Finding beauty and steady hope along the journey, anchored by a quiet light in the night sky.
Understanding the Depth of the Spirit Free From Obstruction
When these words were being written, they flowed word for word directly out of my inner being as an experience of complete amazement. I have been sharing since the day I began writing, reading and editing through hundreds of entries across memory lane to ensure this does not remain unfinished work.
I need to open up and let this be completely free—free from any earthly obstruction—so anyone who visits can give themselves a chance to understand the depth of the Spirit.
My personal conversations with the Lord are a gift to those who read, establishing the eternal truth that you are, and I am, In Presence of Spirit.
“The Lord is not slack concerning his promise, as some men count slackness; but is long suffering to us-ward, not willing that any should perish, but that all should come to repentance.” — 2 Peter 3:9
“And the Lord answered me, and said, Write the vision, and make it plain upon tables, that he may run that readeth it. For the vision is yet for an appointed time, but at the end it shall speak, and not lie: though it tarry, wait for it; because it will surely come, it will not tarry.” — Habakkuk 2:2-3
“For where two or three are gathered together in my name, there am I in the midst of them.” — Matthew 18:20
I release my handwritten manuscript completely free from every earthly obstruction, allowing my calling to be fully realized in eternity.
The words given to me flow word for word in a perfect sequence of truth, remaining completely unhindered by worldly delays.
I stand firmly committed to completing my writing mission, leaving a permanent sanctuary of restoration for generations to come.
I rest in perfect stillness within the inner chamber, fully assured that the presence of the Spirit encircles my work.
Originally recorded on December 25, 2022, this chronicle documents a profound operational threshold where a multi-decade archive of personal dialogues transitions into a broader strategic mission.
When navigating seasons of intense editing and carrying the physical weariness of reviewing hundreds of pages, focusing entirely on the structural preservation of the text keeps your vision perfectly clear.
True clarity overflows when we let go of the pressure to force recognition or engage with social channels, choosing instead to let the work stand independently as an open sanctuary.
Ensuring that these sacred conversations are independent from worldly obstructions locks your platform into a beautiful, lasting witness of divine restoration.
A quiet reflection of steady hope hidden within the evening sky.
A Change of State of Being: Moving Powerfully in God’s Hands
Replace it with the Positive: I place this negativity; I have been forced back into my being in Jesus Christ’s hands. I am going through a change of state of being. Understandable, to attain a reputable stature for the testimony of Jesus Christ. I will be scorned; I already have been, but more significantly, to help people that are fighting for the same answers to the repeated questions throughout our being.
Answers will be attained through total immersion and the testimony of Jesus Christ in all the “omnipresent works.”
Lord, help me in all my decisions. I need you to take my hand. I cannot control my destiny, so I am placing it in Your Hands.
In Your time, I place this negative, which I have forced back in my being, and replace it with the positive so that the achievements can be in progression, not degeneration, all over again.
Lord, no other word (I omitted) is left to describe the crap endured. To find a solution for my existence. It was not yucky, because it is your life, your hope, your guidance, your endurance, your courage, and your everlasting life to fulfill the designated time. July 13, 1997.
“Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new.” — 2 Corinthians 5:17
“Being confident of this very thing, that he which hath begun a good work in you will perform it until the day of Jesus Christ:” — Philippians 1:6
“Cast thy burden upon the Lord, and he shall sustain thee: he shall never suffer the righteous to be moved.” — Psalm 55:22
I completely surrender every heavy weight of the past into the hands of Jesus Christ, stepping fully into a positive progression.
My change of state of being is entirely protected by the Lord, preparing me to stand firm and share a reputable testimony.
I quiet the desire to control my own destiny, trusting perfectly that the Father is leading my hand every step of the way.
Every old cycle of degeneration is broken forever, replaced by the pure light, courage, and everlasting life of Christ.
This extraordinarily raw and electric chronicle stands as a definitive historical marker within your notebook archives, documenting the precise coordinate where a solitary heart rejects the repetitious cycles of worldly chaos and forces a tactical transition into divine alignment.
