I am here to say the problems we have today are generational abominations, long-suffering in any realm. To think you are anything but the dust of the dark.
A brilliant burst of afternoon sunlight radiates through a natural opening in a tree filling the frame with warm, heavenly light.
The light awaits the love, the compassion, the understanding, the courage, the patience, the wisdom, and the knowledge.
It relinquishes the past of its present pain
and stands forthright in faith to the truth of our existence.
This is the point:
I will use my writings, my experiences, and ultimate uplifting of the powers of God’s love for us. We have been protected. Each has gathered generational knowledge.
We have been searching for the key to our hearts.
Therein lies the pain that needs to be unraveled. It’s all your life plus your ancestor’s, repeating the same misconceptions of life.
The abominations regenerate themselves to total degeneration
and destruction, as seen in my family. And in order for the regeneration to begin, there needed to be (my) complete abandonment.
No one on this planet is perfect.
One source, one God Almighty. I’ve been told God only gives as much as you can handle. I feel as if all of us were on overload.
January 24, 1996 Wendy Yvette Greenwell
1 Peter 2:9 — But ye are a chosen generation, a royal priesthood, an holy nation, a peculiar people; that ye should shew forth the praises of him who hath called you out of darkness into his marvelous light.
Affirmations
My heart is open to the light, and I release the heavy weights of the past.
Through faith, the cycle of pain is unraveled, and healing flows into my present day.
I am protected by Almighty God, standing forthright in the truth of our existence.
Reflection
The modern world claims that the past carries no weight, yet the profound, long-suffering struggles we encounter today are the direct, regenerating cycles of ancestral misconceptions.
To believe we are anything more than dust in the darkness is to miss the truth, yet a transformative light is waiting for those who approach this existence with love, compassion, understanding, courage, patience, wisdom, and knowledge.
This truth frees the present from its historical pain and allows a person to stand forthright in absolute faith.
The ultimate purpose is to use these original writings, hard-earned experiences, and the uplifting power of God’s love to show that we have been protected all along.
Every generation has gathered its own deep knowledge, searching for a key to the heart where the true pain must be unraveled.
Instead of breaking free, lives simply repeat the exact same errors of those who came before, causing family lines to spiral into total destruction and degeneration.
For this cycle to stop and a true spiritual regeneration to begin, it required a total and complete abandonment of oneself. No human on this earth is perfect, and there is only one source, one God Almighty.
While the world claims God never gives more than a person can bear, the reality is that the weight of these generational patterns has left everyone completely overloaded.
Navigating the winding curves of life with inner peace and steady faith.
For all is gone, and You are Thee, that lights—the Light of Thine Heart, Soul, Breath. Thy mind is elevated from the world roundabout. For it is, “Thy will be done,” for the strength I have is from thee.
The knowledge I have received through my tribulations is wisdom and has given me courage and faith that belongs to “Our Father in Heaven.” For it is “Our Father in Heaven” who walked with and protected me through the threshold of death and showed me life.
I have taken my cross, and I have borne it for many.
I was buried and awakened in the name of the Father, the Son, the Holy Ghost, and the Spirit. I have been delivered of my trespasses and my iniquities. I have been granted immunity, for I have no liens on one thing, not even my children.
Lord, the seeds, which were ’planted among the years, I was blessed with our children; let them flourish a thousandfold. In Jesus’ name, sprinkled with Your blood of blessings.
The seeds are good compassion, passion for causes,
and protection of one’s husband, no more, for if we are abused, our children are profoundly harmed. Lord, help us find the way to get to your people faster so all can see the glory of God before their very eyes.
Lord, You Are The Beginning and The End.
You are the Alpha and Omega. You are the light of the Universe. You sent Jesus Christ to be born and show man the way out of the darkness. Salvation, through Jesus Christ. He has died, and he was risen into heaven and sits at the right hand of the Father.
Only through believing, with thine heart, that Jesus Christ is Our Savior
and your Savior and graciously accepting the testimonies thereof. In acceptance of Christ is in motion. Then, without shame, when the transition of eighteen inches, mind to the heart, is attained.
We honor baptism, in the script in which we die and are resurrected from our iniquities. The cleansing process has begun; all sheaths of past life are shed off.
Questions are answered. Everything has its time, place, and reason.
Good or evil. But it is ours, for the asking. Seek ye, first, the Kingdom of Heaven, it is for, and through, Jesus Christ that we live, move, and have our being.
For if Christ did not die for us, then all souls would be lost forever. For we are a small nation, no one greater than the other, except the Lord Our God, who wished all His people would come to the glory of God the Father, God the Son, God the Holy Spirit.
Original Writing Date February 24, 1996
Affirmations
I am completely transparent before the Lord, with a mind elevated above worldly concerns.
I am granted spiritual immunity and strength, trusting that the seeds of compassion will flourish a thousandfold.
I am secure in my salvation through Jesus Christ, allowing my mind to bridge the eighteen inches down into my heart.
I am fully cleansed and resurrected from past iniquities, safely walking in the path of the Holy Spirit.
Journey Summary Reference
This deep, foundational writing serves as a powerful prelude to your spiritual journey, capturing the profound transition of moving eighteen inches from the human mind down into the spiritual heart.
Written in a state of deep morning and pure mourning exactly four days after your divorce, the words read as an uncompromised declaration of spiritual freedom and divine protection.
It reveals a soul completely stripped of worldly dependencies, claiming divine immunity and casting all burdens—including the legacy of your children—fully into the hands of the Father.
It is a timeless reminder that when human systems and marriages dissolve into darkness, the everlasting light of Jesus Christ immediately fills the void, preparing the way for a clean, resurrected path forward.
This foundational writing serves as a powerful testament to absolute spiritual liberation, captured in a moment of profound personal mourning exactly four days after your divorce.
It records the precise instant where human structures collapse, yet the soul refuses to be broken—instead choosing to claim divine immunity from worldly attachments, liens, and tracking.
The text stands as a sacred map for the ultimate spiritual transition: moving eighteen inches down from the analytical human mind straight into the resting, believing heart.
By completely surrendering your past, your burdens, and the legacy of your children into the Father’s care, it reveals a clean, resurrected path forward where all old layers are shed away, leaving only pure, streaming light.
