we are one with God and behold all things become new, “In Christ Jesus.”
Everyone needs to stop looking outside themselves, for the answers. The answers lie with no end. Inside your hearts and guess what, our hearts will overflow, with a burst of Fourth of July lights. It hurts like hell, but the end will be justified, and then all will be free in Christ Jesus, in an infinite World with no end.
Who are we to judge each other? You have been faithful to your wife, too long, it is time for a change. Pain while being abused. Verbally, emotionally, physically at times, spiritually, mentally.
Holy Scripture
“Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new.”
— 2 Corinthians 5:17
They induce fear. They vomit their unworthiness on us and force us to wallow in their misery. Thinking it is our own. When in fact it is not. We lose ourselves completely. Everything is for, for, for, no help, demands, or criticism. We take it upon ourselves to the point, past exhaustion.
We are instinctual beings. To see beyond the veil has led us through hell and back unsheathed. Thank You, Lord. Everyone has his purpose. Man is not willing to give up his reign. He thinks he is above God. My God is more. February 12, 1996. 9 days before my divorce
Holy Scripture
“The people that walked in darkness have seen a great light: they that dwell in the land of the shadow of death, upon them hath the light shined.”
— Isaiah 9:2
Spiritual Affirmations
I actively put away old things and step cleanly forward into walking into the light of absolute salvation.
I completely shake off the false weight of another unworthiness, standing tall in my unique truth of existence.
My heart overflows with a brilliant, divine burst of light, shattering every lingering shadow of fear or exhaustion.
I look beyond the earthly veil with clear, instinctual vision, fully anchored in the truth that my God is more.
Reflection
This raw, intensely triumphant text stands as a definitive historical and spiritual marker, captured exactly nine days before stepping into the final freedom of divorce court.
When trapped within suffocating environments of verbal, emotional, and mental abuse, the outer self can easily become completely compressed under constant criticism and endless demands.
True clarity only breaks through when we stop looking outside for answers and allow the Holy Spirit to spark a brilliant, celebratory transfiguration directly within the inner house.
Refusing to wallow in an abuser’s projected misery allows a survivor to break the silent generational cycles and reclaim total emotional autonomy.
Walking through that living hell with an unsheathed, instinctual awareness serves as the ultimate stepping stone, proving that old things can be completely cast aside to make all things new in Christ.
By choosing to independently publish these transparent accounts, a dedicated sanctuary of reflection is established, beautifully reminding a hurting world that God’s reign remains permanently unshakable.
Finding a quiet, steady peace in the stillness of the wilderness.
I am back in the Bible. I have been reading, writing vocabulary, and writing scriptures. I cannot sing right now. I am not going to give up on getting a job.
You know I needed to be with my twin. For many years I was hurt; she was not with me back in the day; she hid out, so to speak. Anyway, I have overcome a lot of things from the past. Boy, my twin and I are twins. I feel safe with her; I wait for her and miss her. God did bless me with a twin. Growing up we always had each other, period. So I was never a people person.
When you are a kid, time is so slow, It feels, then, like fifteen years have gone by. Nineteen years she has lived in San Antonio and I in the Valley. I have been here since February 10, 1996, my thirty-sixth birthday. I have been gone since December 29, 1995. I left. I had to for the kids; they refused to go to the shelter with me. I had no other choice.
This scripture is why I know it was and is right that I left. Malachi 4:6 “And he shall turn the heart of the fathers to the children, and the heart of the children to their fathers, lest I come and smite the earth with a curse.”
Holy Scripture
“And he shall turn the heart of the fathers to the children, and the heart of the children to their fathers, lest I come and smite the earth with a curse.”
— Malachi 4:6
It is easy reading when you have an understanding.
As it is written, “as it is unto this day,” in many of the verses in the Bible. Writings pertain to the past, the present, and the future.