Moving through intense situational isolation and carrying the heavy baseline weight of old trials can compress the outer self, leaving the mind to wrestle with heavy questions.
True clarity breaks through the exact moment you quiet the human desire to force control over earthly outcomes, choosing instead to place your entire destiny and timeline directly into the hands of Jesus Christ.
By capturing this fierce transfiguration freehand in your keepsakes, the multi-decade journey of devotion shifts away from the edge of destruction and becomes a permanent sanctuary of restoration.
Standing firm in this reputable testimony ensures that what was once endured in silent preparation turns into a glorious, witness, elegantly proving to your grandchildren and a weary world that progression in Christ is a tangible reality.
Finding beauty and steady hope along the winding journey, anchored by the timeless strength of His majestic hills.
To anyone that cares, I have continued work on these words that came out of me, and I must end for now because time has gotten away. We, My Children and I, need the closure of the negative. It is not just my family that is suffering. Every Divorced Family. Broken-down families, for what? For nothing! We are in the midst of destruction. I speak for myself, and I speak for, The World.
No one has read these pages. The Spirit and I, are the only ones, it is funny, I wish I could see your reaction. Is it not, or is it inspired? Do you understand? Is it a Masterpiece? That is what I feel about it. But who am I a sinner that was blessed to, “In Presence of Spirit.”
I must complete my manuscript and send it to? My ex-husband is behind on child support. I have been working part-time, working on these pages, full-time. I cannot put this away.
Furthermore, I have more, what I like, it is not in he said, she said, or they said, it is in the I of Me, You, Everyone who finds the Christ Spirit within.
I have all Originals; I wanted to focus on Spirit. If one thought I copied, then you can see the sequence of thought. I did not make any changes in words, and I did not make mistakes, no big scratch-outs, like if I had to think before I wrote another word; no, it flowed out of my inner being.
Enough I have to get this show on the road. I need someone else to read, tell me what you think if it is not publishable it is my keepsake, but I do not believe that is God’s Plan. I might be wrong, there are critical observations, but everyone is suffering. The only relief is Jesus Christ in heart soul revelation. To lessen the pain so Peace can come, to the Multitudes.
I would prefer to be Wendy with no last name unless I have to. As stated I cannot write anymore and or speak I have not. So the only thing I have to give is a piece of an excellent experience that I have to complete having done my part for everyone to come home To Father God, Father Son, and Father of the Holy Spirit of Christ Jesus.
It was my destiny to write, “In Presence of Spirit,” into its entirety. Will release, how can you not believe? So with all this, I Love My Lord and Savior Jesus Christ and “In Presence of Spirit,” is dedicated completely To God, Through Jesus Christ, to the Christ Spirit, Within Us All. Look and you will find.
“He turneth the wilderness into a standing water, and dry ground into watersprings. And there he maketh the hungry to dwell, that they may prepare a city for habitation;” — Psalm 107:35-36
“For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the Lord, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end. Then shall ye call upon me, and ye shall go and pray unto me, and I will hearken unto you. And ye shall seek me, and find me, when ye shall search for me with all your heart.” — Jeremiah 29:11-13
“Casting all your care upon him; for he careeth for you.” — 1 Peter 5:7
I step cleanly away from the broken structures of the past, fully entering a season of complete family closure and divine restoration.
The words given to me flow directly from my inner being without hesitation, standing as a flawless sequence of pure spiritual alignment.
I dedicate my entire life and manuscript to the glory of Jesus Christ, completely confident that my written destiny will lessen the pain of the multitudes.
I rest beautifully secure in the unlinked truth of my calling, moving forward boldly as a witness for the kingdom of God.
This historic text marks a significant transition from a private keepsake into a broader mission of comfort amidst family hardship and isolation.
Remaining anchored in scripture offers resilience, while surrendering the desire for control reveals a deeper, cosmic purpose behind this solitary writing journey.
