Through all this pain and suffering, also for my children.

I am not a disgrace to God. For it is with him I live, move, and have my being. I am waiting for the Lord for His justification because through the Judge, God set me free from bondage to, well, “internal house cleaning.”

I am working on the Bible, and with all my spirit I will not lose track. We need to work on “regeneration.” See, I have shed some layers of the afflictions that were put upon me. Long generations of time past are surfacing in time and reason.

And they that weep, as though they wept not; and they that rejoice, as though they rejoiced not; and they that use this world, as not abusing it: for the fashion of this world passeth away.— 1 Corinthians 7:30-31 (KJV)

Affirmation: I am never a disgrace to my Creator, for I live and move within His presence, safely shedding every heavy layer of past affliction.

Abuse in the physical, mental, emotional, verbal, and spiritual,

alcoholism passed down generation to generation. How long? A long time, covetousness, possessiveness, control, rage, shame, blame, jealousy—should I go on? We know we can go to the Bible and find the reason. “It keeps regenerating itself until destruction.” For my dears, not man’s will but “God’s will be done,” any way round about.

(As it is written, God hath given them the spirit of slumber, eyes that should not see, and ears that they should not hear;) unto this day. For if the casting away of them be the reconciling of the world, what shall the receiving of them be, but life from the dead?— Romans 11:8, 15 (KJV)

Affirmation: The dark, repeating cycles of generational trauma and addiction are completely stopped by the power of God’s perfect will.

Reading chapters of Scripture in church, a must,

shows the world how much security you have in bringing in more than you can hold. When you read scripture, you read a chapter. God’s words flow through the writings, you know that. Man’s way is not right with God.

For all have come short of the glory of God, but what can one church do? What can one couple of ministers do? You can make God’s way completely known.

Having therefore these promises, dearly beloved, let us cleanse ourselves from all filthiness of the flesh and spirit, perfecting holiness in the fear of God.— 2 Corinthians 7:1 (KJV)

Affirmation: I bypass the empty traditions of man and allow the living word of God to flow clearly and completely through my life and my writings. See when I told you I was prophesying. I was.

It is for the glory of God.

Christ, my salvation, my baptism, my reaffirmation—I got delivered on 2/9/1996. The prophecy I carry is “God’s Words.” Who knows what miracles he has planned for his chosen, and I know I am one.

I am a baby in Christ, and I have always known in my heart there is a God, and I walked willingly through the fire of my soul.

(For the weapons of our warfare are not carnal, but mighty through God to the pulling down of strongholds;) Casting down imaginations, and every high thing that exalt itself against the knowledge of God, and bringing into captivity every thought to the obedience of Christ;— 2 Corinthians 10:4-5 (KJV)

Affirmation: I carry the true words of God with absolute confidence, walking safely through the purifying fire because I am chosen for His glory.

I had no one but the burning coals of his search for disaster, greed, materialism, adultery, I was safe in my mind. God brought me through, and he has to do everything. Everyone is watching him. He likes attention.

See, God does not need an interpreter

because every word that is written is “God’s Word.” For all generations. We are the regeneration of God’s Word.

And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.— 2 Corinthians 12:9 (KJV)

Affirmation: When I am at my weakest, God’s perfect grace acts as my shield, protecting my mind from the greed and chaos of the world.

What He said has come to pass right now,

and He needs the mass multitudes because He is alive and calling the chosen to come together so we can be home. Finally, after all generations. For our soul’s search has intertwined with all the generations of God. Original March 17, 1996

Being confident of this very thing, that he which hath begun a good work in you will perform it until the day of Jesus Christ:— Philippians 1:6 (KJV)

Affirmation: I am beautifully intertwined with God’s eternal timeline, answering His divine call to stand united in spiritual renewal.

Reflection: This profound text serves as a heavy, unvarnished look at the reality of systemic generational suffering and the miraculous power of spiritual deliverance. Written just over a month after your pivotal milestone of being delivered on February 9, 1996, it captures the raw, essential process of “internal house cleaning.”

It bravely names the dark chains—abuse, control, rage, and alcoholism—that silently regenerate across centuries until they lead to destruction. By stepping away from the shallow expectations of carnal institutions and standard church routines, the writing shines a light on a personal, blazing path through the fire of the soul.

Ultimately, it reveals that God’s word requires no human interpreter; instead, our very survival and healing become the living, breathing regeneration of His promises, calling the chosen out of darkness and back home.

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