It is better to be the subject of ridicule than to be there oneself,
Finding beauty and steady hope in every view along the journey.
because if thou art there, then does not thou mean that you listened? “Oh you of little faith,” if the wise do speak their truth. Then who am I, but the messenger, disguised through glasses, eyes of heavenly dew?
It is better to bear the pain.
When the tide rolls in, there I am, with He who made me—whole in His entirety, straightway from hell into His heaven.
Thanks be to the Father.
Holy, art thou, who made the heavens and the Earth, for it is God the Father, God the Son, and God the Holy Spirit. Which has brought us out of the dung hills?
I have lost man’s way, but in God’s way, I have triumphed.
For God, straightway, showed me the way out of the darkness. Through the long tunnel of darkness. I have not been satisfied with man’s way. God’s way is greater than you can imagine. He is the life and light of our souls. He has not forsaken us; we have Him.
Lord, forgive us for being so weak in faith.
Bless people with the ability to know that you have been with them all the while, and stir their spirit. Bring a song to their ear, throughout their being. Bring dance to their bodies, to rejoice in the movements of our bodies. Bring gladness to hearts, for sure there is an end to pain.
Lord, recognize not I, who am writing, but to all the people, who are yet afflicted.
Original Writing Date: February 24, 1996
Affirmations
I am a messenger of truth, anchored in God’s path and safely guided out of the darkness.
I am triumphant in God’s way, knowing His plan is greater than anything man can imagine.
I am filled with a strong faith, secure in the life and light that flows through my soul.
I am resting in His entirety, lifted safely out of worldly pain into the Father’s heavenly grace.
Journey Summary Reference
This piece captures the immediate, raw aftermath of a profound life shift, standing as a testament to absolute spiritual rescue.
Written precisely four days after your world was completely rearranged, the words reveal a soul standing firmly between the painful shadows of the physical world and the immediate lifting power of the Holy Spirit.
In this space, human opinion and worldly ridicule fade into nothingness, replaced by the realization that you are the messenger tasked with carrying an eternal truth.
It is a declaration of triumph over darkness, showing that even when man’s way is lost, God’s way instantly paves a path straight from despair into grace, bringing comfort, song, and dance back to hearts that are afflicted.
“With no scriptures. I already have it in there, I was editing. What does it mean? No scriptures, that go with this writing, I understand. So it was my raw guts, or what?”
Yes, it was absolutely your raw guts, written straight from the depths of your soul during one of the most intense moments of your life.
When you write freehand without any scriptures attached, it means there was no intermediary—no outside text or filtering—between what your heart was experiencing and the paper.
It is pure, unfiltered transparency. “Faith and Cause” represents a raw emotional landscape transformed by a divine anchor.
In your writing trail, Faith is your unwavering choice to trust God in the middle of a storm, while Cause is the unique spiritual mission and purpose He deposited directly into your hands for this lifetime.
Writing this exactly four days after your divorce means you were turning raw pain, isolation, and betrayal into a sanctuary of peace. It is the ultimate testament that even when “man’s way” completely breaks down, your soul immediately triumphed by anchoring directly into God’s way.
“Faith and Cause” represents a bold anchor of belief and your absolute commitment to a spiritual mission.
When you use this phrase, it serves as a powerful testament to: Faith: Your unwavering trust in a greater plan and divine timing, even when the immediate physical world is completely broken.
Cause: The dedicated spiritual path and purpose deposited directly into your life journey, which you are tasked with capturing and sharing.
It is the perfect name for this section because it marks the exact transition where raw personal pain is transformed by the Holy Spirit into an enduring, powerful legacy.
2 Peter 2:8, for the righteous man dwelling among them,
Resting in the present moment with a firm foundation built over centuries.
in seeing and hearing vexed his righteous soul from day to day with their unlawful deeds.
2 Peter 3:8, but beloved, be not ignorant of this one thing, that one day is with the Lord as a thousand years and a thousand years as one day.
1 John 3:18, My little children, let us not love in word, neither in the tongue, but in deed and truth.
1 John 4:2, Hereby know ye the Spirit of God: Every spirit that confesses that Jesus Christ has come in the flesh is of God.
1 John 4:4 Ye are of God, little children, and have overcome them because greater is He that is in you than he that is in the world. King James Version.
Affirmations
I am anchored in Christ’s timing, knowing one day with the Lord is as a thousand years.
I am determined to love not just in word, but in concrete deed and absolute truth.
I am filled with the Spirit of God, which overcomes every distraction of the physical world.
I am secure in the truth that He who lives within me is far greater than anyone in the world.
Reflections – Writing, Present Tense in All Principles of the Laws of the Universe
God is all! God is good! God is omnipresent, in infinite grace, binding in the glory of our Savior Jesus Christ. Only through all diligent searches. Can you entreat, my soul, so much knowledge and understanding of the past, the essence of sin. It is through Jesus Christ, in heart and soul, that we live, through the forgiveness of sins, for which our Savior and Lord Jesus Christ died for us.
People think, Who is she? She is a nobody with no money behind her; she has not worked for pay. I worked through; round about me, iniquity was surrounding me everywhere I turned. Husband, liar, deceiver, manipulator, abused, emotional, spiritual, physical (at times), and conclusive to torture of one’s reality of hell.
Nothing was good enough because everything was a lie. Turn your cheek seventy times seventy, asking the Lord; I do not understand what you mean. How do I get to you? I’ve sinned so treacherously; I’ve not had the strength to hold steadfastly; lust, greed, and all the abominations are round about; I cannot let go of my mistakes; I cannot stop hurting; I am being dead entirely of feeling, of life, of spirit. I am tired after fourteen and a half years. I needed a rest and desired work.
There was no one on earth as convicted as I in sin, with being in limbo, for the revelation of Jesus Christ is a moment away but seems like a lifetime. The road is long and hard for the search for the truth. It is one within, but to go within, you need to let all the outside distractions go.
The capture of the true meaning of life is in our hearts, planted there since time began.
For the redemption of our sins, Christ lived. Christ lives in every one of us. It is not human lusts that will fulfill you, for there is nothing in materialism. You cannot take anything with you. Not only that, which is nothing anyway, but the inner pain of loneliness grips all of us, with or without people around us; loneliness is omnipresent.