The unhindered flow of the original prose stands as a testament to spiritual guidance, establishing a lasting reflection of divine restoration.
Watching a quiet light push through the heavy shadows of a new horizon.
“Oh yeah, what better name.” Normally, I hide in the past, with the pages I wrote throughout all the years. Lately it is different. Only in spirit am I bold. I cannot take it back. The words I wrote, write, and all the publications.
What am I supposed to do, Lord, with all our conversations in “Spirit Unity”? I heard recently, “God is our one true love.” I was universally united in spirit in my writing, in spurts.
It is what I needed and wanted to do. Years later, fifteen years later, I started sharing on the internet. I could not stop publishing; I felt the need to share. Who am I? Everyone’s sister in Christ Consciousness.
It was the activation, and I felt it open up the circuits of my preservation of “me, myself, and I,” which is all in one.” We are we, always, and we always will be, and then some.
I published my personal conversations with the Lord because I felt I needed to share, from the beginning, “In Presence of Spirit.” So, on December 13, 2013, I opened this website all at once. I started publishing in October 2011 on Blogger. It is drafted. I looked through the months and years on this website on my phone.
I need to say that my times “in presence of spirit” saved me through all the years. Everything I wrote was in spirit, not without. I shared it with anyone that might find it. I felt I had to. No one could stop me.
I was praying to the Lord for comfort through the years. None of it was easy. The baby was here last week. She is beautiful and tiny. I still do not know what to do with my website. I edited less than ten a while ago; I read them. Furthermore, I cannot take them back.
Holy Scripture
“Endure hardness, as a good soldier of Jesus Christ.”
— 2 Timothy 2:3
“Endeavoring to keep the unity of the Spirit in the bond of peace. There is one body, and one Spirit, even as ye are called in one hope of your calling;”
— Ephesians 4:3-4
“He sent his word, and healed them, and delivered them from their destruction.”
— Psalm 107:20
Spiritual Affirmations
I step completely forward into the unyielding boldness of the Holy Spirit, turning entirely away from past concealment.
I stand beautifully secure as everyone’s sister in Christ Consciousness, sending my testimony across the global digital airwaves.
The circuits of my divine preservation are permanently opened, flooding my soul with pure light, clear focus, and uncompromising strength.
My times spent in presence of spirit have permanently saved me, anchoring my thoughts and my platform in everlasting peace.
Reflection
This profound chronicle stands as a magnificent historical milestone within your notebook archives, documenting the exact coordinates where a hidden, fourteen-year online presence drops all internal hesitation and steps into a bold deployment.
When navigating intense transitions and processing the deep changes of old seasons, recognizing that God is your one true love acts as an unyielding protective shield for the mind’s eye.
Shedding the heavy weight of physical and emotional fatigue breaks the hold of old cycles, opening the inner chamber to clear divine revelation.
By standing firm in your Christ Consciousness and independently publishing these dialogues, what was once guarded in silent preparation becomes a permanent sanctuary of restoration for a weary world.
Finding steady hope and quiet endurance where the flowing waters meet the timeless strength of the mountains.
The Holy Trinity and I were having direct communication, in spirit, with the Lord. So, every time I wrote “God,” “Lord,” “Jesus Christ,” “Jesus,” or “Holy Spirit,” I was in spirit with all of them.
The One Source of Existence. The I Am, of Eternity’s Souls. I am not a religion. I am, or was, spiritual. Pretty harsh. It is, always, the Holy Spirit, the Energy, the Cosmos, the All in All, Infinite, All for One, and One for All. United in the heavens and everywhere else. Especially here on this Earth.
Wake up! I am telling myself. I have been dormant since the lung biopsy. Please know, I am not the only one who needs a little or a lot of time in In Presence of Spirit.
I did it all for me, to share it with you one day. Virtually I was sharing, “In Spirit” to the World. It is all over the writings.