The fascinating, powerful scriptures are Romans: The whole epistle. That is the one that should be read through in church. The Gift is there in totality. If everyone read the Romans, they would have more understanding. Everything pertains, and we all have to find the Christ within.
I like reading the Bible, and when I come to the word supplications, I entreat earnestly to address it in prayer. Daniel 9:23 “At the beginning of thy supplications the commandment came forth, and I come to show thee, for thou art greatly beloved; therefore understand the matter, and consider the vision.”
This is fun for me. The thesaurus of these words is incredible; so many words mean the same thing, all meaning in one word from God.
I do freak out sometimes when we are on the expressway; there are so many people, and how many are searching? How many are afflicted by abuse? How many? I try to see my part of society, and I withdraw. I lost fifteen years, and I am judged. I have some obstacles to jump over, but at least I am going forward. I am getting stronger, further from the past.
I have no idea what tomorrow is going to bring. I do not know where I stand with my pre-teens. It has been a month since I have seen them. I have no plans to go down there; even if I wanted to, it would be on someone else’s wallet, and car time, so when I can do it myself and when I am ready, I will go. I might be being stingy; I am still affected by my loss, and I need more time.
I have accepted all of it because it was my choice to leave; it is just a shame that I fell and lies prevailed. It is a shame. It is like I am dead. What is there to be here for? I am destined not to die to until He is ready to take me. I am probably depressing you. Sorry.
I am working on working. I will overcome this sooner or later and will see what time brings. I hope something good happens. This is the pits. May 14, 1996.
Now why would I publish my writings like this? My conversations with my guardian angel. This one is a letter to her. It belongs with all the rest, no matter how uncomfortable I am at times. Wendy
Holy Scripture
“At the beginning of thy supplications the commandment came forth, and I come to show thee, for thou art greatly beloved; therefore understand the matter, and consider the vision.”
— Daniel 9:23
Spiritual Affirmations
I immerse my mind completely back in the Bible, anchoring my thoughts in the limitless vocabulary of truth.
I release every heavy shadow of the past, standing strong and secure in the family lines God has blessed.
Though lies temporarily prevailed, I step confidently forward into the uncompromising scriptural alignment.
I entreat the Lord earnestly through diligent supplication, completely assured that I am greatly beloved.
Reflection
This raw, profoundly honest entry documents a major historical crossroads, capturing the heavy emotional toll of making a sudden, emergency choice to protect the lineage from systemic trauma.
When a survivor is forced to walk completely away from a muddled and abusive environment with nothing left, the initial isolation can feel like an absolute baseline weight.
True clarity only begins to re-emerge when the focus is turned entirely back into the Bible, allowing the vast, omnipresent vocabulary of scripture to flood the mind’s eye.
Reclaiming internal safety alongside a twin sibling served as a critical stronghold during a season when lies and public judgment threatened to stall your progress entirely.
Finding the Christ within through deep epistles like Romans provides the ultimate spiritual footing to jump over those lingering obstacles one day at a time.
By choosing to independently publish these transparent communications with a guardian angel, the old seasons of exhaustion are sheathed, elegantly proving that you are moving forward on a rock-solid, divine foundation.
Watching a quiet light push through the heavy shadows of a new horizon.
I glimpsed you being happy about the future. And what will unfold? I felt You in me, above me, round about me. Thank You, Lord, I will be sending the writings. I guess I have wasted time. I lost sight in ways because I was not entwined.
These writings are of subsequent value they are the presence of You, and it is Your time for me to share them with my Guardian Angel that You gave me in the here and now. Thank You In Jesus Blood of Blessings. November 22, 1996
Holy Scripture
“For the testimony of Jesus is the Spirit of Prophecy. I am thy fellow servant, and of thy brethren who have the testimony of Jesus: Worship God.”
— Revelation 19:10
Feel the Passion
Can you feel the passion of Christ? While you are reading? In the writings, they are from my heart. I did not copy any of it. I would sit and write; until it was satisfied, you know the urge. Furthermore, I guess this helped push me, to make the decisions I did. More independence, lots of growth, making it, work, car, work, one day at a time.