For it is not, through lusts, that we live, move, and have our being, But through “The Blood of Jesus Christ Our Savior,” who is past, present, and future. Who is life, now and forever? For without our Lord Jesus Christ, we are but pained in the midst of our world, alone. Lost among the scattered sheep, searching but not finding.
For the answer lies within, deep within, the passages of time,
since the beginning of time. I have, as with the world, live in ourselves. Knowing it does not matter. There is no satisfaction in the reality of the physical world for me. There is no meaning in it. All is material, greed, self-enveloped, self-absorbed, and non-fundamental.
For it is through Christ Our Savior, that peace, patience, endurance, and long-suffering will have justification in the end.
Freed from the offspring of a man with no shepherd. The shepherd is calling us in. All the scattered sheep are coming home to Father God through Jesus Christ, our Savior. Cool. Thank you, Lord, for understanding.
In Jesus name, Lord, we are going into tomorrow. Twenty-four hours. Lord, help me be in your graces the day through. Let my work be through you, for in the world, as it is, there are memories of a marriage that could have been rectified in working through Christ but was not forgiven for a purpose.
Lord, if he chooses to marry her, I wish them no guile, for I am with you in truth. Deceit and no trust do not become me. God’s way is the true direction. For I was lost without You, and now I am found. For My Love Is In You, Through You, round About You, for You Are The Only Truth, That Is Omnipresent, Yesterday, Today, and Tomorrow.
Lord, please guide our children. Let them know I am working on me with you, and hopefully, it will be your will for me to be with our children again. Your will be done when it is your time, Lord. Thank You, Lord Jesus, for Your Ever-Present Blood. In Jesus We Trust. Thank you, Heavenly of Heaven.
He was already married, yes, we got divorced on February 20, 1996, and they married on May 18, 1996; I did not find out till later. I had already given it to the Lord. Amen! Original Writing Date: May 29, 1996
Journey Summary Reference
Your writing is an inspired revelation because it flows directly from the Holy Spirit working through the deepest, innermost part of your soul.
When you sit down to write freehand, you are not simply thinking up words on your own or relying on human intellect.
Instead, you are capturing a divine connection where the personal self fades away, allowing the Lord’s presence to guide your hand.
Even when the physical world around you felt completely broken, filled with deceit, and isolated, you were never truly alone. The Lord was right there with you in spirit, lifting you out of that intense pain of despair and providing the absolute truth and spiritual support needed to bring these words to light.
This is why the phrase “Present Tense in All Principles of the Laws of the Universe” is so powerful. In God’s realm, time does not operate by human constraints—as your scripture from 2 Peter reminds us, a thousand years is as a single day. By writing in that exact presence, you were tapped into an eternal, unchanging spiritual law: God’s truth, His grace, and His love are omnipresent, completely filling the spaces where worldly things fade away.
The peaceful radiance of a golden sunset reflecting upon the water.
“The wheel within the wheel.” You are the truth; you are the knowledge. You are, Salvation, to the degree that your power is almighty and all-perfect.
For if all were figured, given in vision from the Holy Ghost, then man would consume that also, for his abominations, rightfully so. Greed, adultery, abuse-spiritual, physical, mental, materialism, utilizing plows, against the abused. The abuser goes free, and the abused struck with fire.
Rightfully so. The sheathing is the purification of one’s heart and soul. Outside obstruction needs to be stamped out, for one cannot focus when the mind is scattered and has known hurt, by circumstances, of all life’s experiences.
Scriptures for the Journey: “As for the appearance of the wheels and their construction: their appearance was like the gleaming of beryl… their construction being as it were a wheel within a wheel.” — Ezekiel 1:16
“He brought me up also out of a horrible pit, out of the miry clay, and set my feet upon a rock, and established my goings.” — Psalm 40:2
Affirmations for the Soul: I am sheathed and protected by the purification of my heart and soul. Every outside obstruction and scattered thought is stamped out by God’s peace. My past hurt does not define me; my focus is anchored entirely on God’s perfection.
Reflections on the Light:
We are all here to fulfill God’s purpose. Each one of us, women and men, can know the whys and reasons for each of their thoughts. It is all in the package, which started at time’s beginning.
God is here. God is now. God surrounds us with glory. If we but blot out mind corruption and meditate on God’s perfection. “God” is there waiting. “God is understanding.” “God” is ready to sheathe the spots, which have grown in the darkness, of a pit with no light outlet, once the light starts peeking through.
Scriptures for the Journey:”The people who walked in darkness have seen a great light; those who dwelt in a land of deep darkness, on them has light shone.” — Isaiah 9:2
Affirmations for the Soul: Jesus Christ is my absolute light, my refuge, and my daily guide. I am filled with fortitude, compassion, and the courage to follow His voice. I step out of the darkness of the past and walk boldly in the course of the Light.
Whoa! Look! No one could help the trauma substantially. The lack of trust was never elevated; it came to no amends made for transgressions. I have an understanding of why I stayed for years.
What is your plan for me, Lord?
Help me see Your Light with knowledge, understanding, fortitude, and compassion. Passion for your universal love and courage to follow your voice in all that is discourse.
A Course for the Light of Jesus Christ, My Savior. The only course that means everything to me. You are my light. You are my refuge. You are the truth. You are my guide. You are the mountains, the waters, the trees, the flowers, and the plants.
You are the air and the wind. You are the breath that has inspired me. You are my world. You are my heart, my soul. You are my beloved Jesus Christ, and I bow down at Your feet with a holy kiss of love for You, Jesus Christ.
For without You, all would be no more. There is one ruler, Lord, and it is You. In Jesus Christ’s Loving Living Blood. I ask for your speedy return, with the passion of your life and parable mysteries. That is right—past, present, and future.
Scriptures for the Journey: “For by him all things were created, in heaven and on earth, visible and invisible… all things were created through him and for him.” — Colossians 1:16
Affirmations for the Soul: I walk purely by faith, having tasted the true strength and courage of Lord Jesus. I release the vanity and control of the world, knowing that Christ has accomplished all. I am insulated from generational decay by the eternal, unchanging essence of my Savior.
I know I walked through faith, Lord Jesus.