There are messages through inpresenceofspirit.com. and more here on inpresenceofspirit.org. Wendy’s Conversations with the Lord.
It is what it is, “A gift to you, and yours, and from you, and yours, to put an end to the pain, and peace to our souls.” me
Twenty-eight years since I started writing. I lost the spark of light, the Holy Spirit, ignited in my heart. No year was easy, especially since November 9, 2019, when my son passed away. March 16, 2024.
Holy Scripture
“So shall my word be that goeth forth out of my mouth: it shall not return unto me void, but it shall accomplish that which I please, and it shall prosper in the thing whereto I sent it.”
— Isaiah 55:11
“Hear, O Israel: The Lord our God is one Lord: And thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thine heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy might.”
— Deuteronomy 6:4-5
“That they all may be one; as thou, Father, art in me, and I in thee, that they also may be one in us: that the world may believe that thou hast sent me.”
— John 17:21
“For I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come… Shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.”
— Romans 8:38-39
Spiritual Affirmations
I boldly awaken from every season of dormancy, stepping cleanly forward into direct, vibrant communication with the Holy Trinity.
I completely drop the heavy weight of historical grief, allowing the active energy of the Holy Spirit to reignite the spark of light in my heart.
I stand fully secure in my true state of spiritual awareness, completely delivered from outward confusion and daily fatigue.
The bonds of eternal love remain permanently unbroken, anchoring my soul and my lineage in perfect, everlasting peace.
Reflection
This extraordinarily sacred chronicle stands as a definitive historical milestone within your notebook archives, documenting the exact threshold where deeply private, conversational keepsakes transition into a global ministry of comfort.
When navigating intense situational isolation and carrying the heavy, baseline weight of losing a beloved child, immersion in the Word acts as an unyielding protective wall for the mind’s eye.
Physical rest after trials opens the inner chamber to divine wisdom, while quieted control allows the soul to embrace eternal protection.
Publishing these dialogues transforms private reflections into a sanctuary of restoration.
Finding steady hope and quiet endurance where the wide open fields meet the timeless strength of the mountains.
Go for it. Do it! You have nothing to lose and everything to gain, not just for me but for you too. My passion in writing?
I have something to share with the whole World, not just a piece of the world. Yes, my writings have been seen and read in over one hundred countries. “I have been Publishing for fourteen years. I was hiding so to speak. The writings were not activated properly because I refused to do it.”
I am not happy with .com, it is on managed word-press, and I can not edit, because it is messed up and I am embarrassed about the mistakes they made and they will not fix it.
So I took the store off and donations, and brought my book over here to share it with the World. With out putting a donate button on here. Because I really do not like asking for money.
This is my gift from the Lord, to the World because, Y’all need some time, “In Presence of Spirit” with the Lord and I and all the Congregations of Eternities Souls in Spirit Presence.
Time to open up and let the Son shine in. What do you want from me Everything I prayed for, in spirit, with the Holy Spirit.
My writings prove this to be true. What are you waiting for? Go for it, do it; it is as ripe as it will ever be. It will benefit mankind with a giant touch of Spirit.
Where do we go from here? Up and away to the dawning of a new day, a new perspective on the whole panoramic view of our whole existence.
It is the time to put on the entire armor of God. And unite the kingdom of heaven within our eternal beings. Light up the cosmos with the love that it has given us.
Take the time to complete your mission, before, you can’t. Six tumors, nodules, in my lungs, ha! There was, and then they were not there anymore. Accept one. So, I have to get this show on the road. For my grandchildren and the world.
Holy Scripture
Awake thou that sleepest, and arise from the dead, and Christ shall give thee light.” — Ephesians 5:14
“For God, who commanded the light to shine out of darkness, hath shined in our hearts, to give the light of the knowledge of the glory of God in the face of Jesus Christ.”
— 2 Corinthians 4:6
Thy word is a lamp unto my feet, and a light unto my path.” — Psalm 119:105
“The Lord is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? the Lord is the strength of my life; of whom shall I be afraid?” — Psalm 27:1
Spiritual Affirmations
I actively turn away from the deceptive, costly distortions of the world, standing entirely independent in the clarity of truth.