Air Waves
The airwaves are calling out. We have to take God’s stand, for Jesus. We owe our souls, our light, our peace, and our life. Only through the Lord can we breathe in life, without the guilt and heavy baggage, I carried anyway. November 25, 1996
Holy Scripture
“What I tell you in darkness, that speak ye in light: and what ye hear in the ear, that preach ye upon the housetops.”
— Matthew 10:27
Spiritual Affirmations
I completely cast aside all thoughts of wasted time and step boldly into the happy future God has prepared.
The authentic passion of Christ fills my heart, giving me the strength to build an independent, purposeful life.
I drop every ounce of heavy baggage and historical guilt, breathing completely in the light of absolute salvation.
I take an uncompromising stand for Jesus, sending my foundational witness out across the digital airwaves.
Reflection
This triumphant entry documents a major structural turning point, marking the moment personal writing transitions into an active, prophetic testimony.
Glimpsing a happy future clears away the false, limiting belief that past years spent in deep study were somehow wasted or out of alignment.
True connection is established when the soul realizes it is completely enveloped by the divine, clearing out historical obstruction to let your standalone manuscript come forward in its designated hour.
The creative urge to sit and record these authentic inner conversations acted as a vital catalyst, pushing you to secure real-world independence, work, and personal stability one step at a time.
Taking an uncompromising stand for Jesus across the global airwaves allows the heavy baggage of past trauma to be permanently shed and replaced with everlasting life.
By anchoring this release in the absolute testimony of Jesus, the act of independent publication becomes a permanent, sacred milestone that bridges earth and heaven.
A quiet road trip heading toward the mountains on a vast, open day.
I have been reading a lot an understanding the knowledge of the Word of God. It is utmost in my life now. It seems when I let go of my devotionals, and I take control. I deeply recede into this fountain of slushy muck. I start reading and writing a lot of vocabulary in the Bible.
When I think of my children, I remember how everything was broken, and I could not put any pieces together. So then I place them in the trust of God, and the ex’s quest to be other than a deadbeat dad, as he so always said, lasts three or four years.
All the things he was not to the children he has to be now, and sometimes I think he is not going to be able to do it. He realizes all the responsibility for it, not just financial. I hope he is strong enough.
See, I do not wish harm on him; he is not that strong. Children needed the dad they never had. I hope he is that man and dad he wanted to be. You know there is a negative side to this. I hope he is being all he can be, importantly not letting our children down. Because Mom doesn’t have anything. I am handling it.
It is quite late. I am glad I got to talk to you. Thank you for your insight, and inspiration. You have blessed me with a real understanding that I have needed desperately for years. My growth is not limited, and is exceeding in the right progression, for what I have been through.
I wish not to leave my children out of this, but I can only do something for me for their benefit tomorrow. I am building a tower of precious jewels, positive thinking, etc.
All resources are being tapped into. I believe the spirit is working, preparing the way for me to help benefit others, use my knowledge, etc., to help people in my condition, “World Condition.” June 3, 1996
Over Again
If I had it all to do over again. I would have listened to my Lord because I heard him. I was part of a circle that needed to come to an end of the cycle. Thank you, Lord. June 7, 1996
God is the foundation that gives us life. Man is dominant only in his stupidity; alcohol destroys families. “Write God’s words to begin to end, what exactly He and only He says, from the Holy Spirit through Christ Our Lord, Amen.” “But know I got caught up in the moment,” “make them look.” June 8, 1996
Holy Scripture
“To open their eyes, and to turn them from darkness to light, and from the power of Satan unto God, that they may receive forgiveness of sins, and inheritance among them which are sanctified by faith that is in me.” — Acts 26:18
Reading and writing, knowledge is limitless. The Bible is past, present, and future. Omnipresent since its writings. The heart searches for its home all its born day. The heart is the home of the highest. The soul, choose to live, and you will have everlasting life. Through Jesus Christ our Lord.