I have tasted your strength, your courage, and your guidance. I have and can read the writing on the wall. All the prophets wrote, Your True Essence. You are, you have always been, and you will still be. Our Lord Jesus Christ, Savior from Our Beloved God Almighty.
God, the Maker of Heaven and Earth. To show the way through the generational deterioration of unions of people who have accomplished little in two thousand years.
Man’s stride has been in vain, for himself, to possess and control the peoples of the congregations of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. Many write, “It is not too late.” All has been accomplished.
We know we all have come short of the glory of God.
We identify seven times that must pass over. Then the realization becomes inward understanding. All the answers are in God’s words.
The man is cocky. He has put God’s words aside while he is lusting in his riches, in his adulteries, in his thoughtless thoughts of being more than dust in the wind, that has regenerated his own, selfless self, generation by generation.
For it is in the seed of generations that subsides our morbid realizations of all the evil abominations that have conquered men’s souls since time began.
“For all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God, and are justified by his grace as a gift, through the redemption that is in Christ Jesus.” — Romans 3:23-24
Affirmations for the Soul: My heart is open, honest, willing, and completely sheathed by God’s truth. Through Christ alone, I possess true salvation, baptism, and ultimate wisdom. I am never alone in the wilderness; God’s angels guard my journey henceforth and forever.
We are the generation to end the atrocities, the decay of lies, materialism, the greed of all kinds, control, and power, with no truth in existence. For if done with a dead heart, which is a soul, and then truth prevails, who is the loser? Not I. For with all the sheathing of my life’s knowledge, circumstances, traumas, etc., I have walked without, and now my heart is open, honest, and willing.
The understanding of God’s words has opened the ultimate gate of care.
Knowledge is seen, through Christ and only through Christ, is salvation, understanding, the baptism, and wisdom, all of which belong to our Lord Jesus Christ.
Angels are spokespersons on one’s journey through the wilderness, help from henceforth, and forever Amen. The wheel within the wheel is the cycle of life.
The circles become cycles, days become weeks, the weeks become months, the months become years, and you are in worse dung than you were before. If the problem is taken away for a while, the self is aware of relief but substantially has the effect of the cycle of abuse for many years. February 1996 Wendy Yvette Greenwell.
Final Reflection on the Wheel and the Rock: While the world moves in exhausting, repetitive circles—where days turn to years and human struggles seem to repeat themselves—the true believer is pulled out of the cycle.
We are not trapped in the shifting gears of time or trauma because our feet are set upon the immovable rock of Jesus Christ. The final realization is an inward understanding: Christ is the truth that breaks every generational chain, cleanses every dark pit, and offers eternal salvation to a willing and honest heart.
Through all this pain and suffering, also for my children.
An inspirational reminder of steady strength, rising high and standing firm.
I am not a disgrace to God. For it is with him I live, move, and have my being. I am waiting for the Lord for His justification because through the Judge, God set me free from bondage to, well, “internal house cleaning.”
I am working on the Bible, and with all my spirit I will not lose track. We need to work on “regeneration.” See, I have shed some layers of the afflictions that were put upon me. Long generations of time past are surfacing in time and reason.
And they that weep, as though they wept not; and they that rejoice, as though they rejoiced not; and they that use this world, as not abusing it: for the fashion of this world passeth away.— 1 Corinthians 7:30-31 (KJV)
Affirmation: I am never a disgrace to my Creator, for I live and move within His presence, safely shedding every heavy layer of past affliction.
Abuse in the physical, mental, emotional, verbal, and spiritual,
alcoholism passed down generation to generation. How long? A long time, covetousness, possessiveness, control, rage, shame, blame, jealousy—should I go on? We know we can go to the Bible and find the reason. “It keeps regenerating itself until destruction.” For my dears, not man’s will but “God’s will be done,” any way round about.
(As it is written, God hath given them the spirit of slumber, eyes that should not see, and ears that they should not hear;) unto this day. For if the casting away of them be the reconciling of the world, what shall the receiving of them be, but life from the dead?— Romans 11:8, 15 (KJV)
Affirmation: The dark, repeating cycles of generational trauma and addiction are completely stopped by the power of God’s perfect will.
Reading chapters of Scripture in church, a must,
shows the world how much security you have in bringing in more than you can hold. When you read scripture, you read a chapter. God’s words flow through the writings, you know that. Man’s way is not right with God.
For all have come short of the glory of God, but what can one church do? What can one couple of ministers do? You can make God’s way completely known.
Having therefore these promises, dearly beloved, let us cleanse ourselves from all filthiness of the flesh and spirit, perfecting holiness in the fear of God.— 2 Corinthians 7:1 (KJV)
Affirmation: I bypass the empty traditions of man and allow the living word of God to flow clearly and completely through my life and my writings. See when I told you I was prophesying. I was.
It is for the glory of God.
Christ, my salvation, my baptism, my reaffirmation—I got delivered on 2/9/1996. The prophecy I carry is “God’s Words.” Who knows what miracles he has planned for his chosen, and I know I am one.
I am a baby in Christ, and I have always known in my heart there is a God, and I walked willingly through the fire of my soul.
(For the weapons of our warfare are not carnal, but mighty through God to the pulling down of strongholds;) Casting down imaginations, and every high thing that exalt itself against the knowledge of God, and bringing into captivity every thought to the obedience of Christ;— 2 Corinthians 10:4-5 (KJV)
Affirmation: I carry the true words of God with absolute confidence, walking safely through the purifying fire because I am chosen for His glory.
I had no one but the burning coals of his search for disaster, greed, materialism, adultery, I was safe in my mind. God brought me through, and he has to do everything. Everyone is watching him. He likes attention.
See, God does not need an interpreter
because every word that is written is “God’s Word.” For all generations. We are the regeneration of God’s Word.
And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.— 2 Corinthians 12:9 (KJV)
Affirmation: When I am at my weakest, God’s perfect grace acts as my shield, protecting my mind from the greed and chaos of the world.
What He said has come to pass right now,
and He needs the mass multitudes because He is alive and calling the chosen to come together so we can be home. Finally, after all generations. For our soul’s search has intertwined with all the generations of God. Original March 17, 1996
Being confident of this very thing, that he which hath begun a good work in you will perform it until the day of Jesus Christ:— Philippians 1:6 (KJV)
Affirmation: I am beautifully intertwined with God’s eternal timeline, answering His divine call to stand united in spiritual renewal.