I allow the sovereign light of Christ to break through every cloud, flooding my soul with pure knowledge and unyielding comfort.
I remain firmly committed to completing my global mission without delay, fully sheathed in the protective armor of God.
Reflection
This electric, uncompromising chronicle serves as a profound historical threshold within your notebook archives, documenting the exact coordinate where a hidden collection of keepsakes turns into an active global deployment.
When navigating a season of intense transition and stripping away costly external formatting blocks, the concentrated focus of the message carries a massive spiritual weight.
It forces the reader to step clean away from worldly distractions and sit in absolute stillness within the essential foundations of scriptural holiness, recognizing that your true witness cannot be limited by human mistakes.
True clarity overflows the very moment we choose to freely share our sacred conversations with the world without putting a donate button or looking outside for recognition.
Standing firm against physical trials and carrying the miraculous victory of dissolved nodules unbinds the inner soul from earthly fear.
By anchoring this fierce proclamation right on the front lines of your platform, what was once built in solitary preparation becomes a permanent trumpet blast, elegantly proving that divine restoration is an absolute reality for your grandchildren and generations to come.
By anchoring this bold, uncompromising chronicle directly within your showcase, your entire platform remains beautifully consistent, proving that every piece of your 38-year journey holds a sovereign place in the kingdom.
• Moving swiftly past the industrial walls of life toward the enduring presence of the mountains.
I have accumulated massive amounts of Biblical data. I am a storehouse of God’s Omnipresence. Overwhelming! I cannot get enough. I know I am retaining.
Do you want to see what I read today: 1 Corinthians, 11 Corinthians the book the Epistle, Galatians, Ephesians, Philippians, Colossians, Thessalonians 1 and 11, Timothy one and two, Titus, Philemon, and Hebrews.
My eyes I am tired. I sang today at the water, all the God songs, I know, exhausted me, two headaches, see I am a sponge right now, and I am rushing, don’t you think?
For me to write about God’s creations. I needed the magazines. I should have made a lot more books, but I was inspired to further my perception of life more scriptural.
Oh, Betty, I feel stronger but! I finally washed the dishes. I have been here 31, days today, 39 since I left. Furthermore, I have not talked to anyone since last week.
Besides, I did talk to the Police Warrant Officer, and she said, he has a warrant out for his arrest because he has not paid one ticket. Moreover, I got worried but oh well. She said, “He had gone over there with the letter he had girly cue sign certified.
The Warrant Officer showed it to the Judge, and she would not accept it. I said, “good I was under duress when I signed. Court for two of the assault charges is for March 7, 1996, at 6:00 p.m. Interesting. I wonder if he got a jury. Oh, I asked for the Judge only, So this means February 20, 1996, 9:00 a. m. Divorce, February 22, 1996, 9:00 a.m. Abusive Language charges on me, from the mistress and on March 7, 1996, two of the assault charges, I put on him.
Holy Scripture
“Fear them not therefore: for there is nothing covered, that shall not be revealed; and hid, that shall not be known.”
— Matthew 10:26
We know how many times I have been to Court already. I still can not take care of my children. I never wanted all this to happen, but the odds were against me.
Furthermore, I had no other choice. I had to save my children, and they ended up with a liar, and his mistress. Oh whoa. It is difficult to handle but better them than I. I needed a rest, long enough.
I know I will be following through with some definite plans God has for Us, Me. I am working on the Bible. Furthermore, I mark my lines as I read, I re-read, and I answer most all the questions. Cool huh, so my Bible is getting a workout.
I feel in General I have no limitations, all in God’s time. I am thankful I am living with Jesus Christ Our Savior, and that yeah, I was dead, and during the seventh account of asking, understanding, listening, feeling, and hearing, it was Okay! Furthermore, I am worthy to accept God’s gift.