Six mountains to climb; the seventh you rest with and through Jesus Christ. While the sheathing of the old ways, memories with pain, the sins you have in yourself, and those that have affected your life adversely. The new seeds are planted through the regeneration of the truth we all have, inside us. June 10, 1996
I have ups and downs. I know we all do. I know all my diligent study in the Bible is helping my future. The regeneration is regenerating itself through the energy that is Jesus Christ Holy Spirit. I can see it around me. June 13, 1996
Solitary: I have not been sleeping, restless, lonely probably, no dwelling of my own, no escape, no fantasy, dealing with reality. I am using my time wisely, not being idle in mind. I needed a lot of knowledge to get through this spiritual awakening solitary. Me and the Spirit of Our Heavenly Father.
I have not wasted these last six months at all. Painful, but I have an inside understanding of the degeneration that has haunted man in our sphere of time and reason. It took giving up sole possession of everything, even my stuff, and being left with nothing. Two months later I got my maiden name back.
I fought through hell to come back to some forgiveness of myself, reasons, situations, and circumstances. I have to get out in public, but all my time, in the research of God’s word, I have run across quicksand. No one believes you except my guardian angel. Quick to judge, sure to condemn.
Whose condemnation is it? Not mine; your time will come. My time was just sooner. Believe what you may, all the words written in the Bible are yesterday; today, is tomorrow.
Past, present, and future: God’s gift is the present. Sheathe the past through Jesus Christ Holy Spirit and look forward to the future. For it is only through Jesus Christ that we can be forgiven; He is the opening of our souls.
Then the baptism—the death of sin, rebirth through and with Jesus Christ, the redemption of our sins—the cleansing sometimes continues; you do not think you can take another development, and a bigger one comes around. June 14, 1996
Perceive
Now, I can perceive. Before, when I was in the muck of destruction, I could not think. Now I have an unlimited span in my mind’s eye. There it stands firm in my being. June 16, 1996,
Confused: I am confused about my spiritual awareness; the knowledge is there, it is all in my writings, my keepsakes, which are essential to me. I know the meaning of truth. I can write it, but I can not speak it.
In the past five and a half months, I have been reading God’s Words, studying daily for hours. I have written prayers, letters, and vocabulary, and set a definite consciousness of the presence of God, which I felt I could not reach. All the things that need to be done will be done in perfect order in perfect time. June 17, 1996.
Holy Scripture
“Enter in the strait gate; for wide is the gate and broad is the way, that leadeth to destruction, and many there be which go in thereat: Because strait is the gate, and narrow is the way, which leadeth unto life, and few there be that find it.” — Matthew 7:13-14
Spiritual Affirmations
I consciously release my grip on self-control and anchor my day entirely in the steady direction of scripture.
The old cycles and painful memories are peeling away cleanly, creating a wide and unlimited space in my mind’s eye.
I confidently place my family into the hands of the Lord, knowing that His protective timing is completely flawless.
Though the processing is slow and intense, my soul steadily regenerates through the active energy of the Holy Spirit.
Reflection
This raw narrative documents the extreme visual and spiritual transition from a suffocating environment into clear, boundless perception.
When trying to manually steer a fractured life through sheer willpower, it is easy to slip backward into what feels like a cold fountain of slushy muck.
True clarity only breaks through when the self-reliance is quieted, allowing the limitless vocabulary of the Bible to flood the mind and build a solid tower out of precious spiritual jewels.
Solitude and stripping away every physical possession became the quiet crucible where forgiveness and real boundary lines were forged.
Climbing those distinct symbolic mountains demands a painful sheathing of old family wounds, generational alcohol patterns, and the constant ridicule of an unseeing world.
By standing firm in the inner chamber and processing the hurt one day at a time, the confusion resolves into a permanent witness posture, beautifully prepared to benefit others walking through similar global conditions.