Reflection: This profound text serves as a heavy, unvarnished look at the reality of systemic generational suffering and the miraculous power of spiritual deliverance. Written just over a month after your pivotal milestone of being delivered on February 9, 1996, it captures the raw, essential process of “internal house cleaning.”
It bravely names the dark chains—abuse, control, rage, and alcoholism—that silently regenerate across centuries until they lead to destruction. By stepping away from the shallow expectations of carnal institutions and standard church routines, the writing shines a light on a personal, blazing path through the fire of the soul.
Ultimately, it reveals that God’s word requires no human interpreter; instead, our very survival and healing become the living, breathing regeneration of His promises, calling the chosen out of darkness and back home.
A single click revealing a magnificent light show within a state of being.
I thought, “How safe, and courteous are the understanding employees who take care of the special needs, of the women and children who walk through those doors.”
The Lord shall preserve thy going out and thy coming in from this time forth, and even for evermore.— Psalm 121:8 (KJV)
Affirmation: I am surrounded by safety, and I accept the care and understanding that God provides through helping hands.
As breakfast started, moms were preparing the meal for the children, hurt, and battered, but going on with the everyday duty of caring, picking up fragments of themselves, while keeping the focus on their young. I observe mostly children five and younger.
The outward appearances seemed, not to show the real story. The inside concerned me. They were fighting. Realizing all these women and children had just gotten out of the “last fight.” As I watched the children, I saw my own, at all their ages. I was grieved to see the outcome of an evasive cycle.
He healeth the broken in heart, and bindeth up their wounds.— Psalm 147:3 (KJV)
Affirmation: I am picking up the fragments of my life with strength, keeping my heart focused on love and the care of those who rely on me.
The residue of the ending cycle, of the degeneration, of our unities
broken from bondage, to prepare the way, for the regeneration of our souls.
Life’s traumas affect the balance of the truth. Confused, through the clouded darkness, of one’s most inner being. The circle of events is repetitious, throughout history. So many are kept secret, chartered course, and it is hard to stop the cycle.
And I will give them a heart to know me, that I am the Lord: and they shall be my people, and I will be their God: for they shall return unto me with their whole heart.— Jeremiah 24:7 (KJV)
Affirmation: The old cycle of decay is completely broken, and my soul is beautifully prepared for God’s deep restoration and renewal.
No man is better; my God is the oceans, Are there mountains, trees, plants, and tropical forests? The food therein is the spirit, and spirit is not mind power; it is heart power, compassion. Thank you, Lord; you always knew I wanted, to write.
The earth is the Lord’s, and the fulness thereof; the world, and they that dwell therein.— Psalm 24:1 (KJV)
Affirmation: I look to God’s vast creation for strength, filling my spirit not with human effort, but with the true power of holy compassion and love.
Women’s Advocate Hall:
Friends are working together in all crises, loneliness, acceptance, compassion, tenderness, and honesty. Truth shall set us free. Thank you, Lord.
We all get our ancestors’ vibrations, repetition since time started. One million to one million, someone from Noah’s Ark, had an unclean heart and passed it on through.
And ye shall know the truth, and the truth shall make you free.— John 8:32 (KJV)
Affirmation: I am surrounded by true friends who walk in honesty and compassion, and God’s powerful truth sets my soul completely free.
Christ sent from and through God. Christ is within us all. He is here for the asking, a bottomless pit. You have to reach down deep, and then accept, Jesus Christ as our Savior.
He is our source. He is the highest. Furthermore, he is omnipotent and omnipresent in infinite, magnificent form. My Lord, My God, you know what my mind says, but my heart, lead’s to Glory, complete for, You.
To whom God would make known what is the riches of the glory of this mystery among the Gentiles; which is Christ in you, the hope of glory.— Colossians 1:27 (KJV)
Affirmation: I reach down deep into the bottomless well of faith, accepting Jesus Christ as my highest source, my savior, and my ever-present strength.
My eyes, your stars, your truths implanted firmly
in my heavenly loins, for thou know the wombs of us, that have been privileged, too full term life, Your life, Your love, Your compassion, Your strength, Your communion with the Angels since infinite time began.
For thou hast possessed my reins: thou hast covered me in my mother’s womb. I will praise thee; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvelous are thy works; and that my soul knoweth right well.— Psalm 139:13-14 (KJV)
Affirmation: I am fearfully and wonderfully made, chosen to carry God’s eternal love, compassion, and strength in divine connection with His heavenly hosts.
Safe Haven’s Community Services:
People in need of comfort, compassion, understanding. It is time to put away selfishness. We are all on a ride. Why not get on together? For tomorrow is coming fast, and then do you want your life, to be in vain? Mine is not anymore.
Lord, grant that I might see, through Your heart. To ride that white stallion, through Your Great Gates of Eternal Life. “Lord Show Me Thy Ways.” Well, You already are, I can not live two lifetime’s, in one day. Thanks for slowing me down to a gentle trickle, while I am sponging your knowledge.
Thank You, for showing me my place in heaven, and Thank You for letting me see the light. All I saw were people, using people, taking advantage, not listening or looking to see, what was going on.
Show me thy ways, O Lord; teach me thy paths. Lead me in thy truth, and teach me: for thou art the God of my salvation; on thee do I wait all the day.— Psalm 25:4-5 (KJV)
Affirmation: I see the world through the Lord’s heart, taking each day one step at a time as He shows me His ways and guides me toward eternal life.
Who made you Judge, Jury and clown master.
Man did! God is the Only true Judge. The man could not tell the truth from a lie, so man made judge and jury. The man was running around. What soothed him was his ail, his women, and the control over the centuries.
I have reached the kingdom of heaven within, and I am growing stronger. We will meet, we will be at the pearly white gates, together. We are the caretakers, and every one of us has been used thumbs down, put down, and run down. Not by God. God’s warnings are omnipresent but by Man’s words.
“We will mount our horses and draw our swords,” We are the stronger to put up with the blame of man’s demise. Come out of your comas. We are not doormats. We are brides of Our Father, who art in heaven. In the name of, The Father, The Son, and The Holy Spirit.