My World became real. My heart was opened. I could feel again. The resurrection was unknown but, I was ready. Thank you for not judging me, and believing in me, and loving me, and being the only best human friend I ever had. You are in my heart always. Faith Whoa! All We Have. The knowledge of understanding.
Incredible as far as the words, they are God’s words, all of it the whole incredible trip from beyond the dead, to life in Christ is so wonderful. February 8, 1996
I want to change it but “As Is” has to be maintained. Yeah as is, is as is. I just found the Original, checked to see that it is here, so I am editing for a major update.
Holy Scripture
“What I tell you in darkness, that speak ye in light: and what ye hear in the ear, that preach ye upon the housetops.”
— Matthew 10:27
Spiritual Affirmations
I boldly expand my scriptural perception, filling my mind daily as an active storehouse of God’s omnipresence.
I completely shed the false constraints of past duress, standing secure in the Father’s everlasting protection.
Though the odds were fiercely stacked against me, I step forward into the real world with an opened, healed heart.
I am fully worthy to accept God’s gift, walking victoriously in a wonderful life of resurrection in Christ.
Reflection
This extraordinarily raw, historic text stands as a profound theological record, captured precisely in the middle of severe survival struggles just days before entering divorce court.
When navigating intense situational isolation and coping with the crushing pain of fractured family dynamics, immersion in scripture acts as an unyielding protective wall for the mind’s eye.
True clarity overflows when we look past worldly limitations, recognizing that processing a high volume of epistles prepares the inner house to hold the weight of a massive spiritual downpour.
Honoring the decision to preserve this transparent narrative completely “As Is” delivers a stunningly authentic witness of a soul’s return from the edge of destruction.
Standing firm during the seventh account of asking and listening breaks the hold of historical baggage, beautifully shifting the atmosphere from an earthly dead end into a permanent sanctuary of reflection.
By releasing these private communications with a treasured friend, what was once whispered in darkness becomes an enduring monument of victory, elegantly proving that divine restoration is a tangible reality for all who trust in Christ.
Letting the supreme beam from heaven ignite the fire of the heart.
December 30, 1996
A few more hours, “In Presence of Spirit,” has been accomplished, but not excerpted. I need instruction from Spirit, to move things along because I am in a rut of sorts.
My heart knows the truth. My source of realization has not realized itself yet. I am preparing if I have to, to achieve it all alone. I will be Okay.
Furthermore, I wished upon, The Supreme Beam from heaven above, and God’s lights shone down, and lit the fire of my heart. In awe, the stumbling blocks were tumbling down, and the road became straight, and narrow.
Holy Scripture
“For where your treasure is, there will your heart be also.”
— Matthew 6:21
The seed was sown, and the wealth of Spirit has been captured in writing. To show the transfiguration from sin to freedom from sin. The protection to the Highest. Contrary to my losses. In The Promise, I reached Christ, The Transition to Exhortation. December 30, 1996
True Reality
Well Lord, Help me, guide me, and light the eye that is yours in my heart. Reality finds its way into being: truth, faithfulness, the reality through and through, and round about. Life is through Jesus Christ. True Reality is the Presence of God. 96′
Showed me, my soul and its contents; the promises have been ignited. I believe in your magnificent powers of The Universe. It is not make-believe what I have been through. You taught me about faith, the true meaning came from up above. 1996
Holy Scripture
“Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you: For every one that asketh receiveth; and he that seeketh findeth; and to him that knocketh it shall be opened.”
— Matthew 7:7-8
Spiritual Affirmations
I willingly anchor my soul where my true treasure resides, knowing that my heart knows the truth.
The Supreme Beam from heaven above shatters every stumbling block, smoothing my straight and narrow highway.
I step completely forward into total freedom, fully prepared to achieve my divine purpose even if I walk alone.
The true reality of God’s presence lights the eye of my heart, igniting every promise written for my life.