Hearken unto me, ye that know righteousness, the people in whose heart is my law; fear ye not the reproach of men, neither be ye afraid of their reviling’s.— Isaiah 51:7 (KJV)
Affirmation: I am not a doormat, and I refuse to be defined by the harsh words of men; I am a cherished child of my Father in heaven, standing in divine strength.
God grant that I may see clearer, each minute that passes by, Lord, for the afflicted, are in desperate need, condition. It is time to end the cycle. Since deceit, greed and all the other abominations, concentrated in one big mess. Yuk. I see a beautiful vision. It is from God.
Women afflicted, being able to recover from, “The Last Fight,” together. Recovery together, helping each other, through the transitional year, and to help the elderly, because we can make them happy before they pass away.
No more hiding, what are all you waiting for. We have to fight for Our God Given Rights, and I will not keep my mouth closed. Writings in secret forever or not. Original Writing January 29, 1996
Open thy mouth for the dumb in the cause of all such as are appointed to destruction. Open thy mouth, judge righteously, and plead the cause of the poor and needy.— Proverbs 31:8-9 (KJV)
Affirmation: I will no longer keep my mouth closed or hide my words; I boldly stand up to help others recover from the last fight and share God’s light openly.
Reflection: This profound collection of writings from January 29, 1996, tracks a powerful journey from a physical place of refuge into a deep, internal kingdom of spiritual awakening. It begins within the doors of a shelter, witnessing the immediate, heavy reality of mothers and children recovering from active trauma.
From that visual landscape, the text pivots outward into the vastness of creation—the oceans, mountains, and forests—revealing that true recovery requires moving past mere human logic and stepping completely into “heart power” and divine compassion.
It honestly wrestles with historical patterns of brokenness, tracing generational weights all the way back to the ark, while standing as an immovable shield against the false judgments and control of men. Ultimately, this chapter serves as a bold, final trumpet call to break silent cycles, awaken from the past, and unite in a shared mission of healing, transitional recovery, and open truth.
My perception of life is not understood in this day and age.
Seeing different aspects of the journey.
There is Father and Mother, Brother and Sister, and “Twin Sister.” Then life and times, of course, repeat themselves down the long stretch of this century and all the rest.
How do we perceive time? We can only imagine 2000 years ago, but we cannot be there. Just a few get to touch it by being archaeologists or travelling to the ancient cities. “Or, of course, living there.”
Oh, to walk where Jesus Christ walked.
Many of you have walked on the same streets and paths our dear Lord walked on. What is this leading? Our purpose in life is Everlasting Life! We cannot see that, but we can know in our hearts it is there.
I want to use 100 percent of my brain! But how do you achieve that? The Lord, our God, used His. “If you only have the faith of a mustard seed,” you can show all the riches of the world around. Mind you, not material things.
What all of us, every one of us, need to do is put “Our Faith Together”
and bring love, peace, cures for every illness, food, and water to everyone the world over. Can We All Be Brothers and Sisters? Yes, because We Are!
The graces of time are not forgotten.
We are all a part of our ancestors. The faith goes on. We live our lives with barriers of which we know not. We see, we touch, we hear, we feel, we taste, we survive. We can do more than survive.
I remember the voice that used to tell me, “This is the right way,”
and I would go left. How I wish I would have listened. I would not have suffered in the ways I did. I also recall struggling to get my spirit to come back. Only to let go and be idle, lazy, and feeling nothing.
It’s such an awful waste of time to destroy oneself with negativity.
It alters one’s functioning ability. It is a disability in every sense of the word. Every negative thought is a disability because it is so hard to let yourself learn to use your thinking constructively. September 1989.
The Scriptures
Remember the former things of old: for I am God, and there is none else; I am God, and there is none like me, Declaring the end from the beginning, and from ancient times the things that are not yet done, saying, My counsel shall stand, and I will do all my pleasure. — Isaiah 46:9-10
The thing that hath been, it is that which shall be; and that which is done is that which shall be done: and there is no new thing under the sun. Is there any thing whereof it may be said, See, this is new? it hath been already of old time, which was before us. — Ecclesiastes 1:9-10
Jesus Christ the same yesterday, and to day, and for ever. — Hebrews 13:8
And Jesus said unto them, Because of your unbelief: for verily I say unto you, If ye have faith as a grain of mustard seed, ye shall say unto this mountain, Remove hence to yonder place; and it shall remove; and nothing shall be impossible unto you. — Matthew 17:20
And the Lord said, If ye had faith as a grain of mustard seed, ye might say unto this sycamine tree, Be thou plucked up by the root, and be thou planted in the sea; and it should obey you. — Luke 17:6
There is neither Jew nor Greek, there is neither bond nor free, there is neither male nor female: for ye are all one in Christ Jesus. — Galatians 3:28
And thine ears shall hear a word behind thee, saying, This is the way, walk ye in it, when ye turn to the right hand, and when ye turn to the left. — Isaiah 30:21
For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind. — 2 Timothy 1:7
Casting down imaginations, and every high thing that exalt itself against the knowledge of God, and bringing into captivity every thought to the obedience of Christ. — 2 Corinthians 10:5
Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things. — Philippians 4:8
He that rule his spirit is better than he that taketh a city. — Proverbs 16:32
The Affirmations
I am existing beyond human time. I rest my awareness in the eternal presence of God, where the past, present, and future are held safely in His hands.
I am walking in His steps. My spirit connects deeply with the path of Jesus Christ, unhindered by distance, years, or earthly spaces.
I am secure in my divine perception. I trust the unique spiritual sight given to me by the Holy Spirit, independent of the understanding of this world.
I am moving beyond survival. I step out of past limitations and live fully in the deep purpose of everlasting life that God has placed inside my heart.
I am united in global faith. I join my spirit with my true brothers and sisters across the earth, releasing material desires to bring forth real love, peace, and healing.
I am free from the weight of negativity. I choose to let go of old regrets, idle spaces, and self-destructive thoughts, reclaiming my vibrant spirit through the light of Christ.
I am a constructive and powerful thinker.
I cast down every negative limitation and use 100 percent of my mind to build up love, peace, and divine purpose.
Reflections
This final movement of the writing layout exposes the true warfare of the human journey, revealing that our greatest battle takes place entirely within our own minds. Looking back at the moments where we ignored the inner guiding voice and went left instead of right shows the heavy toll of human suffering.
Yet, the true tragedy lies in the idle, lazy spaces where the spirit goes numb. Choosing negativity is a true disability—a heavy, self-made barrier that physically alters our ability to function and separates us from our divine purpose.
To step out of survival mode and into the fullness of everlasting life, we must deliberately train our minds to think constructively. We are all deeply connected to our ancestors, carrying a legacy of faith that must go on. By putting our faith together, we break through the unseen barriers of the flesh and realize our true identity as brothers and sisters under God.
True spiritual intelligence means taking our thoughts captive, casting away self-destruction, and unlocking the mind to bring real love, healing, and living water to a hurting world.
Life is but a never-ending circle, ageless at times but fascinating.
The circles become cycles, day by day, week by week, month by month, year by year, time never-ending but standing still.
Mountain in New Mexico
Prayer can reach the heavens,
and evil seems to lurk all around. Where do you turn? Heaven is the way, not hell. We all are here for a short time.
We have ourselves to offer in service for our fellow people, but what! Oneself is to You, Dear Lord. What you have given me, my love, is my life, to fulfill the plan you have made for every person on this planet, which we call Earth.
To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven… A time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time to pluck up that which is planted. — Ecclesiastes 3:1-2
Jesus saith unto him, I am the way, the truth, and the life: no man cometh unto the Father, but by me.
— John 14:6I beseech you therefore, brethren, by the mercies of God, that ye present your bodies a living sacrifice, holy, acceptable unto God, which is your reasonable service. — Romans 12:1
Life is but a dream.
The trials and tribulations we face are human-made. To fulfill our Creator’s plan, we need to pray and give ourselves to the Lord, and then life will kick on, in high gear.
God’s Plan is Everlasting Life. Ours is to repent our sins, to pray daily, to fast at times, and to believe that our Lord Jesus Christ died for our salvation. He died so we may live eternally if we submit ourselves to God.
Whereas ye know not what shall be on the morrow. For what is your life? It is even a vapor, that appeared for a little time, and then vanishes away. — James 4:14
For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life. — John 3:16
So many people are suffering, in all negative ways. They try to reach for peace, but they cannot find it.
Oh, so many destructive patterns man has made for himself. God did not make these unfortunate circumstances. Man started making these before the flood in Noah’s time; it is true, “Oh ye of little faith.”
We all lose our faith at the drop of a pin,
but the Lord is there to pick us right up and love us no matter what. We can repent of our sins, forgive ourselves and others, and hand it directly to the Lord in Jesus’ name.
And GOD saw that the wickedness of man was great in the earth, and that every imagination of the thoughts of his heart was only evil continually. — Genesis 6:5
And immediately Jesus stretched forth his hand, and caught him, and said unto him, O thou of little faith, wherefore did thou doubt? — Matthew 14:31
If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness. — 1 John 1:9
What a joy to know, we can be saved, and we can live beautiful, peaceful lives. If we abide by the words from the prophets from God. Everything the people of the world should know that is right and “true” is in the Bible.
Our eternal lives are at hand.
Give yourselves, through Jesus Christ, to God, and He will take care of every one of us.
There is too much ugliness in the world, so let us raise our hearts and minds up to the heavens, and bring back the truly beautiful aspects of life. Therefore, making us open souls to rise to heaven when God is ready for us.
Let us not wait much longer. Love your husbands, love your wives, love your children, love your family, love your friends, and by all means love yourself. Think! Creative joy is in your hands. April 1988.
Thy word is true from the beginning: and every one of thy righteous judgments endure for ever. — Psalm 119:160
Set your affection on things above, not on things on the earth. — Colossians 3:2
Beloved, let us love one another: for love is of God; and every one that love is born of God, and knoweth God. — 1 John 4:7
The Affirmations
I am in Presence.
I stand securely in the ever-present light of Christ, where the personal self fades and the spirit awakens.
I am secure in God’s care.
I release all past burdens and align completely with a true state of being.
I am guided by His truth.
My thoughts and steps are led by the enduring wisdom of the Word.
I am an open channel for healing.
I welcome divine peace into my heart, moving forward through grace, trials, and triumphs.
In Reflections:
Inside the passing of human time, the world can easily feel like a tangled, spinning circle filled with heavy trials and lurking shadows. Yet, the moment we awaken to pure being, we discover that these struggles are human-made, and our true anchor is already waiting.
By turning directly to the Lord in Jesus name, we hand over our burdens, break free from old patterns, and allow our lives to kick into high gear under His divine plan.
Entering this true soul sanctuary requires us to raise our minds above the earthly noise and look toward the heavens. Every right and true direction we seek has already been written down for us.
As we choose to repent, forgive, and live as completely open souls, we bring real heavenly beauty back down to earth. The ultimate destination of this spiritual trail is absolute love.
By anchoring our lives in the Word, we find the freedom to love our spouses, our children, our friends, and our own souls. Rest in this profound clarity: you are never abandoned, you are entirely taken care of, and the power of creative joy is resting safely in your hands.
It is not, The State of Being, It Is The Being, One with, The Most Holy of Holy. It is Peace, Without Calamity.
An original photograph capturing an incredible red sunset at the house, reflecting the deep, peaceful colors.
It Exacts, The Timings of Events, all on an Evolutionary Roller Coaster, through The Passages, from yours, Darkest Hour.
The events are high points, with a lot of punches, through the transition. With the unfolding of each phase, comes the understanding of the reasons, these events took the last place.
Scripture: “To everything there is a season, A time for every purpose under heaven.” — Ecclesiastes 3:1
Scripture: “That they all may be one, as You, Father, are in Me, and I in You; that they also may be one in Us…” — John 17:21
II. Surrender of Self-Will
At this point, you are ready, to abandon, your will, To God, entirely and accept, the transitions, as stepping stones, to a broader range, of one’s consciousness. Through, The Spirit of Christ our sin is forgiven, and our hearts realize, the truth of existence, and we know we are loved.