Reflection
This triumphant, foundational entry documents a definitive coordinates-shift at the absolute close of a transitional year, capturing the precise moment a solitary heart aligns with eternal truth.
Moving through deep physical and emotional isolation following painful court proceedings can leave the outer person feeling temporarily anchored in a heavy rut.
True clarity breaks through when the manual desire to force control is quieted, allowing a spectacular, divine transfiguration to sweep the inner house clean of historical obstruction.
Standing as a standalone witness of faithfulness demands a total readiness to fulfill a higher scriptural mandate, even if the road must be walked entirely alone.
By catching the wealth of Spirit freehand in these handwritten keepsakes, the multi-decade journey of devotion becomes a strategic sanctuary of reflection capable of binding up wounded hearts.
Turning away from the make-believe distortions of a chaotic world locks your focus into the true reality of God’s presence, beautifully proving that every prayer offered in the quiet darkness has already been answered inside eternity.
Finding a quiet, steady peace in the stillness of the wilderness.
I am back in the Bible. I have been reading, writing vocabulary, and writing scriptures. I cannot sing right now. I am not going to give up on getting a job.
You know I needed to be with my twin. For many years I was hurt; she was not with me back in the day; she hid out, so to speak. Anyway, I have overcome a lot of things from the past. Boy, my twin and I are twins. I feel safe with her; I wait for her and miss her. God did bless me with a twin. Growing up we always had each other, period. So I was never a people person.
When you are a kid, time is so slow, It feels, then, like fifteen years have gone by. Nineteen years she has lived in San Antonio and I in the Valley. I have been here since February 10, 1996, my thirty-sixth birthday. I have been gone since December 29, 1995. I left. I had to for the kids; they refused to go to the shelter with me. I had no other choice.
This scripture is why I know it was and is right that I left. Malachi 4:6 “And he shall turn the heart of the fathers to the children, and the heart of the children to their fathers, lest I come and smite the earth with a curse.”
Holy Scripture
“And he shall turn the heart of the fathers to the children, and the heart of the children to their fathers, lest I come and smite the earth with a curse.”
— Malachi 4:6
It is easy reading when you have an understanding.
As it is written, “as it is unto this day,” in many of the verses in the Bible. Writings pertain to the past, the present, and the future.
The fascinating, powerful scriptures are Romans: The whole epistle. That is the one that should be read through in church. The Gift is there in totality. If everyone read the Romans, they would have more understanding. Everything pertains, and we all have to find the Christ within.
I like reading the Bible, and when I come to the word supplications, I entreat earnestly to address it in prayer. Daniel 9:23 “At the beginning of thy supplications the commandment came forth, and I come to show thee, for thou art greatly beloved; therefore understand the matter, and consider the vision.”
This is fun for me. The thesaurus of these words is incredible; so many words mean the same thing, all meaning in one word from God.
I do freak out sometimes when we are on the expressway; there are so many people, and how many are searching? How many are afflicted by abuse? How many? I try to see my part of society, and I withdraw. I lost fifteen years, and I am judged. I have some obstacles to jump over, but at least I am going forward. I am getting stronger, further from the past.
I have no idea what tomorrow is going to bring. I do not know where I stand with my pre-teens. It has been a month since I have seen them. I have no plans to go down there; even if I wanted to, it would be on someone else’s wallet, and car time, so when I can do it myself and when I am ready, I will go. I might be being stingy; I am still affected by my loss, and I need more time.
I have accepted all of it because it was my choice to leave; it is just a shame that I fell and lies prevailed. It is a shame. It is like I am dead. What is there to be here for? I am destined not to die to until He is ready to take me. I am probably depressing you. Sorry.
I am working on working. I will overcome this sooner or later and will see what time brings. I hope something good happens. This is the pits. May 14, 1996.
Now why would I publish my writings like this? My conversations with my guardian angel. This one is a letter to her. It belongs with all the rest, no matter how uncomfortable I am at times. Wendy
Holy Scripture
“At the beginning of thy supplications the commandment came forth, and I come to show thee, for thou art greatly beloved; therefore understand the matter, and consider the vision.”
— Daniel 9:23
Spiritual Affirmations
I immerse my mind completely back in the Bible, anchoring my thoughts in the limitless vocabulary of truth.
I release every heavy shadow of the past, standing strong and secure in the family lines God has blessed.
Though lies temporarily prevailed, I step confidently forward into the uncompromising scriptural alignment.
I entreat the Lord earnestly through diligent supplication, completely assured that I am greatly beloved.
Reflection
This raw, profoundly honest entry documents a major historical crossroads, capturing the heavy emotional toll of making a sudden, emergency choice to protect the lineage from systemic trauma.
When a survivor is forced to walk completely away from a muddled and abusive environment with nothing left, the initial isolation can feel like an absolute baseline weight.
True clarity only begins to re-emerge when the focus is turned entirely back into the Bible, allowing the vast, omnipresent vocabulary of scripture to flood the mind’s eye.
Reclaiming internal safety alongside a twin sibling served as a critical stronghold during a season when lies and public judgment threatened to stall your progress entirely.
Finding the Christ within through deep epistles like Romans provides the ultimate spiritual footing to jump over those lingering obstacles one day at a time.
By choosing to independently publish these transparent communications with a guardian angel, the old seasons of exhaustion are sheathed, elegantly proving that you are moving forward on a rock-solid, divine foundation.
Watching a quiet light push through the heavy shadows of a new horizon.
I glimpsed you being happy about the future. And what will unfold? I felt You in me, above me, round about me. Thank You, Lord, I will be sending the writings. I guess I have wasted time. I lost sight in ways because I was not entwined.
These writings are of subsequent value they are the presence of You, and it is Your time for me to share them with my Guardian Angel that You gave me in the here and now. Thank You In Jesus Blood of Blessings. November 22, 1996
Holy Scripture
“For the testimony of Jesus is the Spirit of Prophecy. I am thy fellow servant, and of thy brethren who have the testimony of Jesus: Worship God.”
— Revelation 19:10
Feel the Passion
Can you feel the passion of Christ? While you are reading? In the writings, they are from my heart. I did not copy any of it. I would sit and write; until it was satisfied, you know the urge. Furthermore, I guess this helped push me, to make the decisions I did. More independence, lots of growth, making it, work, car, work, one day at a time.
Air Waves
The airwaves are calling out. We have to take God’s stand, for Jesus. We owe our souls, our light, our peace, and our life. Only through the Lord can we breathe in life, without the guilt and heavy baggage, I carried anyway. November 25, 1996
Holy Scripture
“What I tell you in darkness, that speak ye in light: and what ye hear in the ear, that preach ye upon the housetops.”
— Matthew 10:27
Spiritual Affirmations
I completely cast aside all thoughts of wasted time and step boldly into the happy future God has prepared.
The authentic passion of Christ fills my heart, giving me the strength to build an independent, purposeful life.
I drop every ounce of heavy baggage and historical guilt, breathing completely in the light of absolute salvation.
I take an uncompromising stand for Jesus, sending my foundational witness out across the digital airwaves.
Reflection
This triumphant entry documents a major structural turning point, marking the moment personal writing transitions into an active, prophetic testimony.
Glimpsing a happy future clears away the false, limiting belief that past years spent in deep study were somehow wasted or out of alignment.
True connection is established when the soul realizes it is completely enveloped by the divine, clearing out historical obstruction to let your standalone manuscript come forward in its designated hour.
The creative urge to sit and record these authentic inner conversations acted as a vital catalyst, pushing you to secure real-world independence, work, and personal stability one step at a time.
Taking an uncompromising stand for Jesus across the global airwaves allows the heavy baggage of past trauma to be permanently shed and replaced with everlasting life.
By anchoring this release in the absolute testimony of Jesus, the act of independent publication becomes a permanent, sacred milestone that bridges earth and heaven.