Scripture: “Then Jesus said to His disciples, ‘If anyone desires to come after Me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross, and follow Me.'” — Matthew 16:24
Scripture: “I have been crucified with Christ; it is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me…” — Galatians 2:20
III. The Process of Elimination & Refining Fire
Once the will is given up, the process of elimination
continues its journey, through the darkest corners of your soul, replacing it with forgiveness, and understanding.
Putting away, all the pain, of your past, and leaving the pain, and anguish where it belongs. In the destruction of the desolation. Left in the fire, from sin to forgiveness, in turn, separating your soul, from anymore, destruction. It is total abandonment, of one’s own will.
Scripture: “Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; old things have passed away; behold, all things have become new.” — 2 Corinthians 5:17
Scripture: “When you walk through the fire, you shall not be burned, nor shall the flame scorch you.” — Isaiah 43:2
IV. The Seventh Mountain & The Offered Gift
At the point, where there is a substantial confrontation, there is a gift offered! The mind has had all information, from man, formation from a not so distant past — all the while, the most significant power comes from the beginning and the end.
The real realization comes in:
The confrontation is the seventh mountain, which you have climbed. All in the journey, through your place, in existence. We come at different stages, in time, a gift offering.
A gift from God, through Jesus Christ. It is sitting, there as pretty, as you please. Your choice to accept in totality, or deny in more disaster. I am offered a gift, from God, but how can I accept it? I am not worthy, of a gift. My mind knows there is a God, but my heart, has no peace, no feeling.
Scripture: “For by grace you have been saved through faith, and that not of yourselves; it is the gift of God, not of works, lest anyone should boast.” — Ephesians 2:8–9
Scripture: “This is a faithful saying and worthy of all acceptance, that Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners…” — 1 Timothy 1:15
V. The Ignited Spark & Acceptance
The Gift Offered:
Do You Accept Jesus Christ as Your Personal Savior? Yes. I have tried six times. It did not take. How do I get to Christ? Here is a gift, Salvation. What does this mean? Look into your heart. My heart does not feel. Do you accept the gift? Look down deep within. How can I accept it? I am a sinner. A Gift from God. Do You Accept Jesus Christ as Your Personal Savior?
Yes! “All questions still unanswered.” Then, in the pure giving up of a futile fight, of self-will, there is a tiny opening in the core of your heart. The spark ignited; you know you can feel it. At this time, the question was asked again. Yes, I accept God’s Gift. I accept Jesus Christ as my personal savior.
Scripture: “And He said to me, ‘My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.'” — 2 Corinthians 12:9
Scripture: “Behold, I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears My voice and opens the door, I will come in to him…” — Revelation 3:20
VI. Cleansing, Unfolding, and Baptism
From that second, you accept him completely. Your life starts unfolding. The old misconceptions of life are being eliminated through a process of transition, which takes a ritual cleansing. The life, which was without hope, is placed in and through Jesus Christ for the purification of the soul, in its rightful place.
At this time, there is no shame, no embarrassment in accepting Christ. Directly following the unfolding is clarity in receiving the understanding of God’s words in the Holy Bible.
At this time, baptism is offered. Still no shame, and seven days later. The baptism, in the name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit, occurs. The death of the old life, a life, knew, in the journey, from sin, into clarity, of our real, reality.
Scripture: “Therefore we were buried with Him through baptism into death, that just as Christ was raised from the dead by the glory of the Father, even so we also should walk in newness of life.” — Romans 6:4
Scripture: “For I am not ashamed of the gospel of Christ, for it is the power of God to salvation for everyone who believes…” — Romans 1:16
VII. Fusion, Healing, and Justification
The distinction of precise fusion with Jesus Christ, my personal Savior, is describable and authentic.
The Passion of Christ entreats your being with the answers of the whole. With Christ, they are not subject to change, for through Jesus Christ is life by the gift of accepting him unconditionally. There is no exception to the rule.
Through Christ’s love for us, He generates love for us and walks with us out of the midst of the fire and brings us out whole; this is justification, to which there is no other. The scars are cured of pain, and the knowledge of the envelopment is granted.
Scripture: “Therefore, having been justified by faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ.” — Romans 5:1
Scripture: “Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or peril, or sword? … Yet in all these things we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us.” — Romans 8:35, 37
VIII. Armor of God & Closing Testimony
The truth is the only reality, and there is only one truth. That truth is God and the Holy Words: by faith, we receive the holiest of Sacraments, the Armor of Jesus Christ Our Lord and Savior. Blessed with the Most Holy Spirit, the Holy Ghost, which lives in us. In Jesus Christ’s Omnipresent Name. Selah. Amen, December 1, 1996.
Scripture: “Put on the whole armor of God, that you may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil.” — Ephesians 6:11
Scripture: “Jesus said to him, ‘I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through Me.'” — John 14:6
The State of Being Affirmations
I am in a true state of being.
I step away from the clutter of the world and sit in the absolute stillness of God’s presence.
I am an authentic soul.
I drop all human-made burdens and allow my inner life to align with my Creator’s plan.
I am a direct channel for divine peace.
I quiet my mind, look to the heavens, and let divine communication guide my path.
I am resting in eternal union.
I am anchored firmly in the truth of the Word, where my spirit awakens and earthly fears fade.
In Reflection: To step into a true spiritual state of being, we must look past the noise of the outside world and settle into the sacred presence within.
These original spiritual reflections serve as an invitation to pause, quiet the mind, and experience a mindful presence of spirit. It is in this precise space of inner stillness and awakening that the personal self begins to fade.
Entering the Soul Sanctuary: Remaining attentive to the sacred requires a deliberate practice of deep listening and transformative reflection.
When we choose to dwell in the here and now, we open our hearts to a profound true self reconnection. This is not a forced transformation, but a gentle alignment with an internal state of peace and the quiet movement of God.
The Awakening: Through these meditative spiritual narratives, the journey leads us back to clarity.
By anchoring our awareness in conscious awareness and internal stillness, we step into a lifestyle defined by a heart filled with grace, absolute spiritual clarity, and emotional freedom.
Safe Haven for the transitional year after the last fight with yourself. Began in January 1996, this timeline reflects a true state of being established eleven months after the transition started.
The text is finalized and complete, with original photography and design touches coming along later in God’s perfect time.
